tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-48592058360914479382024-02-28T17:44:21.392-06:00This Place in TimeTheresehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04794387209137253119noreply@blogger.comBlogger809125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4859205836091447938.post-72374846463841716402023-12-17T14:40:00.000-06:002024-01-30T14:40:47.926-06:00M + M: December 2023 (The Hopes and Fears of All the Years)<p>As has been the trends this fall, I started this email last month and I'm finally sending it out this month! I had surgery 2.5 weeks ago and recovery has been a little rougher than I anticipated. Exacerbated, I think, by the fact that I have to do this two more times in February and that feels a little intimidating. But I think it will be worth it. I have dealt with truly awful pain for about 1/3 of the month for most of my adult life, but particularly in the last 5 years. I truly feel like I tried everything holistic I possibly could and I finally just realized I'd tried it all, and feeling like this was unsustainable. So I took myself and my lingering health issues to a NaPro surgeon. I had a D & C that did intentify/help remove some of my bleeding issues, and I also asked her to do a laparoscopy while I was under anesthesia because I was already committed to the process.</p><p data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text">She found severe endometriosis as well as herniated round ligaments. Which not only explains why I was in so much pain monthly, but also explains why I was in so much pain with my last pregnancy, and why bodywork, stretching, spinning babies, etc consistency make me feel worse (I cringe every time I think how I was stretching an already torn and overstretched ligament!) I actually initially drafted a whole email about gaslighting and both allopathic and holistic providers kind of shaming your symptoms instead of taking them seriously or referring you on. But I realized that it required too much nuance, so into the podcast drafts folder it goes!</span></p><p data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span style="font-size: 32px;"><span style="color: #504d4b;">What I'm learning</span></span></span></span></p><p data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text">What I've learned through all of this is that, of course, health is more complex than any one provider can give it credit for. Trauma, history, genetics, environment, diet, nutrition, mindset, community. It all plays a part. And each part might need something different to heal. What's helping me right now happens to be two surgeons coordinating an 8 hour robotic surgery to remove things that shouldn't be there and repair things that should. </span></p><p data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text">I'm anxious, but weirdly relieved. An endo diagnosis has been a long time in coming and it's so validating. I also feel like I'm far enough into ownership over my own health that having a diagnosis like this doesn't feel too overwhelming or victimizing. The endo surgeon asked me prior to surgery if I had specific pain points and I gave her some detailed diagrams. Every point but one of them can be explained by large endometriosis lesions or the round ligament damage. I'm glad I finally accepted that I didn't want to be in this much pain forever, and that it wasn't a normal amount of pain, regardless of what I told myself for a long time.</span></p><p data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span style="font-size: 32px;"><span style="color: #504d4b;">What I'm reading</span></span></span></span></p><p data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text">Ahhhhh I finally returned two overdue books to the library, so my Libby account has been unlocked. I was an avid books-only reader until about 3 years ago, and I have to admit that reading on my Kindle is a game-changer with small kids in the home! </span></p><p data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text">Good fiction can teach us so much about ourselves and the world. It doesn't even have to be stuffy literary fiction! I recently highlighted so many insightful passages in Emily Henry's </span><a data-slate-inline="true" data-slate-node="element" href="https://www.amazon.com/Happy-Place-Emily-Henry-ebook/dp/B0B7L29TB7/ref=tmm_kin_swatch_0?_encoding=UTF8&qid=1701633508&sr=8-1"><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-string="true">Happy Place</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span></a><span data-slate-node="text">. In non-fiction, I finally finished </span><a data-slate-inline="true" data-slate-node="element" href="https://www.amazon.com/What-Happened-You-Conversations-Resilience/dp/B08PW4Q284/ref=sr_1_1?crid=27EY8M6XTNTTM&keywords=what+happened+to+you%3F&qid=1701040380&sprefix=what+happened+to+you+%2Caps%2C125&sr=8-1"><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-string="true">What Happened to You?</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span></a><span data-slate-node="text"> I really didn't like Oprah's side of the conversation... it didn't seem to add value to the book as a whole. However, Dr. Bruce Perry does a really great job of breaking down what trauma is, how it affect us, and how we move through it. I really appreciated his segments.</span></p><p data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text">This isn't quiiiiiite what I'm reading right now, but I read </span><a data-slate-inline="true" data-slate-node="element" href="https://www.amazon.com/Daisy-Jones-Six-TV-Tie/dp/0593598423/ref=tmm_pap_swatch_0?_encoding=UTF8&qid=1702844048&sr=8-1"><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-string="true">Daisy Jones and the Six</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span></a><span data-slate-node="text"> a few years ago. If you haven't gotten into Taylor Jenkins Reid yet, I highly recommend her novels. I was skeptical when I heard a limited TV series was coming out with an adaptation, but I started watching Daisy Jones and the Six while recovering post-op, and WOW. I guess it has a bunch of Golden Globes nominations, so I'm not alone in thinking the acting is truly phenomenal and the filmography is stunning. It might be the only time I've ever said the screen version was better than the book!</span></p><p data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span style="font-size: 32px;"><span style="color: #504d4b;">What I'm listening to</span></span></span></span></p><p data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text">I've listened to a lot of podcasts this month, driving to appointments and doing food prep. Here are my favorites:</span></p><ul data-slate-node="element" style="list-style-position: inside;"><li data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-length="0" data-slate-zero-width="z"></span></span></span><a data-slate-inline="true" data-slate-node="element" href="https://open.spotify.com/episode/41TE4wtAz8meGnDUxj0hLK?si=-FylvuGeS4mi9L58RL-RKg"><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-string="true">The Emotional Impact of Divorce, part 1</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span></a><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-string="true"> on the Bravewriter podcast. No, I'm not getting divorced. Although I was close to it this time 5 years ago. However, we all know someone who has been affected by divorce. Julie (the podcast host) is in her 50s with grown children and she's active in AlAnon recovery. She's also the most realistic homeschool podcaster I listen to. So I knew she'd have some great insights about marriage, parenting, and school choice in this episode, and I was right. Can't wait to listen to part 2!</span></span></span></span></li><li data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-length="0" data-slate-zero-width="z"></span></span></span><a data-slate-inline="true" data-slate-node="element" href="https://open.spotify.com/episode/3JvYPQWHM4oWsZM68Jvz20?si=hjJi8fh0RymSplp1Fu5Bug"><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-string="true">How to Make the Rest of 2023 Easier</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span></a><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-string="true"> on the Lazy Genius podcast. Once of the lazy genius principles is Knowing Your Season, and for a long time, I knew that even the simple, straightforward advice that Kendra offers would be too overwhelming. However, I've been back on the Lazy Genius train lately. Even if I'm not truly implementing what she talks about, I always appreciate the points she brings up and it allows me to think through whatever current challenge she's discussing, even if I don't sit and journal through it.</span></span></span></span></li></ul><p data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span style="font-size: 32px;"><span style="color: #504d4b;">On my podcast</span></span></span></span></p><p data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text">I started a podcast called </span><a data-slate-inline="true" data-slate-node="element" href="https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/milk-motherhood/id1653446438"><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-string="true">Milk + Motherhood</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span></a><span data-slate-node="text"> last October. Season 1 was focused on postpartum identity, recovery, and nutrition. Seson 2 is dove into more specialized subjects regarding postparutm and motherhood. Season 3 is coming this spring!</span></p><p data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text">Even if you don't listen, check out the shownotes for a wealth of additional information on subjects like postpartum nutrition and biologically normal infant sleep. Spotify wrap-ups just told me these were your favorite episodes in the past year:</span></p><p data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text">--</span><a data-slate-inline="true" data-slate-node="element" href="https://open.spotify.com/episode/0Q760ERh8XNoIs7KdbTq4X?si=PCLWe2OBRzuRNeY_S7L6Iw"><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-string="true"> Wise Traditions in Early Motherhood with Sally Fallon</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span></a><span data-slate-node="text"> -- </span><a data-slate-inline="true" data-slate-node="element" href="https://open.spotify.com/episode/0l12NUrWSV80VXsFfBCfHF?si=cI3ziRddQyq-7-P-9KMWMg"><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-string="true">What to Expect When You Were Expecting to Sleep Like a Baby with Taylor Kulik</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span></a><span data-slate-node="text"> -- </span><a data-slate-inline="true" data-slate-node="element" href="https://open.spotify.com/episode/7hMcl8vhLMnWgT40SQdn5u?si=Z8OTbfEWTUC2KKpz1pJxMA"><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-string="true">Breastfeeding a Baby with Food Allergies with Dr. Trill</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span></a><span data-slate-node="text"> If you're loving the podcast, please subscribe and leave an </span><a data-slate-inline="true" data-slate-node="element" href="https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/milk-motherhood/id1653446438?see-all=reviews"><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-string="true">Apple podcast review</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span></a><span data-slate-node="text">! It's really easy to type a few sentences in, and it helps more people find the fantastic information my guests are sharing with you all. I also love it when you screenshot the episode you're listening to and tag me in your Instagram stories (@happy.mama.healthy.baby)</span></p><p data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span style="font-size: 32px;"><span style="color: #504d4b;">What We're Eating</span></span></span></span></p><p data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text">You all got my freezer meal freebie when you signed up for this newsletter, and if you haven't opened it yet, you're missing out. This is helpful for any busy life season, not just postpartum. I made about half a dozen of these meals to prepare for my surgery and it was so helpful because I was more down and out than I anticipated. Will absolutely be doing this again in February.</span></p><p data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text">I also ordered a few frozen meals from </span><a data-slate-inline="true" data-slate-node="element" href="https://mamameals-oc.myshopify.com/?sca_ref=5057616.BFjMVQJkgT"><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-string="true">Mama Meals</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span></a><span data-slate-node="text"> to eat for lunch those first two weeks post-op and I was so happy with them! Totally wish they'd been a postpartum option for me, but I will absolutely be using them again post-op.</span></p><p data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span style="font-size: 32px;"><span style="color: #504d4b;">Seasonal Recipe</span></span></span></span></p><p data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text">Do you eat cinnamon rolls on Christmas? It was my family's tradition growing up, and I've stuck to it with my kids. But going gluten free and then, at various points with various kids, dairy free and egg free, it's felt like an impossible task some years and we've had some pretty sub-par cinnamon roll attempts. Last Easter, I found this recipe and I remember LOVING IT. Just got my brown rice starter out of the fridge, and I'm hoping </span><a data-slate-inline="true" data-slate-node="element" href="https://agirlworthsaving.net/cinnamon-buns-gluten-free-sourdough/"><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-string="true">these cinnamon rolls</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span></a><span data-slate-node="text"> are as good as I remember!</span></p><p data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span style="font-size: 32px;"><span style="color: #504d4b;">Parting Thoughts</span></span></span></span></p><p 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data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text">Thank you so much for subscribing to this little missive, following me on social media, supporting my podcast, and using my affiliate links. I'm so grateful for this community and your support.</span></p>Theresehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04794387209137253119noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4859205836091447938.post-61754045213755167032023-10-27T16:59:00.001-05:002023-11-26T17:00:36.493-06:00M + M: October 2023 (Fall... and Falling)<p><span style="color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px;">Our October started off with a bang. Our toddler loves moving chairs all over the house to get over the baby gates he's not able to just scramble over, so we bought a solid wood picnic table to put in the dining room for a while. While we were unloading the table, said toddler tried to "help" while our backs were turned, and pulled the table top entirely onto himself. What could have been very tragic ended up being a wild ride. In an ambulance. Separated from my baby with a head injury of unknown severity.</span></p><p class="" style="color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;"><br />After hours in the ER, it turned out he had a broken brow bone and elbow, but no brain bleeding or swelling. No spinal cord injury. No abdominal injuries. We stayed overnight for pain relief, got an arm cast 48 hours later, and have had tons of follow-ups. But he got his cast off yesterday, and we have our big appointments with ophthalmology and plastic surgery next week, and now somehow October is almost over.<br /><br />The whole ordeal has been stressful and very expensive (the $99 picnic table that actually cost $40,000) but since my son is still his usual feisty self, the aftermath of this finds me with a sense of relief. I usually tend to think, "yes it could have been worse, but please validate what I AM feeling about what DID happen." But this time, it's just pure relief for some reason.</p><p class="" style="color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;"><span style="color: #504d4b;"><span style="font-size: 32px;">What I'm learning</span></span></p><p class="" style="color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">In light of the above story, I'm solidifying some of the vague feelings of shifting life seasons and gratitude for what I do have. As we emerge from a solid 5 years of hard thing after hard thing, traumatic event after traumatic event, I find myself with the old temptation to look back and dissect it all to make sense of it. To define when this season starts and ends. To prove to other people that it's been hard.<br /><br />But these days, I just have to say about 3 sentences to my new counselor and see the look on her fact to know that this season has been hard by all accounts and my emotions are proportional to what went down. I don't need the world to know my story or to care, but a few compassionate witnesses makes all the difference.<br /><br />The cloudy weather today reminds me that I'll never fully make sense of the dark seasons. And more will certainly come and go. The hazy borders don't make the clouds less real. But I also don't need to manufacture grey skies when they're not there to prove that they were there at one point.<br /><br />All I've had energy for this month is putting one foot in front of the other and enjoying the sun when it shines. Maybe someday there will be a beach vacation. For now, treading water feels like a relief compared to drowning.<br /><br />"How kind is weariness sometimes! It is like the Father's hand laid a little heavy on the heart to make it still." George MacDonald</p><p class="" style="color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;"><span style="color: #504d4b;"><span style="font-size: 32px;">What I'm reading</span></span></p><p class="" style="color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">My reading life had been a bit of a bummer this month. Partly because my Libby account is locked down thanks to overdue library books! Like, I think I re-read some novels that were on my Kindle, but nothing new or life-changing. I have been reading Hard is Not the Same as Bad for my book club, but I'm not a fan, so I'm not even going to link to that ;-)</p><p class="" style="color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;"><span style="color: #504d4b;"><span style="font-size: 32px;">What I'm listening to</span></span></p><p class="" style="color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">Again listening to anything requiring brainpower was put on hold for most of this month:</p><p class="" style="color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;"></p><ul class="unordered_list" style="color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; list-style-position: outside !important; margin: 1em 0px 1em 1em; padding: 0px;"><li class="list_item" style="margin: 0px 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px 0px 0px 1em;">I've actually been listening to lots of music, and cautiously starting to praise and celebrate more that way. If you have Spotify, you can listen to my current playlist <a href="https://open.spotify.com/playlist/2vqxpouEMgOOEY7g6fVfQW?si=b2da5f8f3ee84d49" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="color: #936883;" target="_blank">HERE</a>.</li></ul><p class="" style="color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;"></p><ul class="unordered_list" style="color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; list-style-position: outside !important; margin: 1em 0px 1em 1em; padding: 0px;"><li class="list_item" style="margin: 0px 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px 0px 0px 1em;"><a href="https://open.spotify.com/episode/1jSQH6OjWWqcDSX4EElUsH?si=cad71e246fde41bd" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="color: #936883;" target="_blank">Anemia, Iron Deficiency, and IV Iron</a> on the Curbsiders Internal Medicine Podcast. My Nurse Practitioner friend Karin shared this with me, since I've been diving into iron this past year. She and I will eventually talk about this on my own podcast, because WOW there's a lot of bad information and advice on both sides of the iron debates on social media.</li></ul><p class="" style="color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;"></p><ul class="unordered_list" style="color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; list-style-position: outside !important; margin: 1em 0px 1em 1em; padding: 0px;"><li class="list_item" style="margin: 0px 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px 0px 0px 1em;"><a href="https://open.spotify.com/episode/11fTNHUzXIOpQOp3pRGY0V?si=58b3bb8029b74149" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="color: #936883;" target="_blank">Are We in a Pre War Era?</a> on the Honestly podcast. I'm not usually one for politics or current events, but I find this podcast to be more... honest than most news outlets. I appreciate the variety of perspectives, and this one was really good. It came out this summer, but I listened to it a few days after the recent devastating Israel/Hamas conflicts began and found it to be really enlightening.</li></ul><p class="" style="color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;"><span style="color: #504d4b;"><span style="font-size: 32px;">On my podcast</span></span></p><p class="" style="color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">Happy one year birthday to my podcast!!! I started a podcast called <a href="https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/milk-motherhood/id1653446438" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="color: #936883;" target="_blank">Milk + Motherhood</a> last October. Season 1 was focused on postpartum identity, recovery, and nutrition. Seson 2 is diving into more specialized subjects regarding postparutm and motherhood. </p><p class="" style="color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">Even if you don't listen, check out the shownotes for a wealth of additional information on these subjects. I actually haven't had any new ones this month! I had meant to get a weaning episode out to wrap up season 2, but obviously this month got a little crazier than normal. However, here are some of my favorites (and yours) from the past year:</p><p class="" style="color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">2.) <a href="https://open.spotify.com/episode/1eUHTQsiP0oMZlGU2HG57l?si=PdAgCyjhRSaMNQiOafjZ1g" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="color: #936883;" target="_blank">The Birth of a Mother with Amanda Radan</a><br /><br />My herbalist friend Amanda was my first guest. She says, "Matrescence is the change that happens between who you are and who you're becoming. Adolescence takes years and your body changes, your hormones change, what you like and dislike changes, and how you act and see the world changes. The same goes for matrescence. The only difference is, there's a clear start to matrescence: birth."</p><p class="" style="color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">6.) <a href="https://open.spotify.com/episode/4O7bqZcRVHoNsqNXVoRo4V?si=BgV38RnjRiesyTJHp3dE_g" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="color: #936883;" target="_blank">Minerals + Motherhood with Amanda Montalvo</a></p><p class="" style="color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">This is a crowd favorite, where Amanda (@HormoneHealingRD) and I chat about how mom's mineral status may or may not affect breastmilk. I love that Amanda's approach to this is intuitive and not rule- or fear-based: "Just be mindful of any lab testing. It's only going to get you so far. I think it can be helpful, but if it's not going to change what you're currently doing, if you don't have the capacity to change what you're doing, the test might only add stress and not help right now... Our bodies are so intelligent. At some point we have to drop in and listen to what our bodies actually need. Ultimately, you have to do the best with what you have. It's easy to want to focus and control and fixate on food, but what else are you giving your baby? We give them nourishment in so many other ways."</p><p class="" style="color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">23.) <a href="https://open.spotify.com/episode/1sbAJBnbePK5pTqk7ftmmV?si=uMNeqxW6TP-ywQ7ZXAO-2Q" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="color: #936883;" target="_blank">Does my Baby Really Need a Probiotic? With Cheryl Sew Hoy</a><br /><br />One of the most frequent DM questions I get is some variation of, "My baby has eczema/mucousy poop/food allergies/colic... what's the best probiotic?" I finally recorded an entire podcast with extensive resources in the show notes send people when they ask this question. <br /><br />In short, you may not need probiotics at all, and if you do, there's no way to know which strains you need without testing. Taking the wrong strain will be expensive poop at best, and problematic at worst. This is my fourth most-listened to episode because many natural health practitioners tout the benefits of certain brands of probiotics, but a one-size-fits-all approach can leave moms pretty confused as to what's best for THEIR baby's needs.</p><p class="" style="color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">Tiny Health is having a SALE right now, too! Their baseline kit is $199 and it INCLUDES a very in-depth report. This is much cheaper than other types of GI testing with holistic practitioners. However, for those who want even more information, or learn better through interaction, there's now an option to add-on a call with a functional health practitioner. <a href="https://www.tinyhealth.com/store/baby-gut-health-test" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="color: #936883;" target="_blank">This package</a> will be $249 after October 31, but for right now it's $199. This means the functional consult is free, PLUS you get an additional $20 off with my code HAPPYMAMA20.<br /></p><p class="" style="color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;"></p><p class="" style="color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">If you're loving the podcast, please subscribe and leave an <a href="https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/milk-motherhood/id1653446438?see-all=reviews" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="color: #936883;" target="_blank">Apple podcast review</a>! It's really easy to type a few sentences in, and it helps more people find the fantastic information my guests are sharing with you all. </p><p class="" style="color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;"><span style="color: #504d4b;"><span style="font-size: 32px;">What We're Eating</span></span></p><p class="" style="color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">I... don't even know. I always resort to <a href="https://www.amazon.com/shop/happy.mama.healthy.baby?ref_=cm_sw_r_cp_ud_aipsfshop_aipsfhappy.mama.healthy.baby_P0YFKKAN4WHFWY3E5TCZ" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="color: #936883;" target="_blank">Cook Once Dinner Fix</a> when life is crazy, which has definitely been the case this month.</p><p class="" style="color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;"><span style="color: #504d4b;"><span style="font-size: 32px;">Seasonal Recipe</span></span></p><table border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="email-image" style="color: black; float: none; table-layout: fixed; text-align: center; width: 100%;"><tbody><tr><td align="center" style="vertical-align: top;"><figure style="display: inline-block; margin: 12px 0px; max-width: 757px; width: 628px;"><div><img height="auto" src="https://embed.filekitcdn.com/e/o4sKKveXHU86XoNV1PX4Bw/782ztAQRhijNS8kZypnCV9?auto=" style="border-radius: 4px; border: 0px none; display: block; height: auto; line-height: 16px; max-width: 100%; object-fit: contain; outline: none; text-decoration-line: none; width: 757px;" width="757" /></div><p class="" style="color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">Our neighbors gifted us a bunch of green apples, so we recently made our favorite apple pie! I use Wholly Gluten Free frozen pie crust + <a href="https://www.food.com/recipe/apple-filling-for-pies-75659" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="color: #936883;" target="_blank">this filling recipe</a> and it's so good thanks to the secret ingredient: apple juice or cider! (I use arrowroot powder in place of corn starch).</p><p class="" style="color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px; text-align: left;"><span style="color: #504d4b;"><span style="font-size: 32px;">Parting Thoughts</span></span></p><p class="" style="color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">Thank you so much for subscribing to this little missive, following me on social media, supporting my podcast, and using my affiliate links. I'm so grateful for this community and your support.</p><p class="" style="color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;"></p><div class="email-content" style="background-color: #f4efed; padding: 20px;"><p class="" style="color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">As always, please share with me what <em>you're </em>loving and learning right now! If you hit reply to this email, your note will come straight to my inbox <3</p><p class="" style="color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;"><span style="font-size: 24px;">See you next month,</span></p><p class="" style="color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">Therese Dansby, RN, IBCLC</p><p class="" style="color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;"></p></div></figure></td></tr></tbody></table>Theresehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04794387209137253119noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4859205836091447938.post-81124150969127902292023-09-29T11:21:00.002-05:002023-11-26T16:57:25.252-06:00Milk + Motherhood: September 2023 (Changing Seasons of Motherhood)<p> <span data-slate-node="text">Wow I didn't mean to skip August's monthly email, and I'm barely sliding in under the ropes for September. The summer baby boom is very real! In addition to helping local mamas via in-home visits, I've also been getting the ball rolling on </span><a data-slate-inline="true" data-slate-node="element" href="https://theresedansby.wixsite.com/therese/about-6"><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-string="true">local breastfeeding classes</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span></a><span data-slate-node="text">, starting a new job at the local women's hospital, and making several changes in school and work and parenting... I've been dealing with major decision fatigue and I'm starting counseling again to process some of the big shifts I feel like we are dealing with. </span></p><p data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span style="font-size: 32px;"><span style="color: #504d4b;">What I'm learning</span></span></span></span></p><p data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text">I feel like change is the only constant in parenting and that's good and bad. This has been a major theme in my life in the last few months. Once I have a grasp on one season, we seem to jump ahead to a new one! With the 9 year old moving into a new, much more independent developmental stage, and the 1 year old being solidly a toddler, I feel like I am rapidly shifting into the middle years of motherhood. There's a lot to look forward to there, but like anything, there's also something to grieve in the season I'm leaving behind.</span></p><p data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span style="font-size: 32px;"><span style="color: #504d4b;">What I'm reading</span></span></span></span></p><p data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text">It has been so long since my July email that I can't even remember everything I've read. My favorite recent fiction read was </span><a data-slate-inline="true" data-slate-node="element" href="https://www.amazon.com/Nora-Goes-Script-Annabel-Monaghan/dp/0593420039"><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-string="true">Nora Goes off Script</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span></a><span data-slate-node="text">. I feel like good fiction (good living books, if you will) teach you a lot about yourself, life, and humanity, without tediously spelling things out. This was one of those books. It was so easy and enjoyable to read, but also relatable as the character struggles with certain aspects of motherhood and marriage. </span></p><p data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text">In non-fiction, I have started about half a dozen books but not made it very far. Those require more focus (aka not bedtime reading) and no interruptions (aka no reading with the kids awake and up and about) so there's that. But if poetry counts, I am trying to read one Mary Oliver poem per day, just to help me focus on the present and my surroundings a little more because that's the only antidote I've really found to feeling like time is moving too quickly!</span></p><p data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span style="font-size: 32px;"><span style="color: #504d4b;">What I'm listening to</span></span></span></span></p><p data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text">Here are some podcast episodes I loved listening to since we last chatted:</span></p><p data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-length="0" data-slate-zero-width="n"></span></span></p><ul data-slate-node="element" style="list-style-position: inside;"><li data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-string="true">If you struggle with the recent trend toward femininity only being flowy dresses and long hair and dreamy read-abounds and jaunts through the woods with your perfectly obliging homeschool children, this episode is for you: </span></span></span><a data-slate-inline="true" data-slate-node="element" href="https://www.theliterary.life/009-2/"><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-string="true">Are Women Human?</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span></a><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-string="true"> This podcast interview has actually changed my life, given me so much to thing about and talk about, and gave me the confidence to admit that a part-time hospital job would serve my family's time and finances really well right now. A friend share it with me after I sent this other podcast to her (</span></span></span><a data-slate-inline="true" data-slate-node="element" href="https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/190-do-homemakers-have-too-much-time-on-their-hands/id1494284839?i=1000617698448"><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-string="true">Simple Farmhouse Life: Do Homemakers Have too Much Time on Their Hands?</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span></a><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-string="true">) and... yeah. I will eventually be expounding on this in my own podcast after I read Dorothy Sayers' book on this + a few other related books.</span></span></span></span></li></ul><p data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-length="0" data-slate-zero-width="n"></span></span></p><ul data-slate-node="element" style="list-style-position: inside;"><li data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-length="0" data-slate-zero-width="z"></span></span></span><a data-slate-inline="true" data-slate-node="element" href="https://open.spotify.com/episode/7FZQSkBb3xu4XvbVJwLQrK?si=fsgyV9lbTuK1FExRl612VA"><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-string="true">How to Enjoy Your Evening Hours</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span></a><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-string="true"> on the Lazy Genius Podcast. This episode is short and practical and I really appreciated this food for thought.</span></span></span></span></li></ul><p data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-length="0" data-slate-zero-width="n"></span></span></p><ul data-slate-node="element" style="list-style-position: inside;"><li data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-length="0" data-slate-zero-width="z"></span></span></span><a data-slate-inline="true" data-slate-node="element" href="https://open.spotify.com/episode/5JHAXekSgVmqtMyzck2k91?si=qGMTD48LRxSn6NBz9g5LBg"><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-string="true">Everything Wrong with Nutrition on Social Media</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span></a><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-string="true">. If you haven't listened to Quiet the Diet yet, you're missing out. This episode was so good!</span></span></span></span></li></ul><p data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-length="0" data-slate-zero-width="n"></span></span></p><ul data-slate-node="element" style="list-style-position: inside;"><li data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-length="0" data-slate-zero-width="z"></span></span></span><a data-slate-inline="true" data-slate-node="element" href="https://open.spotify.com/episode/0Bp0g95jDywNoDe03KJVMv?si=QxZPl_lXRFCzg_Q1tIOE8w"><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-string="true">Babies Aren't the Parasites We've Been Told</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span></a><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-string="true">. This recent episode of 1000 Hours Outside podcast was about the mental load of motherhood, motherhood overwhelm, attachment, and looking to our common complaints to find out what our unmet needs are in the hard seasons.</span></span></span></span></li></ul><p data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span style="font-size: 32px;"><span style="color: #504d4b;">On my podcast</span></span></span></span></p><p data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text">Last fall, I started a podcast called </span><a data-slate-inline="true" data-slate-node="element" href="https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/milk-motherhood/id1653446438"><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-string="true">Milk + Motherhood</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span></a><span data-slate-node="text"> and it's been so fun. Season 1 was focused on postpartum identity, recovery, and nutrition. Seson 2 is diving into more specialized subjects regarding postparutm and motherhood. Even if you don't listen, check out the shownotes for a wealth of additional information on these subjects. Here are the episodes I've published since my last newsletter:</span></p><p data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text">25.) </span><a data-slate-inline="true" data-slate-node="element" href="https://open.spotify.com/episode/5qDhJtLwNAaQWxiubCNGXH?si=C_Ikdbz5QdGyHwfKb4T8-A"><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-string="true">Homeopathy for Breastfeeding and Postpartum with Jenna Dodge</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span></a><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-length="0" data-slate-zero-width="z"></span></span></p><p data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text">In this episode, I talk with Certified Classical Homeopath Jenna Dodge (</span><a data-slate-inline="true" data-slate-node="element" href="https://www.instagram.com/projecthomeopathy/"><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-string="true">@projecthomeopathy</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span></a><span data-slate-node="text">) about how homeopathy can be a helpful tool in your postpartum, breastfeeding, baby-raising era. She explains how she became a homeopath, what homeopathy is, how it works, how it differs from other home remedies like herbal tinctures, and how to find remedies that could work for you.</span></p><p data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text">26.) </span><a data-slate-inline="true" data-slate-node="element" href="https://open.spotify.com/episode/5AVN9joX3NQgsOf50T1Z68?si=pqXyLnREQ6ym4O-VERRM7g"><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-string="true">Feeling Strong in Your Postpartum Body with Adina Rubin</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span></a><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-length="0" data-slate-zero-width="z"></span></span></p><p data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text">I really loved chatting with Adina in this interview because I purchased her program last fall and I loved it so much! In this episode, she and I chat about life with 3 kids, kettlebells, why moms need to be strong, how this looks practically in the postpartum season, why walking isn’t always the best postpartum exercise, and how a strength program doesn’t have to be complicated or even </span><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><em data-slate-leaf="true">hard</em></span></span><span data-slate-node="text"> to be effective.</span></p><p data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text">27.)</span><a data-slate-inline="true" data-slate-node="element" href="https://open.spotify.com/episode/3ojfPmRrcxZWGb3WNjGNds?si=zliZqkhLQNyVYxGIOnwyrg"><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-string="true"> Let's Talk About Breastfeeding Toddlers</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span></a><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-length="0" data-slate-zero-width="z"></span></span></p><p data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text">I just released this solo episode this weekend, and you all are LOVING it! I am solidly in my toddler breastfeeding era right now, so I figured this was the perfect time to talk about it! In this solo episode, I cover toddler breastfeeding myths, my personal change of heart in this regard, global breastfeeding recommendations and the benefits of breastfeeding, and the benefits of breastfeeding for more than a year. I talk about how your milk changes over time and how the experience of nursing definitely changes. </span><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><strong data-slate-leaf="true">PRO TIP</strong></span></span><span data-slate-node="text">: You guys, I spend so much time working on my show notes. Don't forget to check them out when you listen, because they are FULL of rabbit trails, articles, other podcast episodes, anything that has encouraged me or informed me on the subject at hand. </span></p><p data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-length="0" data-slate-zero-width="n"></span></span></p><p data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text">If you're loving the podcast, please subscribe and leave an </span><a data-slate-inline="true" data-slate-node="element" href="https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/milk-motherhood/id1653446438?see-all=reviews"><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-string="true">Apple podcast review</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span></a><span data-slate-node="text">! It's really easy to type a few sentences in, and it helps more people find the fantastic information my guests are sharing with you all. </span></p><p data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span style="font-size: 32px;"><span style="color: #504d4b;">What We're Eating</span></span></span></span></p><p data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text">I feel like I gave myself a bit of a break in the past month and just made really simple meals. It helps when the weather is hot and all the good stuff is fresh and in-season! But I've been re-vamping my gluten-free sourdough starter after it spent a few too many weeks in the fridge (I mean, it was too hot to bake in August) and I made </span><a data-slate-inline="true" data-slate-node="element" href="https://www.farmhouseonboone.com/sourdough-chocolate-zucchini-muffins"><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-string="true">sourdough discard chocolate zucchini muffins</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span></a><span data-slate-node="text"> and </span><a data-slate-inline="true" data-slate-node="element" href="https://makeitdough.com/sourdough-discard-pumpkin-chocolate-chip-cookies/#recipe"><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-string="true">sourdough pumpkin chocolate chip cookies</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span></a><span data-slate-node="text"> last week. 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data-slate-node="element" style="list-style-position: inside;"><li data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="element">Preheat oven to 425.</span></li><li data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="element">Toss the squash in olive oil, salt, and pepper andspread on a lined, rimmed baking sheet.</span></li><li data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="element">Pat the tenderloin dry and place on the other side of the baking sheet. Drizzle with olive oil and sprinkle with salt and pepper. (For additional flavor, you can sear the pork in a hot pan until all the sides are browned BEFORE baking, but this isn’t required).</span></li><li data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="element">Bake squash and pork for 20-25 minutes until pork’s internal temperature is 160 degrees. Remove from oven and let meat rest 5-10 minutes before cutting.</span></li><li data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="element">In a small bowl, whisk the lemon juice and 2 Tbs olive oil with salt and pepper to taste.</span></li><li data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="element">In a large bowl, combine the arugula and pears and toss in the homemade salad dressing.</span></li><li data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="element">Add cubed pork and roasted butternut squash and serve.</span></li></ol><p data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span style="font-size: 32px;"><span style="color: #504d4b;"><span data-slate-string="true"></span></span></span></span></span></p>Theresehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04794387209137253119noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4859205836091447938.post-81365252096825068502023-07-28T11:21:00.002-05:002023-11-26T16:57:59.440-06:00Milk + Motherhood: July 2023 (Moving Through Emotions and Growing Through Discomfort)<p> <span style="color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px;">I don't know about you, but I've had vacation FOMO this summer. We just didn't have the financial or energy reserves to travel this year, but I'm really itching for a change of scenery. The other day, we drove to a coffee shop 30 minutes away and found a little park and a library with toddler story time right across the street. It felt like a tiny little vacation for 3 hours and my heart really needed that time to connect with my kiddos instead of being distracted by the chaos they can cause at home. Getting out with young children is such double-edged sword and we didn't get much practice for a few years there with shutdowns and such. I feel like I'm having to grow those muscles again!</span></p><p class="" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;"><span style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #504d4b;"><span style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; font-size: 32px;">What I'm learning</span></span></p><p class="" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">Personally, I'm learning that I need to move through my emotions, even when it feels simpler to shut them down and go through the motions. I'm a highly emotional person, so I don't think I realize how much energy and effort it takes to just pretend everything is okay, or that it will be okay tomorrow after yet another night of broken sleep. I'm working on finding a new counselor here, but also on carving out time to be attentive to myself in this way on a daily basis.</p><p class="" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">Professionally, I'm just wrapping up the GOLD Lactation Conference for this year and I was SO thrilled to see so many presentations addressing state regulation in mom and baby. Watching 30+ hours of virtual conference content is a lot, but I feel reinvigorated about what I do and how I do it.</p><p class="" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;"><span style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #504d4b;"><span style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; font-size: 32px;">What I'm reading</span></span></p><p class="" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">In nonfiction, I just listened to the audio version of <a href="https://www.amazon.com/Clanlands-Whisky-Warfare-Scottish-Adventure/dp/1529342031/ref=asc_df_1529342031/?tag=hyprod-20&linkCode=df0&hvadid=532916266754&hvpos=&hvnetw=g&hvrand=13251360856704459705&hvpone=&hvptwo=&hvqmt=&hvdev=c&hvdvcmdl=&hvlocint=&hvlocphy=9024521&hvtargid=pla-1018245874236&psc=1" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #936883;" target="_blank">Clanlands: Whisky, Warfare, and a Scottish Adventure Like No Other</a>. Sam and Graham are both stage-trained actors and they took turns narrating their writing. It was the perfect thing to listen to while deluttering our office in preparation for the coming homeschool year!</p><p class="" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">Speaking of homeschool, I lead our local Wild + Free group and finally finished reading <a href="https://www.amazon.com/Call-of-Wild-and-Free-audiobook/dp/B07V71144L/ref=sr_1_1?crid=3J4XHBJ429KF4&keywords=wild+%2B+free&qid=1689427130&s=books&sprefix=wild+%2B+free%2Cstripbooks%2C146&sr=1-1" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #936883;" target="_blank">The Call of the Wild and Free: Reclaiming the Wonder in Your Child’s Education.</a> The last 20% was kind of lackluster, but the first 80% really reminded me why we chose to do this in the first place.</p><p class="" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">I am once again out of good fiction. If you have read something good lately, send it my way!</p><p class="" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;"><span style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #504d4b;"><span style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; font-size: 32px;">What I'm listening to</span></span></p><p class="" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">I feel like it's been a while since I wrote my June newsletter. Here are some podcast episodes I loved listening to between then and now:</p><p class="" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;"></p><ul class="unordered_list" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: inside; margin: 1em 0px 1em 1em; padding: 0px;"><li class="list_item" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px 0px 0px 1em;"><span style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box;">I have thus far avoided the Joe Rogan Podcast, but I finally listened to it when he <a href="https://open.spotify.com/episode/3DQfcTY4viyXsIXQ89NXvg?si=zpg-PTDLQHWQH6jlnllrRg" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #936883;" target="_blank">interviewed RFK Jr </a>recently. Politics aren't exactly my jam, but most of my adult life, I've struggled to understand why presidential candidates don't talk about real things for real. Every answer to every question is always so carefully crafted and ultimately meaningless. I found RFK Jr extremely refreshing. He said so many important things in this episode, including the fact that when mothers say something, we need to listen.</span></li></ul><p class="" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;"></p><ul class="unordered_list" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: inside; margin: 1em 0px 1em 1em; padding: 0px;"><li class="list_item" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px 0px 0px 1em;"><span style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box;"><a href="https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/190-do-homemakers-have-too-much-time-on-their-hands/id1494284839?i=1000617698448" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #936883;" target="_blank">Simple Farmhouse Life: Do Homemakers Have too Much Time on Their Hands?</a> A friend recommended this one but due to the title alone, I went into it really resistant to the idea. I've been very very overwhelmed lately and feel like I can't even touch my to-do list due to just putting out daily fires. There are some things they said that I really don't resonate with (which is probably why I have 3 kids and not 8). However, there were other things that they said that were uncomfortable to hear because perhaps there was a grain of truth to it. I need to re-listen, but it did get me thinking about all of the things I'm doing that are NOT serving my time or my family well. It also really lit a fire under me to organize the 18 months worth of stuff that has accumulated during this most recent postpartum time.</span></li></ul><p class="" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;"></p><ul class="unordered_list" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: inside; margin: 1em 0px 1em 1em; padding: 0px;"><li class="list_item" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px 0px 0px 1em;"><span style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box;"><a href="https://open.spotify.com/episode/5HbkXXN7qawHb4E8EwLezf" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #936883;" target="_blank">Motherhood Sessions: Mom's Not There When I Need Her </a>- This was another uncomfortable but quick listen. It showed up on my recommended list and it kind of sounded like it could have been a recording of my own inner thoughts and struggles with work and motherhood right now.</span></li></ul><p class="" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;"></p><ul class="unordered_list" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: inside; margin: 1em 0px 1em 1em; padding: 0px;"><li class="list_item" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px 0px 0px 1em;"><span style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box;"><a href="https://open.spotify.com/episode/6JS4R9CMhTFQ9mTOxE6F6x?si=y0EU1vU_THae2h_NdBrl1g" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #936883;" target="_blank">Grieving the Old Version of Yourself</a> - I saved the best for last. In fact, I haven't even finished listening to this one and it's already leaving a major impact on me. Probably because I'm also in the midst of this very painful shift from early to middle motherhood and there's a surprising amount of grief involved. I don't agree with everything in Olivia's worldview, but I do think she's really insightful and it's clear that she's doing the work as she prepares to transition from single to married, and I think a lot of what she's learning can apply to all life transitions.</span></li></ul><p class="" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;"><span style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #504d4b;"><span style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; font-size: 32px;">On my podcast</span></span></p><p class="" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">Last fall, I started a podcast called <a href="https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/milk-motherhood/id1653446438" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #936883;" target="_blank">Milk + Motherhood</a> and it's been so fun. Season 1 was focused on postpartum identity, recovery, and nutrition. Seson 2 is diving into more specialized subjects regarding postparutm and motherhood. Even if you don't listen, check out the shownotes for a wealth of additional information on these subjects. Here are the episodes I've published since my last newsletter:</p><p class="" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">23.) <a href="https://open.spotify.com/episode/1sbAJBnbePK5pTqk7ftmmV?si=1c4288ed65ce4e48" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #936883;" target="_blank">Does my Baby Really Need a Probiotic? with Tiny Health Founder Cheryl Sew Hoy </a></p><p class="" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">Spoiler alert: not all babies need probiotics and not all probiotics are helpful. I purchased Tiny Health tests for myself and my youngest kiddo and really loved their approach, so I sat down with Cheryl to talk about why she started this company and what she's learning. We also go through some of my test results and we talk about why random or broad-spectrum probiotics for a long period of time aren't always the best choice. </p><p class="" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">24.) <a href="https://open.spotify.com/episode/1vnur80ifSkdwvfkOCXAuT?si=xwq1wdj0TLieWCiaDqF08A" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #936883;" target="_blank">Responding with Grace when Motherhood Challenges Us with Peyton Berg</a></p><p class="" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">Peyton and I initially planned to talk about "balancing" work and motherhood but we ended up covering a lot of ground in this conversation: how hard means different things to different people and comparison in motherhood isn't helpful, what it looks like to walk through a season of confusion when you thought you were doing the right thing and you didn't get the outcome you expected, discernment about alternative healing modalities, navigating the healthy living space as Christians, and the difference between spiritual and emotional health, and asking for and accepting help.</p><p class="" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;"></p><p class="" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">If you're loving the podcast, please subscribe and leave an <a href="https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/milk-motherhood/id1653446438?see-all=reviews" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #936883;" target="_blank">Apple podcast review</a>! It's really easy to type a few sentences in, and it helps more people find the fantastic information my guests are sharing with you all. </p><p class="" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;"><span style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #504d4b;"><span style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; font-size: 32px;">What We're Eating</span></span></p><p class="" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">I'm a big fan of meal planning and list-making, but in an effort to save on groceries and utilize the fresh stuff that's finally in season, I'm planning meals more loosely, based off of a grid of proteins, produce, and grains. If it's helpful over the next few weeks, I'll share the PDF with you all! </p><p class="" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;"><span style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #504d4b;"><span style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; font-size: 32px;">Seasonal Recipe</span></span></p><p class="" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">This recipe is from my <a href="https://happymamahealthybaby.freshlearn.com/10729" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #936883;" target="_blank">food allergy cookbook</a> and it's so simple and refreshing in this hot, muggy weather.</p><table align="right" border="0" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0" class="email-image" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: black; float: right; table-layout: fixed; text-align: right;"><tbody style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box;"><tr style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box;"><td align="right" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; vertical-align: top;"><figure style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; display: inline-block; margin: 0px 0px 1em; max-width: 210px; width: 210px;"><div style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box;"><img height="auto" src="https://embed.filekitcdn.com/e/o4sKKveXHU86XoNV1PX4Bw/n272aNfqqYVWsgjHdTAkym" style="border-radius: 9999px; border: 0px none; box-sizing: border-box; display: block; height: auto; line-height: 14px; max-width: 100%; object-fit: contain; outline: none; text-decoration-line: none; vertical-align: middle; width: 210px;" width="210" /></div><p class="" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px; text-align: left;"><u style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box;">Watermelon Cucumber Salad</u> (makes 4-5 servings)</p><p class="" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px; text-align: left;">-1 small watermelon, diced<br style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box;" />-1 large English cucumber, diced<br style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box;" />-1/4 cup (loosely packed) basil leaves, thinly sliced<br style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box;" />-juice of 2 limes<br style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box;" />-salt to taste</p><ol class="unordered_list" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; list-style-image: initial; list-style-position: inside; margin: 1em 0px 1em 1em; padding: 0px;"><li class="list_item" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px 0px 0px 1em;"><span style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box;">Lightly toss the watermelon and cucumber.</span></li><li class="list_item" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px 0px 0px 1em;"><span style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box;">Top with basil, lime juice, and salt.</span></li><li class="list_item" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; margin: 0px 0px 0px 1em; padding: 0px 0px 0px 1em;"><span style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box;">Stir gently to combine and enjoy!</span></li></ol><p class="" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px; text-align: left;"></p><p class="" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px; text-align: left;"><span style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #504d4b;"><span style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; font-size: 32px;">Breastfeeding and Postpartum Q and A</span></span></p><p class="" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px; text-align: left;"><span style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; font-size: 11px;">You all ask such great questions on Instagram, but that platform doens't always allow for the most detailed answers. If you have a </span><span style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; font-size: 11px;"><strong style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box;"><em style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box;">non-urgent</em></strong></span><span style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; font-size: 11px;"> breastfeeding or postpartum question that you'd like me to answer via the next newsletter, please hit reply and ask away!</span></p><p class="" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px; text-align: left;">This month's question: <strong style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box;">"Why is my baby latching and unlatching constantly? She seems to want milk less often and sometimes I feel like I'm begging her to eat. Is this normal at 4 months?"</strong></p><p class="" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px; text-align: left;">This is a major developmental milestone and baby is much more aware of the world around her. The behavioral changes that come with this can be surprising and frustrating, especially if it took you longer than you thought it would to get into a good groove with breastfeeding. If breastfeeding was previously going well and these behaviors are kicking in, you can be assured it's very likely developmental. Your baby is realizing that a world exists beyond the distance between the two of you. She's going to twist and turn to check out sights and sounds, and often this means latching and un-latching OR nip-lash and biting. Sometimes feeding in a dim, quiet room helps a lot during this phase. Upright nursing in koala hold or a carrier can help a lot, too.</p><p class="" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px; text-align: left;">Again, as long as weight gain and diapers remain normal, it can definitely be normal for baby to seem like she's eating less. Her brain is so busy right now. Keep offering 6-8 times a day, and expect some of those feedings to seem sub-par. If it helps, you can get a pre/post feeding weight at a breastfeeding support group (or at MilkWorks if you're local) for some reassurance. Her focus and hunger will likely come back with a vengeance between 5-6 months when this developmental leap has wrapped up.</p><p class="" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px; text-align: left;">(I also have an Instagram highlight called "<a href="https://www.instagram.com/stories/highlights/17884745341987178/" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #936883;" target="_blank">What to Expect</a>" that talks about these kind of age-related changes in your breastfeeding relationship if you want to read more.)<br style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box;" /></p><p class="" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px; text-align: left;"><span style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #504d4b;"><span style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; font-size: 32px;">Parting Thoughts</span></span></p><p class="" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">Thank you so much for subscribing to this little missive, following me on social media, supporting my podcast, and using my affiliate links. I'm so grateful for this community and your support.</p><p class="" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;"></p></figure></td></tr></tbody></table>Theresehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04794387209137253119noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4859205836091447938.post-82898947727137953672023-06-08T16:52:00.001-05:002023-07-15T09:05:54.303-05:00Milk + Motherhood: June 2023<p data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text">If you’re new here, welcome! That means you recently signed up for my monthly newsletter, purchased an e-cookbook, or enrolled in our Nourished Beginnings breastfeeding course. </span></p><p data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text">I’m Therese Dansby: wife, mom of 3, homeschool educator, lactation consultant, postpartum doula, gardener, reader, writer, and Wild + Free group leader. </span></p><p data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text">I’m unapologetically vulnerable but not pessimistic about the struggles of motherhood and what I’ve learned as I move through these challenges. In fact, I have a whole podcast about this with guests talking about postpartum nutrition, mental health, bodywork, breastfeeding, and so much more. It’s called </span><a data-slate-inline="true" data-slate-node="element" href="https://open.spotify.com/show/0bZdEwtkT96shfLpeKKzGN?si=3ae017716c0f4bcb"><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-string="true">Milk + Motherhood</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"></span></a><span data-slate-node="text"> and you can find it on all major podcast platforms!</span></p><p data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text">Summer is in full swing here, and if you follow me on Instagram you may have already seen that I'm *gulp* taking June and July off of Instagram. It's a very risky move for a smlal business owner, but it's also a very clear prompting that I've been feeling for several months now, so I'm trusting that if God is calling me to it, he will get me through it. </span></p><p></p><p data-slate-node="element"><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-string="true"></span></span></p><p></p><p data-slate-fragment="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" data-slate-node="element" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; 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I also </span></span></span><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><em data-slate-leaf="true"><strong data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-string="true">recently started an affiliate program</span></strong></em></span></span><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-string="true">, so if you have my course or cookbooks, or you're a birth worker or other medical provider and you'd like to earn 10% commission for recommending the cookbooks or 20% commission for referring people to the breastfeeding and postpartum course,</span></span></span><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><strong data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-string="true"> </span></strong></span></span><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><em data-slate-leaf="true"><strong data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-string="true">hit reply to this email to let me know</span></strong></em></span></span><span data-slate-node="text"><span data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-string="true"> and I'll get you set up! </span></span></span></p><p> <span style="color: #504d4b; font-size: 32px;">What I'm learning</span></p><p data-key="31"><span data-key="32"><span data-offset-key="32:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">I'm gearing up for a "fun mom summer." One friend asked what that means, and while I used to love bucket lists when the kids were younger and we had a bunch of cool stuff nearby in the middle of the city, I'm not feeling that this summer. Instead, I want it to be my attitude that's fun. I'm aiming for connection, conversation, and really seeing my kids again instead of seeing them as obstacles in the way of my to-do list. I think this has been one of the biggest pros and cons of homeschooling for me: the kids are</span></span><span data-offset-key="32:1" data-slate-leaf="true"><em data-slate-mark="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true"> always around</span></em></span><span data-offset-key="32:2" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">. Of course, homemaking and housekeeping have to happen, too. But I really want to work smarter, not harder in this regard and it starts with my attitude and priorities.</span></span></span></p><p data-key="33"><span data-key="34">I'm also learning that contentment has to be cultivated and it's takes a lot of practice for me to learn this skill. I loved this quote I read from Charles Spurgeon recently: </span></p><p data-key="35"><span data-key="36">"They may have desired to live in the city, amid its life, society, and refinement, but they kept their appointed places, for they also were doing the king's work. The place of our habitation is fixed, and we are not to remove from it out of whim and caprice, but seek to serve the Lord in it, by being a blessing to those among whom we reside. These potters and gardeners had royal company, for they dwelt 'with the king' and although among hedges and plants, they dwelt with the king there. No lawful place, or gracious occupation, however mean, can debar us from communion with our divine Lord."</span></p><p data-key="37"><span data-key="38"><span data-slate-length="0" data-slate-zero-width="n" spellcheck="true"></span></span></p><p data-key="39"><span data-key="40"><span data-offset-key="40:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="color: #504d4b;"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="font-size: 32px;">What I'm reading</span></span></span></span></p><p data-key="41"><span data-key="42">In nonfiction, I just started </span><a class="email-link" data-key="43" href="https://www.amazon.com/Burnout-Secret-Unlocking-Stress-Cycle/dp/1984818325/ref=sr_1_1?crid=3Q9APPMZQVNCF&keywords=burnout+the+secret+to+unlocking+the+stress+cycle&qid=1686417384&sprefix=burnout%2Caps%2C178&sr=8-1"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="44"><span data-offset-key="44:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">Burnout: The Secret to Unlocking the Stress Cycle</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="45"> for the third time. But it's resonating with me so much that I know I'll finish it this time. I also appreciate that I can recognize this funk I've been in is burnout and sleep deprivation and not a flare-up of PMADs or some ambiguous health problem.</span></p><p data-key="46"><span data-key="47">I have read some really bad fiction lately! Is it just me, or is it getting harder to find good books? I've read some highly-rated new releases and the characters are so politically correct and one-dimentional (aka boring) or the writing is filled with so much jargon that it's hard to take the author seriously. I FINALLY broke that streak (no pun intended) with the quick-paced tennis comeback novel, </span><a class="email-link" data-key="48" href="https://www.amazon.com/Carrie-Soto-Back-Taylor-Jenkins/dp/0593158709/ref=sr_1_1?crid=2MRPIJLQJIBV0&keywords=carrie+soto+is+back+taylor+jenkins+reid&qid=1686417550&sprefix=carrie+soto+is+b%2Caps%2C116&sr=8-1"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="49"><span data-offset-key="49:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">Carrie Soto is Back</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="50"> by Taylor Jenkins Reid. Reid is a truly phenomenal writer and her novels are filled with amazing insights without being sentimental. If you've never read anything she's written, you'll love the movie-like way that she writes. It's not written like a script, but her writing is fast-paced and easy to visualize. She also wrote The Seven Husbands of Evelyn Hugo, Daisey Jones and the Six, and more.</span></p><p data-key="51"><span data-key="52"><span data-slate-length="0" data-slate-zero-width="n" spellcheck="true"></span></span></p><p data-key="53"><span data-key="54"><span data-offset-key="54:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="color: #504d4b;"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="font-size: 32px;">What I'm listening to</span></span></span></span></p><p data-key="55"><span data-key="56"><span data-offset-key="56:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">I like Abby Halberstadt's message, although sometimes I struggle a bit with how she presents it. HOWEVER, episode 16 of her M is for Mama podcast is </span></span><span data-offset-key="56:1" data-slate-leaf="true"><strong data-slate-mark="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">so good</span></strong></span><span data-offset-key="56:2" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">. It's called </span></span></span><a class="email-link" data-key="57" href="https://open.spotify.com/episode/6ze6s3VzQCeUo0mEIbOwhj?si=5a7011144bc541f9"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="58"><span data-offset-key="58:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">Identity in Christ, Not Struggles</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="59"> and it's an interview with Ann Swindell about trichotillomania, which I struggle with and I never hear anyone talking about! So it was refreshing and encouraging and a good listen for anyone who has ever dealt with "a thorn in their side."</span></p><p data-key="60"><span data-key="61">I'm also diving into new-t0-me podcast Quiet the Diet and I'm loving it. She interviews Liz Wolfe and Steph Gruenke on </span><a class="email-link" data-key="62" href="https://open.spotify.com/episode/4BoZYsQSfxFf8UzPXkVvPf?si=qCzXIN-kSIeKPuwxOYP-uw"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="63"><span data-offset-key="63:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">the evolution of the paleo diet</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="64">, and it's just a really sane conversation about diet trends, knowing what works for your body, and the difference between healthy eating and orthorexia.</span></p><p data-key="65"><span data-key="66"><span data-slate-length="0" data-slate-zero-width="n" spellcheck="true"></span></span></p><p data-key="67"><span data-key="68"><span data-offset-key="68:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="color: #504d4b;"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="font-size: 32px;">On the podcast</span></span></span></span></p><p data-key="69"><span data-key="70">Last fall, I started a podcast called </span><a class="email-link" data-key="71" href="https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/milk-motherhood/id1653446438"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="72"><span data-offset-key="72:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">Milk + Motherhood</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="73"> and it's been so fun. Season 1 was focused on postpartum identity, recovery, and nutrition. Seson 2 is diving into more specialized subjects regarding postparutm and motherhood. Even if you don't listen, check out the shownotes for a wealth of additional information on these subjects. Here's a review of the episodes I've published since my last newsletter:</span></p><p data-key="74"><span data-key="75">20.) </span><a class="email-link" data-key="76" href="https://open.spotify.com/episode/5kM5YMTiqHAdhbLtZLq6Xh?si=97bca77f9df34173"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="77"><span data-offset-key="77:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">Troubleshooting Pelvic Floor Problems with Physical Therapist Christina Walsh</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="78"> - Christina (@tighten.your.tinkler) and I bounce back and forth talking about our own postpartum experiences, how they led us to the work we do, and how you are not alone if your pelvic floor doesn't feel the same postpartum. She answers so many listener questions and also shares hope for addressing your symptoms via the program she and her colleague, Jenn, have developed. Their program, Tighten Your Tinkler, is offered virtually and is backed by three years of academic research.</span></p><p data-key="79"><span data-key="80">21.) </span><a class="email-link" data-key="81" href="https://open.spotify.com/episode/0WcpJt7oXmdmiGTtnUs1Nt?si=a9aa73950147424a"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="82"><span data-offset-key="82:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">Sensory Overwhelm, Mom Friends, and Small Changes with author and counselor Amber Trueblood</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="83"> - In this episode, Amber (@officialambertrueblood) and I have a really great conversation covering lots of ground: sensory overwhelm and how to handle it, anxiety styles and how knowing yours can affect your relationships, choosing empathy over comparison, the big impact of small changes, boundaries in motherhood, and more! She just released a book called The Unflustered Mom, so of course we talk about that too.</span></p><p data-key="84"><span data-key="85">22.) </span><a class="email-link" data-key="86" href="https://open.spotify.com/episode/3Y48PoOJVloTTg1ao3Ydme?si=CWDdHVK3SJq2joeeuMLQPA"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="87"><span data-offset-key="87:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">Dinnertime Decisions and Doing it All with bestselling cookbook author Cassy Joy Garcia</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="88"> - This conversation with Cassy Joy Garcia (@fedandfit) was so encouraging to me. Even a professional cookbook author finds dinnertime difficult sometimes! In this interview, we talk about shifting priorities, how to make work time work with young children, asking for help, and our favorite dinner go-tos. Of course, we also talk about Cassy's second and third cookbooks and why they're perfect for this exact season of life that we are both in.</span></p><p data-key="89"><span data-key="90">If you're loving my podcast, please subscribe and leave an </span><a class="email-link" data-key="91" href="https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/milk-motherhood/id1653446438?see-all=reviews"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="92"><span data-offset-key="92:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">Apple podcast review</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="93">! It's really easy to type a few sentences in, and it helps more people find the fantastic information my guests are sharing with you all. </span></p><p data-key="94"><span data-key="95"><span data-slate-length="0" data-slate-zero-width="n" spellcheck="true"></span></span></p><p data-key="96"><span data-key="97"><span data-offset-key="97:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="color: #504d4b;"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="font-size: 32px;">What We're Eating</span></span></span></span></p><p data-key="98"><span data-key="99"><span data-slate-length="0" data-slate-zero-width="z" spellcheck="true"></span></span><a class="email-link" data-key="100" href="https://open.spotify.com/episode/3Y48PoOJVloTTg1ao3Ydme?si=CWDdHVK3SJq2joeeuMLQPA"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="101"><span data-offset-key="101:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">Interviewing Cassy</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="102"><span data-offset-key="102:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true"> a few weeks ago re-ignited my love for her cookbooks, so we're eating lots of recipes from </span></span><span data-offset-key="102:1" data-slate-leaf="true"><em data-slate-mark="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">Cook Once Eat All Week </span></em></span><span data-offset-key="102:2" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">and </span></span><span data-offset-key="102:3" data-slate-leaf="true"><em data-slate-mark="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">Cook Once Dinner Fix</span></em></span><span data-offset-key="102:4" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true"> (you can find these along with my other favortie cookbooks in my </span></span></span><a class="email-link" data-key="103" href="https://www.amazon.com/shop/happy.mama.healthy.baby/list/1AJ6P0HKTB7SV?ref_=aip_sf_list_spv_ofs_mixed_d"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="104"><span data-offset-key="104:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">Amazon storefront</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="105">). We recently found a week of meals we hadn't tried yet and the whole family was so excited for some new flavor profiles! </span></p><p data-key="106"><span data-key="107">But also, May was a really busy month so we relied on some of our favorite allergy-friendly snack staples: Macro Bars, GoodPop Freezer Pops, and Serenity Kid Pouches. We order a lot of these for cheaper on Thrive Marketplace and you can get 40% off your first order with </span><a class="email-link" data-key="108" href="http://thrv.me/Eag37T"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="109"><span data-offset-key="109:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">this link</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="110">.</span></p><p data-key="111"><span data-key="112"><span data-slate-length="0" data-slate-zero-width="n" spellcheck="true"></span></span></p><p data-key="113"><span data-key="114"><span data-offset-key="114:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="color: #504d4b;"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="font-size: 32px;">Seasonal Recipe</span></span></span></span></p><p data-key="115"><span data-key="116">Our raspberry and blackberry plants are all flowering right now, so it's the perfect time of year to utilize the herbal benefits of berry leaves. </span><a class="email-link" data-key="117" href="https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4931538/"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="118"><span data-offset-key="118:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">This cool article</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="119"> shares some nutritional and medicinal benefits of various types of berry leaves. </span></p><div data-key="120" style="float: right; text-align: right; width: 225px;"><figure style="margin: 0px 0px 15px 15px; max-width: 100%; width: 210px;"><div data-key="121" data-slate-void="true"><div data-slate-spacer="true" style="color: transparent; height: 0px; outline: none; position: absolute;"><span data-key="122"><span data-slate-length="0" data-slate-zero-width="z" spellcheck="true"></span></span></div><div><div data-key="121" style="max-width: 210px;"><img height="921" src="https://embed.filekitcdn.com/e/o4sKKveXHU86XoNV1PX4Bw/ihzhKcnMPydfnwnDBob8RD?w=800&fit=max" style="border-radius: 100px; height: auto; max-width: 100%; width: 210px;" width="210" /></div></div></div><p data-key="125" style="text-align: left;"><span data-key="126"><span data-offset-key="126:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><u data-slate-mark="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">Berry Leaf Mineral Infuison</span></u></span><span data-offset-key="126:1" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true"> (makes 2-3 servings)</span></span></span></p><p data-key="127" style="text-align: left;"><span data-key="128">--1 cup fresh red raspberry, blackberry, and/or strawberry leaves --1 liter of boiling water</span></p><ol class="unordered_list" data-key="129" style="list-style-position: inside;"><li class="list_item" data-key="130"><span class="list-item-child" data-key="131">Place the leaves into a 1 liter glass jar.</span></li><li class="list_item" data-key="133"><span class="list-item-child" data-key="134">Pour the boiling water over the leaves.</span></li><li class="list_item" data-key="136"><span class="list-item-child" data-key="137">Cover and jar and let steep for at least 4 hours or overnight. Note that this infusion may be lighter in color than one made from dried herbs.</span></li><li class="list_item" data-key="139"><span class="list-item-child" data-key="140">Strain and refrigerate within 24 hours, and the infusion will be good for 48 hours total. </span></li><li class="list_item" data-key="142"><span class="list-item-child" data-key="143">Re-warm in the sun for a warm beverage, or sip on it iced!</span></li></ol><p data-key="145" style="text-align: left;"><span data-key="146"><span data-slate-length="0" data-slate-zero-width="n" spellcheck="true"></span></span></p><p data-key="147" style="text-align: left;"><br /></p></figure></div>Theresehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04794387209137253119noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4859205836091447938.post-86239641107362220462023-06-06T21:49:00.000-05:002023-06-06T21:49:03.260-05:00Fruits and Roots and FirefliesThis is, somehow, our fourth summer in this house. The first summer, we were really just getting the lay of the land. The second summer, I was pregnant and yard work didn't happen. The third summer, I spent DAYS weeding to recover from the past year's neglect, and then we (Ross) tore up the garden beds and redesigned the garden space and laid a bunch of sod. This summer, we tore up an old RV pad taking up 1/4 of the yard and... now we have a pit of mud and weeds there. BUT the rest of the yard is... dreamy. It truly makes me so happy. The green, the smells, the dew in the mornings, the promise of bountiful things to come.<div><br /></div><div>This winter was particularly long, cold, and snowy, so when spring finally cane, the wonderful succession from crocuses to daffodils to tulips to lilacs to asparagus to peonies to roses and strawberries has felt nothing short of miraculous. <div><br /></div><div>Of course, in this life season perhaps more than any other, it's not lost on me that small (and occasionally) large daily tasks are required to keep this progression running smoothly. For a few weeks, I was knocking asparagus beetles off my precious asparagus into soapy water every time I went outside. (One of those days, Isaac came to me crying... all wet... with dead beetles all over his shoulders, having mistaken the beetle cup for an innocent cup of water).</div><div><br /></div><div>Then, of course, weeds always need to be pulled-- urgently in April when all the dandelions start to bloom, and constantly in little windows of 5 minutes here, 10 minutes there throughout the summer. Even the good plants that overwintered need tending to: pruning, fertilizing, watering, training. And of course the new ones need to be planted or transplanted and watered and tended until they're stronger. In a perfect world, we'd be seeding and feeding the lawn so it's healthier and more resistant to weeds. And moles. Maybe someday.</div><div><br /></div><div>But for now, I'm reveling in the fruits of our labor thus far, and I'm reminded that big tasks get done in small, daily, consistent ways that don't feel like work in the way that a full day of yard work would. In fact, they almost feel... fun. They build gratitude. I'm hoping care breeds contentment. It benefits my body and spirit in ways I'll never understand to have my bare feet in the earth and bare shoulders to the sun (or, even better, to the dusk and the first fireflies of the year). I'm grateful to have this time to notice and to do the work of tending to a small plot of land: to pluck weeds while keeping one eye on Isaac. To stumble upon yet another one of Rosie's kitchen garden creations simmering away with water, mud, leaves, and flower petals. To see Noah reading in his de facto camp: flags, army tent, bike, Nerf guns, and all. Or to enjoy the silence while watering after the kids have gone to bed and to witness the first long awaited firefly signaling that seasons really do change and the world is bigger than I remember sometimes. </div><div><br /></div><div><br /></div></div>Theresehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04794387209137253119noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4859205836091447938.post-21065067566183088212023-05-08T12:53:00.001-05:002023-05-25T12:54:37.863-05:00Milk and Motherhood: May 2023<p> <span style="background-color: #f4efed; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px;">May... when it</span><span style="background-color: #f4efed; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px;"> </span><em style="background-color: #f4efed; border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px;">may</em><span style="background-color: #f4efed; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px;"> </span><span style="background-color: #f4efed; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px;">snow or it</span><span style="background-color: #f4efed; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px;"> </span><em style="background-color: #f4efed; border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px;">may</em><span style="background-color: #f4efed; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px;"> </span><span style="background-color: #f4efed; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px;">be 90 degrees. I'm feeling major summer vibes with the longer days and everything FINALLY turning green. It's been a late spring here in Nebraska, and it reminds me so much of my third child... waiting and waiting and waiting... and then making up for lost time ever since. He's officially been walking half of his life and he's about to turn 17 months old, so there's that. I always thought people were being dramatic when they talked about early walkers. Nope, turns out they're just going a little bit insane trying to keep up!</span></p><p style="background-color: #f4efed; border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;"><span style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #504d4b;"><span style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; font-size: 32px;">What I'm learning</span></span></p><p style="background-color: #f4efed; border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">This season is what I make of it. One of the Lazy Genius principles is to know your season, and sometimes I just need to admit that this unique season with my unique kids is really hard but it's also proportionally so sweet. I am wrapping up a few big work projects (local friends, some fun news coming at you next month) in order to settle into summer a bit and figure out what's working (and not working) with parenting and homeschooling before deciding how I was work to fit into that next fall.</p><p style="background-color: #f4efed; border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;"><span style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #504d4b;"><span style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; font-size: 32px;">What I'm reading</span></span></p><p style="background-color: #f4efed; border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">I just finished <a href="https://www.amazon.com/Teaching-from-Rest-audiobook/dp/B01LYK611I/ref=sr_1_1?hvadid=409931677843&hvdev=c&hvlocphy=9024521&hvnetw=g&hvqmt=e&hvrand=13226364605563351646&hvtargid=kwd-68861094640&hydadcr=22537_11318394&keywords=teaching+from+rest&qid=1683577840&sr=8-1" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #936883;" target="_blank">Teaching from Rest</a> and wow, I really really needed it. It's been on my unread shelf for several years, and it gave me a lot to reflect on as we wrap up our third year of homeschool.</p><p style="background-color: #f4efed; border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">In fiction, apparently I'm on a retirement novel kick. I enjoyed <a href="https://www.amazon.com/s?k=the+vibrant+years+by+sonali+dev&hvadid=639308264861&hvdev=c&hvlocphy=9024521&hvnetw=g&hvqmt=e&hvrand=2727974860131415492&hvtargid=kwd-1912898360398&hydadcr=10052_13483910&tag=googhydr-20&ref=pd_sl_4zw2h14a9p_e" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #936883;" target="_blank">The Vibrant Years</a>by Sonali Dev and I'm mid-way through <a href="https://app.convertkit.com/campaigns/11794721/by%20Corinne%20Demas" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #936883;" target="_blank">The Road Towards Home</a> by Corinne Demas. They've both been sweet and slow without being boring or maudlin.</p><p style="background-color: #f4efed; border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;"><span style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #504d4b;"><span style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; font-size: 32px;">What I'm listening to</span></span></p><p style="background-color: #f4efed; border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">Okay this has been a lit month for my earbuds. </p><p style="background-color: #f4efed; border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;"><strong style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box;">First:</strong> <a href="https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/the-witch-trials-of-j-k-rowling/id1671691064" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #936883;" target="_blank">The Witch Trials of JK Rowling</a>. WOW even if you've never read Harry Potter, but you look around at the world and wonder how so much has changed so quickly in the last 5 years, this is for you. Listen and then EMAIL ME BACK so we can talk about it! I'm just going to copy the description here: The Witch Trials of J.K. Rowling is an audio documentary that examines some of the most contentious conflicts of our time through the life and career of the world’s most successful author. In conversation with host Megan Phelps-Roper, J.K. Rowling speaks with unprecedented candor and depth about the controversies surrounding her—from book bans to debates on gender and sex. The series also examines the forces propelling this moment in history, through interviews with Rowling’s supporters and critics, journalists, historians, clinicians, and more.</p><p style="background-color: #f4efed; border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;"><strong style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box;">Second:</strong> A friend shared this Apple News podcast episode with me called <a href="https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/apple-news-in-conversation/id1577591053?i=1000607756175" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #936883;" target="_blank">Why we don’t take postpartum mental health seriously enough — and what that means for new parents</a> -- trigger warning to several disturbing postpartum news stories involving psychosis and self-harm, but if you're farther along postpartum or if you're a professional in the field, I highly recommend listening to this piece of journalism.</p><p style="background-color: #f4efed; border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;"><strong style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box;">Third:</strong> I cannot wait to share my interveiw with Adina Rubin on my podcast, but in the meantime she's released a few good episodes on PP fitness on<a href="https://open.spotify.com/show/5JsjoU7DH86BRWWqkEz3Tt" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #936883;" target="_blank"> her podcast</a>! </p><p style="background-color: #f4efed; border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;"><span style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #504d4b;"><span style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; font-size: 32px;">On the podcast</span></span></p><p style="background-color: #f4efed; border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">Last fall, I started a podcast called <a href="https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/milk-motherhood/id1653446438" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #936883;" target="_blank">Milk + Motherhood</a> and it's been so fun. Season 1 was focused on postpartum identity, recovery, and nutrition. Seson 2 is diving into more specialized subjects regarding breastfeeding and postparutm. Even if you don't listen, check out the shownotes for a wealth of additional information on these subjects. Here's a review of the episodes I've published since my last newsletter:</p><p style="background-color: #f4efed; border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">17.) <a href="https://open.spotify.com/episode/3Oa0FdDF4YypKjO24enDDH?si=Ds2LIvhiQCalpipvJjdvcw" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #936883;" target="_blank">Progesterone and Postpartum Mental Health</a> with Hormone Geniuses Teresa Kenney and Jamie Rathjen. In this interview, we talk about postpartum hormones and about how they can contribute to mental health challenges. Jamie and I both received NaPro progesterone injections for PMADs and Teresa is a Nurse Practitioner who prescribes them often, so we cover a lot of the basics and some questions about this treatment option.</p><p style="background-color: #f4efed; border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">18.) <a href="https://open.spotify.com/episode/5Bg5MdKeKbjX8BDDC65Y81?si=U0MrGkcJSKaVEkBOoYdN7Q" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #936883;" target="_blank">Tapping out of Rigidity and into Resilient Motherhood</a> with Theresa Piela. I always LOVE talking with Theresa because she has such a calm and joyful presence. We talk about how it hasn't always been this way, how EFT tapping has changed her stress response and thought loops, and how I also expereinced benefits from tapping during pregnancy and postpartum.</p><p style="background-color: #f4efed; border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">19.) <a href="https://spotifyanchor-web.app.link/e/WIwfT2dTDzb" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #936883;" target="_blank">Infant Palates, Airways, and Teeth</a> with functional dentist Dr. Molly Hayes. She and I talk about how the palate is formed in utero, how breastfeeding helps after baby is born, red flags for infant airway issues, and... science experiments!</p><p style="background-color: #f4efed; border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">If you're loving my podcast, please subscribe and leave an <a href="https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/milk-motherhood/id1653446438?see-all=reviews" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #936883;" target="_blank">Apple podcast review</a>! It's really easy to type a few sentences in, and it helps more people find the fantastic information my guests are sharing with you all. </p><p style="background-color: #f4efed; border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;"><span style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #504d4b;"><span style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; font-size: 32px;">What I'm cooking</span></span></p><p style="background-color: #f4efed; border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">I'm a little burnt out on food after the final flurry of cookbook testing, but this weekend we made the autumn pork salad (could easily be made with grilled chicken, too) from <a href="https://therese-s-site-ad34.thinkific.com/courses/nourished-with-nuance-allergy-cookbook" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #936883;" target="_blank">my cookbook</a>. </p><p style="background-color: #f4efed; border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">I have also made several loaves of chocolate babka and OMG. I'm really glad it's warming up so I will be less inclined to bake this on every single cold day, but it's a WINNER and will absolutely be my holiday gathering contribution in the future. I used the <a href="https://www.bakerita.com/gluten-free-sourdough-bread/" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #936883;" target="_blank">Bakerita GF sourdough bread recipe</a>, making sure to add the 15g of olive oil and adding an additional 2 Tbs room temp butter to the mix. Then after it rises, I follow just the filling directions and recipe from <a href="https://www.farmhouseonboone.com/sourdough-babka-recipe" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #936883;" target="_blank">Farmhouse on Boone's chocolate babka</a> (this filling recipe fills 2 loaves). Then I rub some melted butter over the top and bake at 350 for 40-45 minutes. The hardest part is letting it cook before slicing into it!</p><p style="background-color: #f4efed; border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;"><span style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #504d4b;"><span style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; font-size: 32px;">What I'm feeding my kids</span></span></p><p style="background-color: #f4efed; border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #544a51; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-size: 17px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">We don't spray our yard, and it's certainly a haven for lots of "weeds" like clover, violets, dandelions, and creeping charlie. The first two are welcome any time. The second two are the bane of my existence because they're so prolific. All that to say, I find myself pulling A LOT of dandelions in a short amount of time every year. This is the first year we decided to actually do something fun with them, and I think this will be a new tradition! I had the kids pick a bowl full of just the yellow flowers while I spent time uprooting the plants themselves. We used the flowers to make <a href="https://adamantkitchen.com/dandelion-shortbread-cookies/" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #936883;" target="_blank">dandelion shortbread cookies</a> (I added lemon zest and used Bob's Red Mill 1:1 GF Flour) and <a href="https://parentingchaos.com/diy-dandelion-playdough/" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="border: 0px solid rgb(207, 212, 217); box-sizing: border-box; color: #936883;" target="_blank">dandelion playdoh</a> and it actually wasn't as intimidating as I thought. Pulling the weeds was the hardest part.</p>Theresehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04794387209137253119noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4859205836091447938.post-70646613089749190182023-04-19T10:09:00.003-05:002023-05-06T10:28:02.994-05:00Milk and Motherhood: April 2023<p> TS Eliot says, </p><p data-key="16"><span data-key="17">"April is the cruellest month, breeding Lilacs out of the dead land, mixing Memory and desire, stirring Dull roots with spring rain."</span></p><p data-key="18"><span data-key="19">This is, perhaps, the most eloquent way to describe my emotions lately, as we shift from a very long, very cold winter, into a long-awaited spring. March was still legitemately winter in Nebraska this year, but these last few weeks have been teasing us with sunshine, rainstorms, and torrential winds blowing in a new round of weather every few days.</span></p><p data-key="20"><span data-key="21">I've planted all the spring seeds, adding some new blueberry bushes to the garden roundup and anxiously awaiting the day it's warm enough to plant seedlings. (I outsourced all seedlings to my friend Elizabeth this year, because... toddlers.)</span></p><p data-key="22"><span data-key="23">My big project these last few months has been a digital cookbook for food allergy mamas, and I'm incredibly proud of the product I launched last Friday! It's only $25 right now, and the price will increase Friday at midnight.</span></p><p data-key="24"><span data-key="25"><span data-offset-key="25:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="color: #504d4b;"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="font-size: 32px;">What I'm learning</span></span></span></span></p><p data-key="26"><span data-key="27">This season is what I make of it. One of the Lazy Genius principles is to know your season, and sometimes I just need to admit that this unique season with my unique kids is hard. I am wrapping up a few big work projects (local friends, some fun news coming at you next month) in order to settle into summer a bit and figure out what's working (and not working) with parenting and homeschooling before deciding how I was work to fit into that next fall.</span></p><p data-key="28"><span data-key="29"><span data-offset-key="29:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="color: #504d4b;"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="font-size: 32px;">What I'm reading</span></span></span></span></p><p data-key="30"><span data-key="31">Reflective of the angsty feelings that come with April, my reading life has been all of the place. I have started a lot, but haven't finished much. As I type, I realize my favorites were all food-related. Even writing a digital cookbook is no joke. LOTS of food on my mind recently.</span></p><p data-key="32"><span data-key="33">One surprising gem of a read was </span><a class="email-link" data-key="34" href="https://www.amazon.com/Truffle-Hound-Seductive-Dreamers-Extraordinary/dp/1635575192"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="35"><span data-offset-key="35:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">Truffle Hound</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="36"> by Rowan Jacobsen. It's essentially a food jouranlists dive into... truffle hunting. I like truffle things, but the book made me wonder if I've ever had REAL truffle, or just truffle *flavoring.*</span></p><p data-key="37"><span data-key="38">Another win was David Lebovitz's </span><a class="email-link" data-key="39" href="https://www.amazon.com/Sweet-Life-Paris-Adventures-Perplexing/dp/076792889X/ref=sr_1_1?crid=3H7RNU25R3Z3Y&keywords=sweet+life+in+paris&qid=1682027078&s=books&sprefix=sweet+life+in+paris%2Cstripbooks%2C113&sr=1-1"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="40"><span data-offset-key="40:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">The Sweet Life in Paris</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="41">. It's a classic, and while I have zero desire to ever go to Paris, the food there sure sounds good. </span></p><p data-key="42"><span data-key="43">I'm only midway through, but I also started a book called </span><a class="email-link" data-key="44" href="https://www.amazon.com/Nasty-Brutish-Short-Adventures-Philosophy/dp/B09FC9F4HC/ref=sr_1_1?crid=1HJI2ZT1FM7GR&keywords=nasty+brutish+and+short&qid=1682027368&s=books&sprefix=nasty+brutish+and+short%2Cstripbooks%2C105&sr=1-1"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="45"><span data-offset-key="45:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">Nasty, Brutish, and Short</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="46"> and before the title scares you away, it's a HILARIOUS book on kids and philosophy. The author has done multiple podcast interviews if you search for Scott Hershovitz in your podcast app. I really love philosophy, the classics, and child development so this has been an enjoyable diversion from my normal Kindle que.</span></p><p data-key="47"><span data-key="48"><span data-offset-key="48:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="color: #504d4b;"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="font-size: 32px;">What I'm listening to</span></span></span></span></p><p data-key="49"><span data-key="50"><span data-slate-length="0" data-slate-zero-width="z" spellcheck="true"></span></span><a class="email-link" data-key="51" href="https://www.mother.ly/podcasts/season-10/mona-delahooke-podcast-interview/"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="52"><span data-offset-key="52:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">This Motherly interview</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="53"> with Dr. Mona Delahooke about co-regulation and the body budget is one of the best podcast interviews I've listened to in a while. </span></p><p data-key="54"><span data-key="55">Same goes with </span><a class="email-link" data-key="56" href="https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/how-to-heal-from-sorrow-and-grief-part-1/id1373926216?i=1000603743768"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="57"><span data-offset-key="57:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">The Place we Find Ourselves: How to Heal from Sorrow and Grief</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="58">. I've been really dealing with some grief of leaving the baby stage and not really ending this season of life on the "note" I legitemately worked hard to achieve. This episode didn't discuss birth trauma or colicky babies at all, but it certainly still applied. Can't wait to listen to Parts 2 and 3.</span></p><p data-key="59"><span data-key="60"><span data-offset-key="60:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="color: #504d4b;"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="font-size: 32px;">On the podcast</span></span></span></span></p><p data-key="61"><span data-key="62">I recently started a podcast called </span><a class="email-link" data-key="63" href="https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/milk-motherhood/id1653446438"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="64"><span data-offset-key="64:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">Milk + Motherhood</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="65"> and it's been so fun. You can always find more info on Instagram (@happy.mama.healthy.baby), where I've made it really easy to see episode recaps on my feed. Season 1 was focused on postpartum identity, recovery, and nutrition. Here's a review of the episodes I've published since my last newsletter:</span></p><p data-key="66"><span data-key="67">13. </span><a class="email-link" data-key="68" href="https://open.spotify.com/episode/6O1jI5GvQVbk9iiojEDTG2?si=E4XIZjkkSqaH8Mnl_JYZqw"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="69"><span data-offset-key="69:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">Made for the Work of Motherhood</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="70"> with Mary Haseltine. Mary and I talk about what God actually said to Adam and Eve in the garden, what "work" means, and why we are made for this.</span></p><p data-key="71"><span data-key="72">14. I decided to wrap up Season 1 with </span><a class="email-link" data-key="73" href="https://open.spotify.com/episode/0ik3QnpiOaDOiLj78xrF8n?si=J7g_h_eISEmQ_2354d8M7g"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="74"><span data-offset-key="74:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">The One with All the Birth Stories</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="75">, because I reference my expereinces in many of my interviews, and it made sense to lay it all out. I am actually grateful to Katelyn Fusco for sharing this audio with me. It was recorded when SHE interveiwed me for HER podcast, the Happy Homebirth Podcast (spoiler: I ended up having zero homebirths). She is such a compassionate interviewer, it didn't make sense to monologue these stories when there was already a fantastic dialogue out there.</span></p><p data-key="76"><span data-key="77">15. </span><a class="email-link" data-key="78" href="https://open.spotify.com/episode/7hMcl8vhLMnWgT40SQdn5u?si=E9XNPsSPR2CJMGxqmN5sWA"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="79"><span data-offset-key="79:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">Breastfeeding a Baby with Food Allergies</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="80"> -- we kicked off season 2 kicked off with a really thorogouh interview with none other than Dr. Trill from Free to Feed. I STILL learned so much from this interview even after all we've gone through.</span></p><p data-key="81"><span data-key="82">16. </span><a class="email-link" data-key="83" href="https://open.spotify.com/episode/2Tc33CYg1MS05kWkHCqOmf?si=rs2nc_qoRY2uDxCWzq-pAQ"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="84"><span data-offset-key="84:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">Infant Food Allergy Q and A</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="85"> with Dr. Trill. She and I actually talked for so long, I dedied to break our interview into two segments. This one answers all the listener questions I collected on Instagram in February!</span></p><p data-key="86"><span data-key="87">If you're loving the podcast, please subscribe and leave a review! It's really easy to type a few sentences in, and it helps more people find the fantastic information my guests are sharing with you all. There will be a giveaway before season 2 starts, and all Apple reviews will be entered in the giveaway!</span></p><p data-key="88"><span data-key="89"><span data-offset-key="89:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="color: #504d4b;"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="font-size: 32px;">What I'm cooking</span></span></span></span></p><p data-key="90"><span data-key="91">All the gluten-free sourdough things. I finally dove into bread last fall, and recently braved Bakerita bagels (yes, the kind you boil first) and CINNAMON ROLLS! </span></p><p data-key="92"><span data-key="93">I used Bob's Red Mill egg replacer and Bob's Red Mill 1:1 flour blend + my Bakerita GF sourdough starter in </span><a class="email-link" data-key="94" href="https://agirlworthsaving.net/cinnamon-buns-gluten-free-sourdough/"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="95"><span data-offset-key="95:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">this recipe</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="96"> from A Girl Worth Saving and they're THE BEST gluten free, vegan cinnamon rolls I've ever had. It will definitley be our new holiday standby. </span></p><p data-key="97"><span data-key="98">I also made a version of the </span><a class="email-link" data-key="99" href="https://fedandfit.com/the-best-strawberry-cake-with-cream-cheese-frosting/"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="100"><span data-offset-key="100:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">Fed and Fit strawberry cake</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="101"> for Easter and it was a huge hit.</span></p><p data-key="102"><span data-key="103"><span data-offset-key="103:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="color: #504d4b;"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="font-size: 32px;">What I'm feeding my kids</span></span></span></span></p><p data-key="104"><span data-key="105">We have been making a lot of breakfast cobbler from </span><a class="email-link" data-key="106" href="https://therese-s-site-ad34.thinkific.com/"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="107"><span data-offset-key="107:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">this cookbook</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="108"> for breakfast, snack, desserts, etc. I also splurged and purchased </span><a class="email-link" data-key="109" href="https://www.gomacro.com/kids-protein-bars/"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="110"><span data-offset-key="110:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">GoMacro kids bars</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="111"> from Thrive. It's obviously processed food, but the ingredients are halfway decent, they're free from my youngest kiddo's allergens, and they're conventient on-the-go.</span></p>Theresehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04794387209137253119noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4859205836091447938.post-45712177345150725932023-03-15T16:27:00.001-05:002023-04-20T16:28:43.556-05:00Milk + Motherhood: March 2023<p> Reflective of how busy February was, I never did finish this half-written missive in time for a February newsletter! I think I was so excited for creativity and ambition to return postpartum that I finally got in over my head. All the balls were kind of in the air, and then my youngest dropped to one nap and basically all the balls dropped along with that loss of time. Such are the cons of choosing to work from home, so I've had to remind myself that I'm my own boss and I can make my job work for me, not vice versa. So I logged off of Instagram for Lent and I'm already loving the extra time spend on catching up on all the things: my to-do list (kind of), finishing my allergy cookbook (coming in April), but also catching up on my Dwell Bible reading plan, podcast interviews for season 2, and (hopefully) journaling and processing how quickly my third baby is growing! </p><p data-key="16"><span data-key="17">I had to laugh as I deleted January's content and started on this month. That New Year's Resolution to sit down while eating? Imagine me laugh-crying because that same week, my 12 month old learned how to scale all of the household surfaces and spent a solid month pushing things over to the table, climbing up, and gleefully dispersing all objects on said table to all four corners of the room. So meal time has been a blance of feeding him in his highchair until he's whiny and restless and letting him run around while we all *try* to eat and have a baby billy goat climbing into everyone's lap and using that as leverage to get onto the table. I know I'll eat in peace again, and a very tiny part of me will miss this, but it's kind of exhausting in the meantime.</span></p><p data-key="18"><span data-key="19"><span data-offset-key="19:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="color: #504d4b;"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="font-size: 32px;">What I'm learning</span></span></span></span></p><p data-key="20"><span data-key="21">I took what was supposed to be a long-awaited restful trip for 36 hours at the start of the month. I went to KC, saw some old friends (that part was amazing), went to see Abby Halberstadt speak at a one-day homeschool conference (meh), and raced home. Between the pumping and the having to be so selective about avoiding food allergens and just... not fitting in the way I did when I lived there, it was a wonderful and thought-provoking break from the everyday, but it wasn't exactly restful. </span></p><p data-key="22"><span data-key="23">You could probably say I hit some good burnout late January/early February. It's been a long year of physical and emotional recovery, so adding the cold dark weather, and self-imposed impossible to-do lists was a recipe for never feeling like anything got done, let alone done well.</span></p><p data-key="24"><span data-key="25">I'm still paying attention to this process and learning from my mistakes, for sure. I hope I alwyas will be!</span></p><p data-key="26"><span data-key="27"><span data-offset-key="27:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="color: #504d4b;"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="font-size: 32px;">What I'm reading</span></span></span></span></p><p data-key="28"><span data-key="29">The </span><a class="email-link" data-key="30" href="https://www.amazon.com/Outlandish-Companion-Revised-Updated-Outlander/dp/1101887273"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="31"><span data-offset-key="31:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">Outlandish Companion</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="32"> was actually just as long as the Outlander books are and it took me several weeks to chug through it, but it was so enjoyable, as is everything Diana Gabaldon has written!</span></p><p data-key="33"><span data-key="34">As for non-fiction, I thought I'd read everything Ruth Reichel wrote, so I was pleasantly surprised to find </span><a class="email-link" data-key="35" href="https://www.amazon.com/Garlic-Sapphires-Secret-Critic-Disguise/dp/0143036610"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="36"><span data-offset-key="36:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">Garlic and Sapphires</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="37"> at my library book sale. I guess I'm getting old, because reading about life in the early 90s without the internet and cell phones just felt so simple and refreshing.</span></p><p data-key="38"><span data-key="39"><span data-offset-key="39:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="color: #504d4b;"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="font-size: 32px;">What I'm listening to</span></span></span></span></p><p data-key="40"><span data-key="41">I had a long queue of audiobooks and podcasts to catch up on while I drove to and from KC, and instead I ended up listening to playlists from the last 4 years almost the entire time. It was a really sweet way to reflect on the journey we've been on the past 4 years in our marriage. That's a story for another day, though. I've also been loving the new-to-me Sandra McCracken song </span><a class="email-link" data-key="42" href="https://www.challies.com/resources/a-new-song-in-the-valley-bless-the-lord/"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="43"><span data-offset-key="43:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">In the Valley </span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="44">lately. I actually don't feel like I'm in the valley for the first time in a long long time and for some reason it makes the song even sweeter, looking back at how far I've come. </span></p><p data-key="45"><span data-key="46">I'm also working my way through Read-Aloud Revival podcast episode 216: </span><a class="email-link" data-key="47" href="https://readaloudrevival.com/216/"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="48"><span data-offset-key="48:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">How to Teach from Rest</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="49">. The quote, "there is time enough for what God has called us to do" has really been resonating with me.</span></p><p data-key="50"><span data-key="51"><span data-offset-key="51:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="color: #504d4b;"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="font-size: 32px;">On the podcast</span></span></span></span></p><p data-key="52"><span data-key="53">I recently started a podcast called </span><a class="email-link" data-key="54" href="https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/milk-motherhood/id1653446438"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="55"><span data-offset-key="55:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">Milk + Motherhood</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="56"> and it's been so fun. You can always find more info on Instagram (@happy.mama.healthy.baby), where I've made it really easy to see episode recaps on my feed. Season 1 has been focused on postpartum identity, recovery, and nutrition. Here's a review of what you'll find on Apple or Spotify from January and February:</span></p><p data-key="57"><span data-key="58">8. </span><a class="email-link" data-key="59" href="https://open.spotify.com/episode/59gG4PoMFyxQls6oqMprdy"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="60"><span data-offset-key="60:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">How to Literally Feed Yourself When You're Raising Tiny Humans</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="61">: My doula and chef friend Tori Weber and I talk about how to actually impelment postpartum dietary recommendations when your hands are full.</span></p><p data-key="62"><span data-key="63">9. </span><a class="email-link" data-key="64" href="https://open.spotify.com/episode/1CTEsU4KfpLoTZoKz213cU"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="65"><span data-offset-key="65:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">Restoring Womanly Movement Postpartum</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="66">: Physical Therapist Dr. Cait and I talk about how we grow with each kid, how we need to apply our maternal mama bear instincts to our own postpartum care as well, and physical and emotional patterns that we can get into that don't serve us.</span></p><p data-key="67"><span data-key="68">10. </span><a class="email-link" data-key="69" href="https://open.spotify.com/episode/7zKsdS8KdlaPF0lEWHa1aW"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="70"><span data-offset-key="70:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">Tummy Time, Co-Regulation, and Retained Reflexes:</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="71"> Honestly, after most of my interviews, I think, "I love doing this and that was the best conversation ever." But this one was with one of my absolute favorite women, PT Stephanie Novacek. I worked alongside her for several years and I still learned so many things about infant movement patterns and co-regulation in this conversation.</span></p><p data-key="72"><span data-key="73">11. </span><a class="email-link" data-key="74" href="https://open.spotify.com/episode/0Q760ERh8XNoIs7KdbTq4X"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="75"><span data-offset-key="75:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">Wise Traditions in Early Motherhood with THE Sally Fallon Morell</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="76">: I was so nervous about this conversation, but Sally was SO easy to talk to and we had a blast talking about raw milk, human milk, ancestral diets, and the importance of Dr. Weston A. Price's research.</span></p><p data-key="77"><span data-key="78">12. </span><a class="email-link" data-key="79" href="https://open.spotify.com/episode/0l12NUrWSV80VXsFfBCfHF"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="80"><span data-offset-key="80:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">What to Expect When You Were Expecting to Sleep Like a Baby</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="81">: In this interview, Taylor Kulik and I talk about all things sleep. Namely, what's normal in regards to infant sleep and how to cope with and investigate sleep patterns that are abnormal. You guys, the great irony is that the night I posted this episode was the FIRST TIME EVER my 14.5 month old slept through the night. You hear in the episode that he spent months 4-9 waking every one to two hours and crying inconsolably at night, so I thought this day might never come.</span></p><p data-key="82"><span data-key="83">I have one more episode to post for season 1, and then Season 2 will start at the end of April. I have already done 5 interviews for seaon 2, with guests like Dr. Trill from Free to Feed, Adina Rubin with Strength Training for Happy Hormones, biological dentist Dr. Molly Hayes, and more!</span></p><p data-key="84"><span data-key="85">If you're loving the podcast, PLEASE LEAVE A REVIEW ON APPLE. It's really easy to type a few sentences in, and it helps more people find the fantastic information my guests are sharing with you all. There will be a giveaway before season 2 starts, and all Apple reviews will be entered in the giveaway!</span></p><p data-key="86"><span data-key="87"><span data-offset-key="87:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="color: #504d4b;"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="font-size: 32px;">What I'm cooking</span></span></span></span></p><p data-key="88"><span data-key="89">I'm still doubling meals to eat two nights in a row, and it really helps my decision fatigue with meal planning as well as the budget. We've been eating lots of recipes from the upcoming Nourished with Nuance e-cookbook as my wonderful recipe testers and I work out the last few kinks. Cookbook comes out in APRIL! I promise not to spam you, but you'll get 1-2 extra emails that month with early access and also a special email discount code.</span></p><p data-key="90"><span data-key="91"><span data-offset-key="91:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="color: #504d4b;"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="font-size: 32px;">What I'm feeding my kids</span></span></span></span></p><p data-key="92"><span data-key="93">I have been making one chocolate cake per week because I'm determined to find one good cake recipe free from all the allergens for the cookbook. I've been making gluten and egg free cake fails for almost 6 years now, and I'm determined to get this one right. So.... we've been eating a lot of gummy or crumbly choclate cake, but the kids aren't complaining. The major WIN, though, is the muddy buddy bars from the cookbook. They're easy, fun, and delicious.</span></p><p data-key="94"><span data-key="95"><span data-offset-key="95:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="color: #504d4b;"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="font-size: 32px;">Parting thoughts</span></span></span></span></p><p data-key="96"><span data-key="97">Thank you so much for subscribing to this little missive, following me on social media, supporting my podcast, and using my affiliate links when you purchase something like Perfect Supplements, Earthley, Lactation Lab testing, etc. I will never promote somthing I haven't personally spent money on, and using my affiliate links allows you to support the information I share on Instagram and my podcast without any additional cost to you. It truly means so much when I see someone purchase through my links- you can find them all at the bottom of each email, on my Instagram bio, or by clicking </span><a class="email-link" data-key="98" href="https://msha.ke/happymamahealthybaby"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="99"><span data-offset-key="99:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">here</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="100">.</span></p>Theresehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04794387209137253119noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4859205836091447938.post-42365210270790386612023-01-09T15:58:00.001-06:002023-02-18T15:59:03.871-06:00Milk + Motherhood: January 2023<p> Happy New Year! The holiday season is behind us, for better or for worse, and now we enter the part of the year where, at least in the Midwest, it feels like it's awlays winter and never Christmas (to quote CS Lewis). My youngest and likely last baby also turned once since my last monthly update, so I feel like I've climbed a mountain and I've turned around (to quote Fleetwood Mac... and now I'm realizing that song explains my life so accurately right now). </p><p data-key="16"><span data-key="17"><span data-offset-key="17:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="font-size: 32px;"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="color: #9a7b6c;">What I'm learning</span></span></span></span></p><p data-key="18"><span data-key="19">I'm feeling such a big shift right now since the new year also directly corresponds with leaving the baby stage of life, and I'm evaluating what I what this new season to look like, insofar as I can control that. </span></p><p data-key="20"><span data-key="21">This year, I really want to focus on deeper work. Really focusing on local resources to improve postpartum care in my little town. Diving in the podcast and providing a postpartum and breastfeeding resource unlike anything else that's out there. Getting the word out about our Nourished Beginnings course so moms-to-be have concise, practical prenatal breastfeeding education at their fingertips. </span></p><p data-key="22"><span data-key="23">But also, sitting down to eat my meals, being better at distunguishing between work time and mom time, adding in more subjects to our homeschool routine. Deepening friendships. It sounds like a lot of things, but it really all has the same desire at the root of it: authenticity and presence. The opposite of multitasking.</span></p><p data-key="24"><span data-key="25"><span data-offset-key="25:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="font-size: 32px;"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="color: #9a7b6c;">What I'm reading</span></span></span></span></p><p data-key="26"><span data-key="27">In fiction (or I guess this is non-fiction, although not in the way I usually think about it) I started reading the </span><a class="email-link" data-key="28" href="https://www.amazon.com/Outlandish-Companion-Revised-Updated-Outlander/dp/1101887273"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="29"><span data-offset-key="29:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">Outlandish Companion</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="30">. For so long, Harry Potter was a winter comfort read for me. The last few years, it's been Outlander. Give me all the UK knits and gray skies and good writing, I guess.</span></p><p data-key="31"><span data-key="32">In non-fiction, alas, I did not finish any books and instead started two new ones: Mother Culture by Karen Andreola and Parents and Children by Charlotte Mason. *SIGH* Perhaps a 2023 goal should be to finish the non-fiction books I start, but I guess that's not enough of a priority for me right now.</span></p><p data-key="33"><span data-key="34">I also loved reading this article: </span><a class="email-link" data-key="35" href="https://fierceparenting.com/home-education/on-home-education-what-if-i-fail/?fbclid=IwAR2-73xHnrCKlC51B4qYOmjabI1cwYF2U7XRW0ges76Z96IlUVkuViArFJc"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="36"><span data-offset-key="36:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">What if I Fail?</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="37"><span data-slate-length="0" data-slate-zero-width="z" spellcheck="true"></span></span></p><p data-key="38"><span data-key="39"><span data-offset-key="39:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="font-size: 32px;"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="color: #9a7b6c;">What I'm listening to</span></span></span></span></p><p data-key="40"><span data-key="41">This past month, while I was driving or doing mindless tasks like cooking and cleaning, I mostly listened to the Audible version of </span><a class="email-link" data-key="42" href="https://www.amazon.com/Friends-Lovers-Big-Terrible-Thing-ebook/dp/B09M1RPWWL"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="43"><span data-offset-key="43:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">Friends, Lovers, and the Big Terrible Thing</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="44"> by Matthew Perry. (Yeah, the guy from Friends). I oddly love addiction memoir, and I love Friends, but I'm on the fence about this book. If you read it, REPLY to this email! I need to debrief with someone who gets it.</span></p><p data-key="45"><span data-key="46"><span data-offset-key="46:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="color: #9a7b6c;"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="font-size: 32px;">On the podcast</span></span></span></span></p><p data-key="47"><span data-key="48">I recently started a podcast called </span><a class="email-link" data-key="49" href="https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/milk-motherhood/id1653446438"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="50"><span data-offset-key="50:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">Milk + Motherhood</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="51"> and it's been so fun. You can always find more info on Instagram (@happy.mama.healthy.baby), where I've made it really easy to see episode recaps on my feed. Season 1 has been focused on postpartum identity, recovery, and nutrition. Here's a review of what you'll find on Apple or Spotify from November and December:</span></p><p data-key="52"><span data-key="53">01. </span><a class="email-link" data-key="54" href="https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/01-milk-and-motherhood-this-is-my-body-broken-for-you/id1653446438?i=1000585374117"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="55"><span data-offset-key="55:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">This is My Body, Broken for You</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="56"> - A short into to the podcast plus a reading of one the best essays I read as a new mom.</span></p><p data-key="57"><span data-key="58">02. </span><a class="email-link" data-key="59" href="https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/02-the-birth-of-a-mother-with/id1653446438?i=1000585374075"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="60"><span data-offset-key="60:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">The Birth of a Mother</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="61"> - An interview with postpartum herbalist Amanda Radan. We talk about herbs and nutrition and adjusting to motherhood, but mostly she drops some beautiful wisdom about the transformation from maiden to mother and it was so encouraging to me.</span></p><p data-key="62"><span data-key="63">03. </span><a class="email-link" data-key="64" href="https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/03-birth-matters-but-its-not-the-end-of-the/id1653446438?i=1000586973025"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="65"><span data-offset-key="65:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">Birth Matters (but it's not the end of the story)</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="66"> - Katelyn Fusco from Happy Homebirth Podcast (@happyhomebirthpodcast) and I chat about how physiologic birth sets us up for the best chance for the hormonal cascade that promotes breastmilk production. HOWEVER we spend most of the episode talking about how you can still facilitate oxytocin and bonding and breastfeeding if labor and delivery don't go the way you planned for any number of reasons, and how to recover physically and emotionally if that's the case.</span></p><p data-key="67"><span data-key="68">04. </span><a class="email-link" data-key="69" href="https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/04-why-breastfeeding-is-worth-preparing-for-with/id1653446438?i=1000588710176"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="70"><span data-offset-key="70:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">Why Breastfeeding is Worth Preparing For</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="71"> - Fellow IBCLC Cortney Steffensmeier (@growwiththe.flow) and I share a lot about what early breastfeeding looked like us, how that changed the entire trajectory of our lives, and how we don't want other mothers walking into it feeling as unequipped as we did. (PS: there's a hidden course discount in the Instagram post for this episode).</span></p><p data-key="72"><span data-key="73">05. </span><a class="email-link" data-key="74" href="https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/05-when-you-dont-feel-like-yourself-postpartum-with/id1653446438?i=1000589772329"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="75"><span data-offset-key="75:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">When You Don't Feel Like Yourself Postpartum</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="76"> - Perinatal counselor Stephanie Risinger (@hopefulandwhole) gives us a great overview of what is and isn't normal in terms of postpartum emotions. This episode is so valuable, and particularly worth sending to your support person and family members before baby arrives.</span></p><p data-key="77"><span data-key="78">06. </span><a class="email-link" data-key="79" href="https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/06-minerals-mothers-milk-with-dietitian-amanda-montalvo/id1653446438?i=1000590546358"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="80"><span data-offset-key="80:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">Minerals + Mother's Milk</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="81"> - I have received so many questions about this subject, so I took them to the mineral queen herself, Amanda Montalvo (aka @hormonehealingrd). She answers so many questions about HTMAs, Lactation Lab testing, postpartum mineral intake, but *most importantly* we talk about checking in with your body and knowing when it is or isn't beneficial to test or make big changes.</span></p><p data-key="82"><span data-key="83">07. </span><a class="email-link" data-key="84" href="https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/07-nutrition-for-postpartum-recovery-with-loren-sofia/id1653446438?i=1000591440799"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="85"><span data-offset-key="85:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">Nutrition for Postpartum Recovery</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="86"> - Loren Sofia (@innate_fertility) and I talk about ancestral postpartum foods, how to prepare foods for the best nutritional availability, how to *practically* incorporate some of these ideas, and how to prioritize grocery shopping on a budget.</span></p><p data-key="87"><span data-key="88">Follow me on Instagram or subscribe to the podcast on Apple of Spotify to make sure you don't miss the next few episodes from some fantastic guests like Cait Daubman (@womanlymade), Kori Meloy (@korimeloy), SALLY FALLON (!!!!) and more!</span></p><p data-key="89"><span data-key="90"><span data-offset-key="90:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="font-size: 32px;"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="color: #9a7b6c;">What I'm cooking</span></span></span></span></p><p data-key="91"><span data-key="92">Whenever I'm in a rut, I go back to the </span><a class="email-link" data-key="93" href="https://www.amazon.com/Cook-Once-Eat-All-Week/dp/1628603437"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="94"><span data-offset-key="94:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">Cook Once, Eat All Week</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="95"> cookbook for foolproof meal plans. Lately, I've been doubling every recipe so we eat leftovers for 2-3 days. It's easier and, surprisingly, a little cheaper than making 5-7 unique meals each week.</span></p><p data-key="96"><span data-key="97"><span data-offset-key="97:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="font-size: 32px;"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="color: #9a7b6c;">What I'm feeding my kids</span></span></span></span></p><p data-key="98"><span data-key="99">This feels like a personal win after they struggled with food sensitivities for so long, but my oldest two kids drank and tolerated Kalona brand eggnog all of December, and now they're drinking Kalona chocolate milk. I'm so excited for them to have another source of protein and minerals throughout the day. Meanwhile, the baby passed baked milk and butter on the dairy ladder, so it's just been a really encouraging month all-around in terms of food sensitivities.</span></p><p data-key="100"><span data-key="101"><span data-offset-key="101:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="font-size: 32px;"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="color: #9a7b6c;">Parting thoughts</span></span></span></span></p><p data-key="102"><span data-key="103">Thank you so much for subscribing to this little missive, following me on social media, supporting my podcast, and using my affiliate links when you purchase something like Perfect Supplements, Earthley, Lactation Lab testing, etc. I will never promote somthing I haven't personally spent money on, and by becoming an affiliate with a select few of these companies, it allows you to support the information I share on Instagram and my podcast without any additional cost to you. It truly means so much when I see someone purchase through my links-- you can find them all on my Instagram bio, or by clicking </span><a class="email-link" data-key="104" href="https://msha.ke/happymamahealthybaby"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="105"><span data-offset-key="105:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">here</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="106">.</span></p>Theresehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04794387209137253119noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4859205836091447938.post-39182503405815006782022-12-09T10:59:00.000-06:002022-12-09T10:59:27.740-06:00A Liturgy for a Mother on the Eve of Baby's First Birthday<p>How marvelous you are, Oh Lord,</p><p>who knit this soul into being,</p><p>woven from two cells into a body ready to be born.</p><p><br /></p><p>As I went to bed this time last year,</p><p>I had carried the weight of this life for months,</p><p>but not yet looked into these eyes,</p><p>heard this cry, filled this stomach.</p><p><br /></p><p>My own womb was full, </p><p>but I didn't know my heart was empty</p><p>in a corner only this baby could fill.</p><p><br /></p><p>Tonight, I go to bed with an empty womb,</p><p>but a full heart.</p><p>Not wondering if this is the night,</p><p>or tomorrow is the day,</p><p>or how this baby will unfold from inside my body</p><p>into my arms.</p><p><br /></p><p>Tonight, I go to bed knowing</p><p>that this marks the last few hours of unknowing.</p><p>Tomorrow I will remember the moment I met </p><p>this image bearer face to face,</p><p>the child you always intended to share with us,</p><p>who reflects a facet of your glory in a way </p><p>no one else ever will.</p><p><br /></p><p>Thank you for the gift of life and the gift of this child.</p><p>Help us to carry it well, to point this soul back to you,</p><p>the Giver of good gifts.</p><p><br /></p><p>Grant them</p><p>wisdom,</p><p>peace,</p><p>joy,</p><p>strength</p><p>that they might be an instrument of your glory.</p><p><br /></p><p>Thank you for carrying us through that dark night </p><p>to the break of morning.</p><p>A night in which my body was broken,</p><p>bled,</p><p>poured out for new life,</p><p>in a pale reflection of what you've done for us on the cross.</p><p><br /></p><p>Let me draw courage from your sacrifice</p><p>when the sacrifices of motherhood feel like they might weigh me down</p><p>instead of strengthening me and drawing me closer to you.</p><p><br /></p><p>Amen and Hallelujah.</p>Theresehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04794387209137253119noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4859205836091447938.post-60379743816784507232022-12-05T09:07:00.003-06:002023-01-02T09:08:20.713-06:00Milk + Motherhood: December 2022<p><span style="background-color: #f4efed; color: #544a51; font-family: -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, "Segoe UI", Roboto, Oxygen-Sans, Ubuntu, Cantarell, "Helvetica Neue", sans-serif; font-size: 16px;">Happy December! The holidays, short days, cold weather, and germs are upon us! My baby turns 1 next weekend so I've been all over the place emotionally the past few weeks. I was walking this afternoon and listening to a podcast I for sure wanted to share in the next newsletter, only to realize it's already a new month! Oh boy. Maybe for Christmas we will get some sleep!</span></p><h1 style="background-color: #f4efed; color: #52324a; font-family: "Courier New", Courier, monospace; font-weight: normal; line-height: 1.5; margin: 0px;"><span style="color: #9a7b6c;">What I'm learning</span></h1><p style="background-color: #f4efed; color: #544a51; font-family: -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, "Segoe UI", Roboto, Oxygen-Sans, Ubuntu, Cantarell, "Helvetica Neue", sans-serif; font-size: 16px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">I must be in some consolidation and integration phase I don't know the name of, because I've been FEELING lots and learning lots, but I don't feel like I can put it into words yet.</p><h1 style="background-color: #f4efed; color: #52324a; font-family: "Courier New", Courier, monospace; font-weight: normal; line-height: 1.5; margin: 0px;"><span style="color: #9a7b6c;">What I'm reading</span></h1><p style="background-color: #f4efed; color: #544a51; font-family: -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, "Segoe UI", Roboto, Oxygen-Sans, Ubuntu, Cantarell, "Helvetica Neue", sans-serif; font-size: 16px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">In fiction, I've been reading the Mure series by Jenny Colgan. It's a great time of year for a series of novels that take place on a cold, windy island north of Scotland! The stories manage to be warm, cozy, and enjoyable though.</p><p style="background-color: #f4efed; color: #544a51; font-family: -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, "Segoe UI", Roboto, Oxygen-Sans, Ubuntu, Cantarell, "Helvetica Neue", sans-serif; font-size: 16px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">In non-fiction, alas, I did not finish any books. But I have read some great essays lately that are worth sharing:</p><p style="background-color: #f4efed; color: #544a51; font-family: -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, "Segoe UI", Roboto, Oxygen-Sans, Ubuntu, Cantarell, "Helvetica Neue", sans-serif; font-size: 16px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;"><a data-saferedirecturl="https://www.google.com/url?q=https://click.convertkit-mail2.com/k0uvx4v6rva6hd2xn34al/wnh2hghrl5e2l6a7/aHR0cHM6Ly93d3cuY29mZmVlYW5kY3J1bWJzLm5ldC9ibG9nLzIwMjIvMTIvMi9tYXliZS1pdC1kb2VzbnQtaGF2ZS10by1lbmQ%3D&source=gmail&ust=1672758428577000&usg=AOvVaw2j13-B4NZdDpxwKtf_qQPB" href="https://click.convertkit-mail2.com/k0uvx4v6rva6hd2xn34al/wnh2hghrl5e2l6a7/aHR0cHM6Ly93d3cuY29mZmVlYW5kY3J1bWJzLm5ldC9ibG9nLzIwMjIvMTIvMi9tYXliZS1pdC1kb2VzbnQtaGF2ZS10by1lbmQ=" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="color: #936883;" target="_blank">Maybe it Doesn't Have to End</a></p><p style="background-color: #f4efed; color: #544a51; font-family: -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, "Segoe UI", Roboto, Oxygen-Sans, Ubuntu, Cantarell, "Helvetica Neue", sans-serif; font-size: 16px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;"><a data-saferedirecturl="https://www.google.com/url?q=https://click.convertkit-mail2.com/k0uvx4v6rva6hd2xn34al/08hwh9hmpo36p6il/aHR0cHM6Ly93d3cuY29mZmVlYW5kY3J1bWJzLm5ldC9ibG9nLzIwMjIvMTIvNS93aWxsLWktanVzdC1rbm93&source=gmail&ust=1672758428578000&usg=AOvVaw2bo5RsMHkX1SAE-A9nJgSq" href="https://click.convertkit-mail2.com/k0uvx4v6rva6hd2xn34al/08hwh9hmpo36p6il/aHR0cHM6Ly93d3cuY29mZmVlYW5kY3J1bWJzLm5ldC9ibG9nLzIwMjIvMTIvNS93aWxsLWktanVzdC1rbm93" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="color: #936883;" target="_blank">Will I Just Know?</a></p><p style="background-color: #f4efed; color: #544a51; font-family: -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, "Segoe UI", Roboto, Oxygen-Sans, Ubuntu, Cantarell, "Helvetica Neue", sans-serif; font-size: 16px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;"><a data-saferedirecturl="https://www.google.com/url?q=https://click.convertkit-mail2.com/k0uvx4v6rva6hd2xn34al/vqh3hrhnqxz9qwfg/aHR0cHM6Ly93d3cuamFuZXRsYW5zYnVyeS5jb20vMjAxMC8xMC90aGVyZXMtYS1wZXJzb24tb24teW91ci1icmVhc3QtZG9udC10YWtlLXRoZS1pbnRpbWFjeS1vdXQtb2YtYnJlYXN0ZmVlZGluZy8_ZmJjbGlkPUl3QVIzMFRucWw2TEpWNGlhY0l4a3FKdHJ4c05CV2VPRDVDUGpNNWxWUVQyeko4OEJkeExuazlJOTlSdkUjLlgzS2hsSkdrWlk0LmZhY2Vib29r&source=gmail&ust=1672758428578000&usg=AOvVaw3LlKiS2tVsmnCKbNSvAwon" href="https://click.convertkit-mail2.com/k0uvx4v6rva6hd2xn34al/vqh3hrhnqxz9qwfg/aHR0cHM6Ly93d3cuamFuZXRsYW5zYnVyeS5jb20vMjAxMC8xMC90aGVyZXMtYS1wZXJzb24tb24teW91ci1icmVhc3QtZG9udC10YWtlLXRoZS1pbnRpbWFjeS1vdXQtb2YtYnJlYXN0ZmVlZGluZy8_ZmJjbGlkPUl3QVIzMFRucWw2TEpWNGlhY0l4a3FKdHJ4c05CV2VPRDVDUGpNNWxWUVQyeko4OEJkeExuazlJOTlSdkUjLlgzS2hsSkdrWlk0LmZhY2Vib29r" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="color: #936883;" target="_blank">Don't Take the Intimacy Out of Breastfeeding</a> <-- If you only read one, make it this one</p><h1 style="background-color: #f4efed; color: #52324a; font-family: "Courier New", Courier, monospace; font-weight: normal; line-height: 1.5; margin: 0px;"><span style="color: #9a7b6c;">What I'm listening to</span></h1><p style="background-color: #f4efed; color: #544a51; font-family: -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, "Segoe UI", Roboto, Oxygen-Sans, Ubuntu, Cantarell, "Helvetica Neue", sans-serif; font-size: 16px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">DID YOU KNOW I HAVE A PODCAST?! It actually launched mid-Novemeber, and I have 4 episodes up, one in the pipeline, and a bunch more interveiws coming up. I'd love for you to listen and leave a review if you learned something! The <a data-saferedirecturl="https://www.google.com/url?q=https://click.convertkit-mail2.com/k0uvx4v6rva6hd2xn34al/l2hehmhod08mdds6/aHR0cHM6Ly9wb2RjYXN0cy5hcHBsZS5jb20vdXMvcG9kY2FzdC9taWxrLW1vdGhlcmhvb2QvaWQxNjUzNDQ2NDM4&source=gmail&ust=1672758428578000&usg=AOvVaw0BeNKxjZ-mIQydUpJb4onr" href="https://click.convertkit-mail2.com/k0uvx4v6rva6hd2xn34al/l2hehmhod08mdds6/aHR0cHM6Ly9wb2RjYXN0cy5hcHBsZS5jb20vdXMvcG9kY2FzdC9taWxrLW1vdGhlcmhvb2QvaWQxNjUzNDQ2NDM4" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="color: #936883;" target="_blank">Milk + Motherhood Podcast</a> is on Apple and Spotify now. So I've been listening to my interviews over and over as I edit and it's been so fun.</p><p style="background-color: #f4efed; color: #544a51; font-family: -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, "Segoe UI", Roboto, Oxygen-Sans, Ubuntu, Cantarell, "Helvetica Neue", sans-serif; font-size: 16px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">I'm also listening to some other really great episodes on other podcasts:</p><p style="background-color: #f4efed; color: #544a51; font-family: -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, "Segoe UI", Roboto, Oxygen-Sans, Ubuntu, Cantarell, "Helvetica Neue", sans-serif; font-size: 16px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;"><a data-saferedirecturl="https://www.google.com/url?q=https://click.convertkit-mail2.com/k0uvx4v6rva6hd2xn34al/m2h7h5holgd6lxam/aHR0cHM6Ly9yYWRpb3B1YmxpYy5jb20vcHJlZ25hbmN5LWJpcnRoLWFuZC1iZXlvbmQtOGc1b1BhL3MxITZhMGY1&source=gmail&ust=1672758428578000&usg=AOvVaw126Rqyy0f-2j5J1GYbnMNW" href="https://click.convertkit-mail2.com/k0uvx4v6rva6hd2xn34al/m2h7h5holgd6lxam/aHR0cHM6Ly9yYWRpb3B1YmxpYy5jb20vcHJlZ25hbmN5LWJpcnRoLWFuZC1iZXlvbmQtOGc1b1BhL3MxITZhMGY1" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="color: #936883;" target="_blank">Birth as a Hero's Journey </a>on Pregnancy, Birth, and Beyond (you're gonna hear me talk about this one more over the next few months after I re-listen a few times).</p><p style="background-color: #f4efed; color: #544a51; font-family: -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, "Segoe UI", Roboto, Oxygen-Sans, Ubuntu, Cantarell, "Helvetica Neue", sans-serif; font-size: 16px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;"><a data-saferedirecturl="https://www.google.com/url?q=https://click.convertkit-mail2.com/k0uvx4v6rva6hd2xn34al/dpheh0hq24l923am/aHR0cHM6Ly9kb250bW9tYWxvbmUuY29tLzIwMjIvMTEvMjgvZXZlcnktbW9tLWEtdGhlb2xvZ2lhbi1waHlsaWNpYS1tYXNvbmhlaW1lci1lcC0zODkv&source=gmail&ust=1672758428578000&usg=AOvVaw2WYlqGFkF2P_eLBonbzSyp" href="https://click.convertkit-mail2.com/k0uvx4v6rva6hd2xn34al/dpheh0hq24l923am/aHR0cHM6Ly9kb250bW9tYWxvbmUuY29tLzIwMjIvMTEvMjgvZXZlcnktbW9tLWEtdGhlb2xvZ2lhbi1waHlsaWNpYS1tYXNvbmhlaW1lci1lcC0zODkv" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="color: #936883;" target="_blank">Every Mom a Theologian </a>on Don't Mom Alone. I particularly loved this episode because I found out that Phylicia is also an OG God-Centered Mom podcast listener from 8 years ago!</p><p style="background-color: #f4efed; color: #544a51; font-family: -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, "Segoe UI", Roboto, Oxygen-Sans, Ubuntu, Cantarell, "Helvetica Neue", sans-serif; font-size: 16px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;"><a data-saferedirecturl="https://www.google.com/url?q=https://click.convertkit-mail2.com/k0uvx4v6rva6hd2xn34al/e0hph7hkdp83z9f8/aHR0cHM6Ly9hbmNob3IuZm0vYm9keXdpc2RvbS9lcGlzb2Rlcy9Qb2x5dmFnYWwtUGFyZW50aW5nLXdpdGgtTWFuZHktRmxhbmRlcnMtZTFxMTluaA%3D%3D&source=gmail&ust=1672758428578000&usg=AOvVaw3hEYJpfqZX5EfHhEDwan_t" href="https://click.convertkit-mail2.com/k0uvx4v6rva6hd2xn34al/e0hph7hkdp83z9f8/aHR0cHM6Ly9hbmNob3IuZm0vYm9keXdpc2RvbS9lcGlzb2Rlcy9Qb2x5dmFnYWwtUGFyZW50aW5nLXdpdGgtTWFuZHktRmxhbmRlcnMtZTFxMTluaA==" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="color: #936883;" target="_blank">Polyvagal Parenting with Mandy Flanders</a> on the Body Wisdom podcast</p><p style="background-color: #f4efed; color: #544a51; font-family: -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, "Segoe UI", Roboto, Oxygen-Sans, Ubuntu, Cantarell, "Helvetica Neue", sans-serif; font-size: 16px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;"><a data-saferedirecturl="https://www.google.com/url?q=https://click.convertkit-mail2.com/k0uvx4v6rva6hd2xn34al/7qh7h8h0xkr2ektz/aHR0cHM6Ly9mcmVlbHlyb290ZWRwb2RjYXN0LmNvbS9lcGlzb2Rlcy8zMA%3D%3D&source=gmail&ust=1672758428578000&usg=AOvVaw2p2DX1A4BC9kSKcGJValJF" href="https://click.convertkit-mail2.com/k0uvx4v6rva6hd2xn34al/7qh7h8h0xkr2ektz/aHR0cHM6Ly9mcmVlbHlyb290ZWRwb2RjYXN0LmNvbS9lcGlzb2Rlcy8zMA==" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="color: #936883;" target="_blank">Intentional Parenting, Nervous System Regulation, and Kids' Emotional Health with Katie Crosby</a> on the Freely Rooted podcast</p><h1 style="background-color: #f4efed; color: #52324a; font-family: "Courier New", Courier, monospace; font-weight: normal; line-height: 1.5; margin: 0px;"><span style="color: #9a7b6c;">What I'm cooking</span></h1><p style="background-color: #f4efed; color: #544a51; font-family: -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, "Segoe UI", Roboto, Oxygen-Sans, Ubuntu, Cantarell, "Helvetica Neue", sans-serif; font-size: 16px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">I've been in a bit of a rut as the seasons change. I'm basically making old standbys 3 times a week and doubling the recipe so we have leftovers the next night. I don't know why I didn't actually do this sooner!</p><h1 style="background-color: #f4efed; color: #52324a; font-family: "Courier New", Courier, monospace; font-weight: normal; line-height: 1.5; margin: 0px;"><span style="color: #9a7b6c;">What I'm feeding my kids</span></h1><p style="background-color: #f4efed; color: #544a51; font-family: -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, "Segoe UI", Roboto, Oxygen-Sans, Ubuntu, Cantarell, "Helvetica Neue", sans-serif; font-size: 16px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">'Tis the season for collagen hot chocolate. The recipe is in our course cookbook and it's so simple and so good!</p><br class="Apple-interchange-newline" />Theresehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04794387209137253119noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4859205836091447938.post-9672510695546627002022-11-09T15:43:00.001-06:002022-12-05T15:44:19.947-06:00Milk and Motherhood: November 2022<p>Happy November, everyone! I am not sure what happened to September and October, but here we are with crisp mornings, earlier sunsets, and the end of the gardening season, at least here in Nebraska. My last baby's first birthday is rapidly approaching, and I'm kind of in shock that time is passing so quickly!</p><h1 data-key="16"><span data-key="17"><span data-offset-key="17:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="color: #9a7b6c;">What I'm learning</span></span></span></h1><p data-key="18"><span data-key="19">This month has been learning a lot of acceptance for what is. What if God's desire in this season is to change my heart and not my baby's sleep (or lack thereof)? I've been called back into prayer, which I've resisted for a long time. But instead of trying to "figure out" my life in prayer or get a specific answer to a specific problem, I'm trying to just ask God in his mercy to show me his nearness and his goodness in whatever circumstance I need help with. As Elisabeth Elliot says, "The secret is Christ in me, not me in a different set of circumstances."</span></p><h1 data-key="20"><span data-key="21"><span data-offset-key="21:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="color: #9a7b6c;">What I'm reading</span></span></span></h1><p data-key="22"><span data-key="23">I'm still plowing through fiction at bedtime and when I'm frustratingly awake between nighttime feeds, but my nonfiction pile is full of a lot of books I need to finish, so there's that. My goal for the next newsletter is to report that I actually finished one of my nonfiction books!</span></p><h1 data-key="24"><span data-key="25"><span data-offset-key="25:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="color: #9a7b6c;">What I'm listening to</span></span></span></h1><p data-key="26"><span data-key="27">Even my podcast listening has taken a hit this month. Seriously, where has time gone? I think the only episode I started and finished was the </span><a class="email-link" data-key="28" href="https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/histamine-intolerance-101/id1568547321?i=1000582866750"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="29"><span data-offset-key="29:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">Histmaine Intolerance 101</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="30"> episode on the Are You Menstrual? podcast because I'm still struggling with baby food allergy issues. </span></p><p data-key="31"><span data-key="32">BUT WAIT! Looking that episode up reminded me I also listened to this phenomenal interview with Adina Rubin about strength training. I've been so tired of being tired and achy, and so conflicted as to whether or not to workout in this state. This episode on </span><a class="email-link" data-key="33" href="https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/strength-training-for-happy-hormones-with-adina-rubin/id1568547321?i=1000558562136"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="34"><span data-offset-key="34:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">Strength Training for Happy Hormones</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="35"> convinced me it's worth starting to build up my strength again becuase being weak is just as stressful as being tired is, especially when you struggle with hypermobility like I do!</span></p><h1 data-key="36"><span data-key="37"><span data-offset-key="37:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="color: #9a7b6c;">What I'm cooking</span></span></span></h1><p data-key="38"><span data-key="39">Just last night my husband helped me made this </span><a class="email-link" data-key="40" href="https://www.raisinggenerationnourished.com/2022/03/sheet-pan-teriyaki-meatballs-roasted-veggies-gluten-free-soy-free-dairy-free-nut-free-refined-sugar-free/?fbclid=IwAR1YKQ_ZqWRgApNMW1qDO-2QQq2D4YHLJqTrdYo8cTXFQhtD0ljbbx9zJX0"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="41"><span data-offset-key="41:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">Sheet Pan Teriyaki Meatball</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="42"> dinner (he helps with dinner on the weekend and I love it). This wasn't nearly as quick and simple as I like sheet pan meals to be, but it was DELICIOUS and we will definitely eat it agian.</span></p><h1 data-key="43"><span data-key="44"><span data-offset-key="44:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="color: #9a7b6c;">What I'm feeding my kids</span></span></span></h1><p data-key="45"><span data-key="46">Last year, we discovered </span><a class="email-link" data-key="47" href="https://www.food.com/recipe/apple-filling-for-pies-75659#activity-feed"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="48"><span data-offset-key="48:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">this apple pie filling</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="49"> recipe that you cook and then freeze in batches so you can eat applie cobbler or pie all winter long! We just made our third batch this fall. I use arrowroot instead of cornstarch.</span></p><h1 data-key="50"><span data-key="51"><span data-offset-key="51:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-mark="true" style="color: #9a7b6c;">Parting thoughts</span></span></span></h1><p data-key="52"><span data-key="53">I've started including affiliate links at the bottom of my montly email. I have such mixed thoughts about appearaing sales-y, but the fact is that these are companies I have purchased from (and still do, with my own money) for years so *I* approached *them* for affiliate links so you can try my favorite things at a discount, too.</span></p><p data-key="54"><span data-key="55">That being said, I wanted you to know that </span><a class="email-link" data-key="56" href="http://www.perfectsupplements.com/?Click=62d17b435141e"><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span><span data-key="57"><span data-offset-key="57:0" data-slate-leaf="true"><span data-slate-content="true" spellcheck="true">Perfect Supplements</span></span></span><span style="font-size: 0px;"> </span></a><span data-key="58"> is starting their holiday sale at 7pm Monday night. It runs through November 3 and it includes 25% off of any of their Perfect brand products! We use their collagen, gelatin, immunity mushroom blend, Vitamin C powder, and desiccated beef liver regularly and I love their transparency and quality. Every product has their quality testing available per batch right on the page so you know there's no contamination, heavy metals, glyphosate, etc. If you use code HAPPYMAMA10, you get an *additional* 10% off Perfect brand products AND anything else in your cart (they also sell Smidge magnesium, Rosita cod liver oil, and more).</span></p>Theresehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04794387209137253119noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4859205836091447938.post-89866547024136807042022-10-31T09:13:00.004-05:002022-10-31T09:13:47.599-05:00Milk and Motherhood: October 2022<p> </p><h1 data-key="9"><span data-key="10">What I'm learning</span></h1><p data-key="11"><span data-key="12">To be honest, now that our </span><a class="email-link" data-key="13" href="https://nourished-beginnings1.teachable.com/"><span data-key="14">breastfeeding course</span></a><span data-key="15"> is finished and launched, my learning brain is on a bit of a hiatus. What I'm needing to re-learn is patience and presence as launch winds down and I don't need to be spending as much time on social media promoting it. (That being said, the launce sale ends tonight at midnight if you meant to </span><a class="email-link" data-key="16" href="https://nourished-beginnings1.teachable.com/"><span data-key="17">snag it at 30% off</span></a><span data-key="18">and haven't done so yet).</span></p><h1 data-key="19"><span data-key="20">What I'm reading</span></h1><p data-key="21"><span data-key="22">In fiction, sorry not sorry I'm still working my way through all the Jenny Colgan books I can get my hands on via the library. What can I say? When I find something I like, I'm all in! I mostly read before bed and these are perfect because they are long, have a great sense of place, and they aren't scary or suspenseful. Many of them also involve people eating yummy food, which is a plus! The one I most recently finished was </span><a class="email-link" data-key="23" href="https://www.amazon.com/Welcome-Hopkins-Sweetshop-Dreams-Paperback/dp/B015X45H6Y/ref=sr_1_2?crid=2KVMZFHT87522&keywords=sweetshop+of+dreams&qid=1665607962&qu=eyJxc2MiOiIyLjIzIiwicXNhIjoiMS43OCIsInFzcCI6IjEuNjAifQ%3D%3D&sprefix=sweetshop+of+dreams%2Caps%2C123&sr=8-2"><span data-key="24">Welcome to Rosie Hopkins' Sweetshop of Dreams</span></a><span data-key="25">.</span></p><p data-key="26"><span data-key="27">In non-fiction, I just started </span><a class="email-link" data-key="28" href="https://www.amazon.com/Mama-Rebellion-Against-Mediocre-Motherhood/dp/0736983775/ref=sr_1_1?crid=4REUCX95QGW6&keywords=m+is+for+mama&qid=1665608130&qu=eyJxc2MiOiIxLjE1IiwicXNhIjoiMC43NyIsInFzcCI6IjAuNzYifQ%3D%3D&sprefix=m+is+for+mam%2Caps%2C227&sr=8-1"><span data-key="29">M is for Mama</span></a><span data-key="30">! I literally JUST started it, though, so I don't have much to say except that, well, the author has A LOT of kids.</span></p><h1 data-key="31"><span data-key="32">What I'm listening to</span></h1><p data-key="33"><span data-key="34">Organic Olivia started a podcast in 2020 and she just came out with an episode called, </span><a class="email-link" data-key="35" href="https://podcasts.google.com/feed/aHR0cDovL2ZlZWRzLmxpYnN5bi5jb20vMjM1OTc2L3Jzcw/episode/NGMyOGFhZjUtMDYxOC00YjY0LWI3ZmUtYjI1ZjhhNmNlZWYz?hl=en&ved=2ahUKEwjI-5fkseD6AhXsrIkEHRJuA0YQieUEegQIBxAI&ep=6"><span data-key="36">"So You're Thinking About Having a Baby"</span></a><span data-key="37"> and it was fun to listen to her venture into a new area of learning. Of course, there were some breastfeeding inaccuracies in the episode since the guest is a mom and acupuncturist, but not a lactation consultant, so be warned your nipples do NOT just have to "burn" during feedings for a month until your baby "just figures it out." I reached out and told her I'd love to do an episode called, "So You Had the Baby... Now What?" ;-)</span></p><p data-key="38"><span data-key="39">Also, the Freely Rooted podcast had a PHENOMENAL </span><a class="email-link" data-key="40" href="https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/28-metabolic-health-the-embodiment-of-femininity/id1558059416?i=1000582403770"><span data-key="41">episode on femininity</span></a><span data-key="42"> this past week with two fantastic guests. I learned so much and it made me more passionate than ever about presenting an appropriate and Godly model of femininity for my daughter to grow up with so she's not looking to the world to tell her what it means to be a woman.</span></p><h1 data-key="43"><span data-key="44">What I'm cooking</span></h1><p data-key="45"><span data-key="46">The baby's allergies mean I can't eat chicken, eggs, and dairy among other things and I'm getting pretty tired of turkey, beef, and pork. I ordered some other things from US Wellness Meats last week to add some variety. I'm most excited for the duck drumsticks... I miss roasted bone-in chicken so much! I also got some lamb sausage, liverwurst, and beef bone marrow.</span></p><h1 data-key="47"><span data-key="48">What I'm feeding my kids</span></h1><p data-key="49"><span data-key="50">Now that my oldest two are past toddler and preschool ages, it's fun to see persistence pay off when it comes to putting food in front of them and letting them try it. They will try most things, and I'm super grateful. Today I made a braunschweiger (a type of liverwurst) dip and added it to a little snack plate with homemade crackers, raw A2 cheese, apple, and this dip. My daugher tried two crackers-full and my son kept going. It was an effort not to make a bit deal about how excited I was, lest I freak them out and make them wonder why it's such a big deal. Even the 10 month old ate a few bites of braunschweiger. The recipe for the dip is </span><a class="email-link" data-key="51" href="https://discover.grasslandbeef.com/blog/what-is-braunschweiger/"><span data-key="52">here</span></a><span data-key="53">!</span></p><p data-key="54"><span data-key="55">If you want to be a little lower-key about sneaking in organ meats, Force of Nature ancestral blends are the easiest way to do this. We use them at least once a week. Especially when it's in something like tacos or spaghetti sauce, I swear you can't taste anything different. You can use </span><a class="email-link" data-key="56" href="https://lnk.rise-ai.com/PHCuQHNahLQCntD"><span data-key="57">this link</span></a><span data-key="58"> for $15 off your first order if you want to try it!</span></p><p data-key="59"><span data-key="60">POSTSCRIPT: </span></p><p data-key="61"><span data-key="62">Our </span><a class="email-link" data-key="63" href="https://nourished-beginnings1.teachable.com/"><span data-key="64">Nourished Beginnings</span></a><span data-key="65"> breastfeeding and postpartum course launched last week and it's been SO FUN seeing what the launch team things of it and seeing you all purchase it. I'm SO excited to start getting feedback from mamas-to-be who are taking the course, once they have their babies. If this is you, reply to this email and let me know what you think of the course material so far!</span></p>Theresehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04794387209137253119noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4859205836091447938.post-63749424655578166772022-10-24T17:06:00.000-05:002022-10-24T17:06:12.274-05:00Breastfeeding and the Eucharist<p>I didn't write this. A mama named Lillian Keil wrote it on October 7, 2014 on a blog called Hilltop Diaries shortly after Noah was born and I immediately loved it. The internet is fickle, so I'm copying it here in case the <a href="https://lilliankeil.tumblr.com/post/99411163279/breastfeeding-and-the-eucharist" target="_blank">link I have</a> stops working one day. </p><p><br /></p><p class="p1" style="caret-color: rgb(51, 51, 51); color: #333333; font-family: Calluna, serif, georgia, serif; font-size: 18px; line-height: 28px; margin: 0px 0px 15px;">I always thought communion was a little weird.</p><p class="p2" style="caret-color: rgb(51, 51, 51); color: #333333; font-family: Calluna, serif, georgia, serif; font-size: 18px; line-height: 28px; margin: 0px 0px 15px;">I became a Christian when I was 20. Though my love for Jesus came easily, my acceptance of church traditions did not. Communion struck me as a pointless relic of orthodoxy. The vague cannibalism implied by “this-is-my-body” and “this-is-my-blood" made me wonder if the whole thing wasn’t just a misquote of Jesus. Didn’t the church have more important works of justice to do than sit around feeding each other stale wafers? Sure, the bread of life and cup of salvation<em> sounded</em> beautiful, but drinking grape juice from a plastic thimble was never the transcendent experience I hoped it would be.</p><p class="p2" style="caret-color: rgb(51, 51, 51); color: #333333; font-family: Calluna, serif, georgia, serif; font-size: 18px; line-height: 28px; margin: 0px 0px 15px;">It wasn’t until I became a nursing a mother that I began to understand the Eucharist. </p><p class="p2" style="caret-color: rgb(51, 51, 51); color: #333333; font-family: Calluna, serif, georgia, serif; font-size: 18px; line-height: 28px; margin: 0px 0px 15px;">My experience of breastfeeding has been very straightforward; my kids were both good latchers and grew steadily. Once I got over the initial shock of <em>milk coming out of my boobs</em>, I found it all quite simple and peaceful. By some mysterious process, my body produced the perfect nourishment for my babies. There was nothing gross about this transmission of fluids; I quickly ditched the nursing cover and breastfeed on demand. For food! For healing! For sleep! For comfort!</p><p class="p2" style="caret-color: rgb(51, 51, 51); color: #333333; font-family: Calluna, serif, georgia, serif; font-size: 18px; line-height: 28px; margin: 0px 0px 15px;">When Simon was a few months old, an acquaintance asked if I was breastfeeding. When I responded in the affirmative she said, "I knew it! I could tell by the way he looks so adoringly at you. He’s like ‘You’re all I need, Mom.’" </p><p class="p2" style="caret-color: rgb(51, 51, 51); color: #333333; font-family: Calluna, serif, georgia, serif; font-size: 18px; line-height: 28px; margin: 0px 0px 15px;">Perhaps this is what Jesus had in mind for the Eucharist. Through the breaking of the bread, God invites us into the nursing relationship: the meeting of all our needs.</p><p class="p2" style="caret-color: rgb(51, 51, 51); color: #333333; font-family: Calluna, serif, georgia, serif; font-size: 18px; line-height: 28px; margin: 0px 0px 15px;">I think about the cracked nipples and the itchy thrush, the aches and fevers of mastitis, the midnight trek across the house to feed a crying baby, fatigued to the point of nausea: <em>"This is my body, broken for you.”</em></p><p class="p2" style="caret-color: rgb(51, 51, 51); color: #333333; font-family: Calluna, serif, georgia, serif; font-size: 18px; line-height: 28px; margin: 0px 0px 15px;">I think about the times I missed out because of the chore it was keeping Simon fed, the chained-up feeling of pumping at work, the moments when I wish desperately for a break: <em>“Poured out for you and for many…”</em></p><p style="caret-color: rgb(51, 51, 51); color: #333333; font-family: Calluna, serif, georgia, serif; font-size: 18px; line-height: 28px; margin: 0px 0px 15px;">I think about God, who has given me these children and the means to sustain them, who is present in the Eucharist and in my nursing chair, who by these rituals invites me to participate in His life-giving power: <em>“Do this, in remembrance of Me.”</em></p><p style="caret-color: rgb(51, 51, 51); color: #333333; font-family: Calluna, serif, georgia, serif; font-size: 18px; line-height: 28px; margin: 0px 0px 15px;">Amen.</p>Theresehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04794387209137253119noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4859205836091447938.post-11314874999860397002022-10-19T21:25:00.000-05:002022-10-19T21:25:04.939-05:00A Day in the Life with 3 kids!<p>I just want to start by saying, this is what I DREAMED of. For so long after Rosie was born, I still felt like I wasn't done having babies and our family wasn't complete yet. We loved Noah and Rosie so much, but I still felt like someone was missing. It was Isaac! Our house and lives are overflowing with chaos now, but I'm so incredibly grateful for it.</p><p>That being said, the fact that I sat down to start writing this at 2pm and already felt overwhelmed at the thought of transferring the day onto paper, probably means I need to give myself grace for the fact that, well, our days are a little much right now and even when I don't feel like I did anything, I also somehow never sat down and rested either. So... the first 8 months of three kids was just PURE chaos. It got pretty rough. Right at 8 months, Isaac's allergies had finally responded to the correct elimination diet and we did some daytime nap training, and two weeks later he started WALKING. </p><p>So while some of it got easier, other aspects of it got much crazier. However, at that point we did also get to start a homeschooling rhythm again during morning naps, and that has made a huge difference for me, Noah, and Rosie to have some predictability and stability again. Co-op and soccer also started right at that same time so it feels like we got whisked right out of newborn land and into 3-kid-chaos land.</p><p>No days are *exactly* the same, but our days definitely have a rhythm to them now, and nights are better (but not great). Our weeks have a rhythm, too: On Mondays, the big kids have co-op; on Tuesday and Thursday, Noah has soccer; on Wednesday, my parents often help in the afternoon and then Rosie has dance class; on Friday, we go to Moon Hollow for scones and coffee.</p><p>Last night, I got in bed at 10pm and Isaac woke up right after that. I nursed him and let him fall asleep in my bed because he'd had a really rough day and an allergen exposure. I finally fell asleep around 11pm, and he woke up at 12:45am. I nursed him and he wriggled around for a bit, so I finally put him in his crib at 1:15am. He slept there til 4:15am! Ross brought him to me and I nursed him and then Ross took him back. I thankfully fell asleep again until 7:30am. </p><p>When I got downstairs, Noah was awake watching Isaac in the playroom because Ross had a 7am work call he took in the basement. Ross left for the office after that call, around 8:15, right after Rosie woke up.</p><p>At that same time, I ate an oatmeal bar, adrenal cocktail, and breakfast sausages while simultaneously feeding everyone else and not sitting down. I made my coffee around 9am and sipped on it while taking Isaac up for his nap. He nursed and we rocked for a few minutes and sang "Skiddamarink-a-dink-a-dink" and I laid him down with his pacifier.</p><p>I went downstairs, finished my coffee, sent a work email, texted a client, and then started homeschool around 9:45. That was a mistake with Isaac's shorter naps lately, because he woke up shortly after 10 so it was a fairly abbreviated day in which we only covered poetry, math, handwriting, and history. We also usually do natural history and some math for Rosie, too. I can't believe our first term is almost over! Doing an abbreviated subject list, and the same one every day, has allowed for progress over perfection this term and it's made a world of difference.</p><p>So Isaac was up at 10:15 and we took another 15 minutes or so to wrap up our lessons and I finished folding the clean cloth diapers. Then enters one of the times of day where I don't even know WHAT I'm doing, but I'm constantly moving, getting interrupted, putting out fires, breaking up arguments... it's not my favorite. Today during this time, Isaac spilled my coffee (swiping at whatever he can reach on the table is his newest trick), I monitored/helped Noah and Rosie tidy up the office, I fed Isaac, made crackers, salami and liverwurst, and carrots for everyone's lunch, then ate my own lunch while standing and making Sunbutter caramel because the kids saw a picture of caramel apple slices and I'd been saying I was going to make them.</p><p>So the big kids decorated their apples while Isaac lost his mind, I whisked Isaac up for nap, and then went back down to tidy up the chaos in the dining room at 12:30pm. During that time, Rosie heard that Isaac wasn't asleep yet. Even though I told her not to, she ran upstairs to "rescue" Isaac from nap time. I brought him downstairs when it was clear he thought rest time was over and let him play while I finished cleaning up the lunch mess and texting my 1pm client.</p><p>Then I found Isaac happily playing in a poop-filled toilet. The toilet tank is finicky and it doesn't always flush, and a child had forgotten to lock the lid, so Isaac made a beeline for his favorite activity.</p><p>So I cleaned HIM up, texted my client I was running late after Mom and Dad texted that THEY were running late, got Isaac down just after 1pm, got to my computer, and saw my client got her time zones mixed up and couldn't meet for another two hours. SO.</p><p>I caught up on Voxer with my course co-creator, replied to Instagram messages, finally actually started this blog post, ate a handful of the (hopefully) allergen-free muddy buddies my mom brought over, and Isaac woke up right after 2pm. I took him downstairs, and came back up to finish my thoughts here. Then I sent two course-related emails.</p><p>At 2:30, I took a super quick walk in the sunshine before getting on my call at 3pm. Did a virtual prenatal consult from 3-4pm, visited with my parents briefly before they left, then started warming up dinner whilst eating more handfuls of midday buddies and feeding the kids snacks of muddy buddys and beef jerky and elderberry adrenal cocktails. *Sigh* the snack of champions. Kind of.</p><p>Dinner was mostly leftovers from last night, praise the Lord. I reheated the turkey loaf and boiled and mashed some potatoes with a bit of turkey bone broth. Rolled the mashed potatoes into little balls and served them to Isaac along with the meatloaf. He INHALED this dinner. Meanwhile, I realized I hadn't actually SAT DOWN to eat all day, so I sat briefly and ate with him, even though it was just barely 5pm. </p><p>Ross was stuck in major traffic on his commute home, and Rosie decided she felt too sick (just sort of sniffly) to go to dance and I didn't even argue.</p><p>Ross got home after 6, I made plates for the kids, and I went upstairs to hide. Spent about 20 minutes on Instagram, fed Isaac after Ross got him showered and ready for bed, and tucked him in. By that point it was a little after 7, and I spent another 30 minutes on Instagram.</p><p>Then I made some collagen hot chocolate and sipped it while pumping and watching Somebody Feed Phil on Netflix. This time last year, I was balancing my hot chocolate on my baby bump and I still really miss that sometimes.</p><p>After that, I wrapped up this blog post. It's currently 9:20 and I'm beyond ready for bed. It's almost comical how interrupted and disrupted and exhausting life is these days. It's crazy and I love it, but I want to take time to remember it and pay attention, too. Not just get through it. These kids are pretty special and I KNOW these are the golden days.</p><p>I'm going to go eat a small serving of soaked oatmeal (will bake the full batch in the morning, but I often sneak a small helping the night before), read some of my latest Jenny Colgan novel, take some Earthly sleep tincture, rub some magnesium lotion on my feet, and go to bed. I may or may not actually fall asleep before Isaac (likely) wakes up around 11. Although maybe not because he was so uncomfortable today, he had Zyrtec at lunch and Advil at dinner, which is super rare.</p><p>Whew!</p>Theresehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04794387209137253119noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4859205836091447938.post-38697969725255355972022-09-29T14:53:00.001-05:002022-10-12T14:54:09.805-05:00Milk and Motherhood: September 2022<p> </p><h1 data-key="9"><span data-key="10">What I'm learning</span></h1><p data-key="11"><span data-key="12">As I continue to process my third birth, I'm learning that while I don't want to idolize, or even idealize, birth and postpartum, how you integrate those expereinces matters a lot. I recently got to share all my birth stories and my recovery thus far with this one on the </span><a class="email-link" data-key="13" href="https://www.myhappyhomebirth.com/episode-193/"><span data-key="14">Happy Homebirth podcast</span></a><span data-key="15">. If you listen, let me know if you found it helpful! I refused to accept that Zoloft was the only answer for my PP struggles and I'm so grateful I've found other ways of creating safety in my body so I can finally feel safe digging into the actual story.</span></p><h1 data-key="16"><span data-key="17">What I'm reading</span></h1><p data-key="18"><span data-key="19">In fiction, my hold on Abby Jimenez's new book </span><a class="email-link" data-key="20" href="https://www.amazon.com/s?k=part+of+your+world&crid=3JWYPC1R6RLGD&sprefix=part+of+your+world%2Caps%2C211&ref=nb_sb_noss_1"><span data-key="21">Part of Your World</span></a><span data-key="22"> became available, so I sped through it. Her stories are maybe a little predictable, but she's such a good writer that they never feed reductive or boring. 4/5 recommend!</span></p><p data-key="23"><span data-key="24">In non-fiction, I just started reading </span><a class="email-link" data-key="25" href="https://www.amazon.com/Even-Better-than-Eden-Everything/dp/1433561255/ref=sr_1_1?crid=3JVKRXKOFENMP&keywords=even+better+than+eden&qid=1664211234&sprefix=even+better+than+eden%2Caps%2C101&sr=8-1"><span data-key="26">Even Better Than Eden</span></a><span data-key="27"> with some women at church. It's been on my unread shelf for years, so I'm excited to dive in!</span></p><h1 data-key="28"><span data-key="29">What I'm listening to</span></h1><p data-key="30"><span data-key="31">As I adjust to live with 3 kids, I once again find myself having to adjust my expectations as to how easy I thought this transition would be and how hard I've been on myself when it's... hard. </span><a class="email-link" data-key="32" href="https://www.risenmotherhood.com/show-archive/ep-63-jen-wilkin-growing-in-gods-word-as-a-mom-of-little-ones"><span data-key="33">This podcast interview</span></a><span data-key="34"> on Risen Motherhood with Jen Wilkin was such an encouragement to me a few years ago, I recently went back and looked it up to listen again. I also just started diving into Phylicia Masonheimer's podcast. I always found her borderline annoying (sorry) on Instagram, but her podcast is a WEALTH of knowledge. I loved seeing an episode on </span><a class="email-link" data-key="35" href="https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/womens-issues-breastfeeding/id1495210734?i=1000493863094"><span data-key="36">Breastfeeding</span></a><span data-key="37">, among all of her wonderful theological discussions.</span></p><h1 data-key="38"><span data-key="39">What I'm cooking</span></h1><p data-key="40"><span data-key="41">I just made The Soup from Seed of Joy's </span><a class="email-link" data-key="42" href="https://www.theseedofjoy.com/?ref=pTWrBfh0"><span data-key="43">postpartum cookbook</span></a><span data-key="44"> (15% off with code HAPPYMAMA15). It's a great change from the few soups I have in my regular rotation. I've also been re-making all of the recipes in our postpartum cookbook that comes with the course (OR in a separate bundle for those who don't need a breastfeeding course these days).</span></p><h1 data-key="45"><span data-key="46">What I'm feeding my kids</span></h1><p data-key="47"><span data-key="48">Fall weather has finally (somewhat) arrived, and my daughter asked for hot choclate the other day. I love adding collagen to our hot choclate for a little extra staying power, and my kids don't notice the difference. We use </span><a class="email-link" data-key="49" href="http://www.perfectsupplements.com/?Click=62d17b435141e"><span data-key="50">Perfect Supplements</span></a><span data-key="51"> collagen (and gelatin for homemade marshmallows) because it's grassfed and tested for pesicides and heavy metals. You can use code HAPPYMAMA10 for 10% off, and if you purchase 3 brand-name supplements at once, you get an additional 20% off. I also love their acerola powder, mushroom immunity powder, and beef liver powder for sneaking into my kids' food!</span></p>Theresehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04794387209137253119noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4859205836091447938.post-70540247433166071262022-08-19T10:58:00.001-05:002022-09-24T10:59:36.440-05:00Milk and Motherhood: August 2022<p> </p><h1 style="background-color: #f8f8f8; color: #52324a; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-weight: normal; line-height: 1.5; margin: 0px;">What I'm learning</h1><p style="background-color: #f8f8f8; color: #544a51; font-family: -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, "Segoe UI", Roboto, Oxygen-Sans, Ubuntu, Cantarell, "Helvetica Neue", sans-serif; font-size: 16px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">My friend Cortney (@growwiththe.flow) and I have been creating a virtual breastfeeding course together for the past year. We are in the intense final stages of putting everything together, and I feel like I'm re-learning so many things from my initial IBCLC studies. I'm really enjoying hashing it all out and piecing it together. It's also been a bit of a corrective emotional experience as I create the course I wish I'd taken 9 years ago before I had my first baby. I can't wait for you to see it! Make sure you're also following me on Instagram for the latest updates and sneak peaks (@happy.mama.healthy.baby)</p><h1 style="background-color: #f8f8f8; color: #52324a; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-weight: normal; line-height: 1.5; margin: 0px;">What I'm reading</h1><p style="background-color: #f8f8f8; color: #544a51; font-family: -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, "Segoe UI", Roboto, Oxygen-Sans, Ubuntu, Cantarell, "Helvetica Neue", sans-serif; font-size: 16px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">In fiction, I recently stumbled upon Jenny Colgan's novels and I feel like I struck gold. They're mostly uncomplicated, long without being boring, and more interesting than the average chick lit book without being intellectually intensive (have I mentioned that I'm sleep-deprived?) If this sounds appealing to you, <a data-saferedirecturl="https://www.google.com/url?q=https://click.convertkit-mail2.com/75u2lv23w2h8hk63m3gcz/g3hnh5he5q555dar/aHR0cHM6Ly93d3cuYW1hem9uLmNvbS9Cb29rc2hvcC1Db3JuZXItTm92ZWwtSmVubnktQ29sZ2FuLWVib29rL2RwL0IwMTlXVlRNNFcvcmVmPXNyXzFfMT9jcmlkPTM4TFlXTkU3TU1LRTIma2V5d29yZHM9bGl0dGxlK2Jvb2tzaG9wK29uK3RoZStjb3JuZXImcWlkPTE2NjA5MTM0MjImc3ByZWZpeD1saXR0bGUrYm9va3Nob3Arb24rdGhlK2Nvcm5lciUyQ2FwcyUyQzExMiZzcj04LTE%3D&source=gmail&ust=1664120697126000&usg=AOvVaw0jLYcu9VDOej39MWJE-B7N" href="https://click.convertkit-mail2.com/75u2lv23w2h8hk63m3gcz/g3hnh5he5q555dar/aHR0cHM6Ly93d3cuYW1hem9uLmNvbS9Cb29rc2hvcC1Db3JuZXItTm92ZWwtSmVubnktQ29sZ2FuLWVib29rL2RwL0IwMTlXVlRNNFcvcmVmPXNyXzFfMT9jcmlkPTM4TFlXTkU3TU1LRTIma2V5d29yZHM9bGl0dGxlK2Jvb2tzaG9wK29uK3RoZStjb3JuZXImcWlkPTE2NjA5MTM0MjImc3ByZWZpeD1saXR0bGUrYm9va3Nob3Arb24rdGhlK2Nvcm5lciUyQ2FwcyUyQzExMiZzcj04LTE=" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="color: #936883;" target="_blank">The Bookshop on the Corner</a> is a cozy place to start. </p><p style="background-color: #f8f8f8; color: #544a51; font-family: -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, "Segoe UI", Roboto, Oxygen-Sans, Ubuntu, Cantarell, "Helvetica Neue", sans-serif; font-size: 16px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">In non-fiction, I just started reading <a data-saferedirecturl="https://www.google.com/url?q=https://click.convertkit-mail2.com/75u2lv23w2h8hk63m3gcz/9qhzhnhgm5mmm6h9/aHR0cHM6Ly93d3cuYW1hem9uLmNvbS9UcmlnZ2Vycy1FeGNoYW5naW5nLVJlYWN0aW9ucy1CaWJsaWNhbC1SZXNwb25zZXMvZHAvMDY5MjYyMDc1My9yZWY9c3JfMV8xP2NyaWQ9MUZENFpPRFRaR0UzMyZrZXl3b3Jkcz10cmlnZ2VycytleGNoYW5naW5nK3BhcmVudHMrYW5ncnkrcmVhY3Rpb25zK2ZvcitnZW50bGUrYmlibGljYWwmcWlkPTE2NjA5MTM2MDQmc3ByZWZpeD10cmlnZ2VycyUyQ2FwcyUyQzExOSZzcj04LTE%3D&source=gmail&ust=1664120697127000&usg=AOvVaw2VgQ96rPI1o4S_1xYXjLCT" href="https://click.convertkit-mail2.com/75u2lv23w2h8hk63m3gcz/9qhzhnhgm5mmm6h9/aHR0cHM6Ly93d3cuYW1hem9uLmNvbS9UcmlnZ2Vycy1FeGNoYW5naW5nLVJlYWN0aW9ucy1CaWJsaWNhbC1SZXNwb25zZXMvZHAvMDY5MjYyMDc1My9yZWY9c3JfMV8xP2NyaWQ9MUZENFpPRFRaR0UzMyZrZXl3b3Jkcz10cmlnZ2VycytleGNoYW5naW5nK3BhcmVudHMrYW5ncnkrcmVhY3Rpb25zK2ZvcitnZW50bGUrYmlibGljYWwmcWlkPTE2NjA5MTM2MDQmc3ByZWZpeD10cmlnZ2VycyUyQ2FwcyUyQzExOSZzcj04LTE=" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="color: #936883;" target="_blank">Triggers</a> by Amber Lia and Wendy Speake. Outward anger is not my first response, so when I start snapping at my kids day after day, I know I've not been in a great place for a while. This book is particularly helpful because it's arranged like a daily devotional with one chapter a day. Perdect for its intended overwhelmed-mom audience!</p><h1 style="background-color: #f8f8f8; color: #52324a; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-weight: normal; line-height: 1.5; margin: 0px;">What I'm listening to</h1><p style="background-color: #f8f8f8; color: #544a51; font-family: -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, "Segoe UI", Roboto, Oxygen-Sans, Ubuntu, Cantarell, "Helvetica Neue", sans-serif; font-size: 16px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">I have been toggling back and forth between homeschool podcasts, since we started up again this week, and health and birth podcasts, becuase I love them.</p><p style="background-color: #f8f8f8; color: #544a51; font-family: -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, "Segoe UI", Roboto, Oxygen-Sans, Ubuntu, Cantarell, "Helvetica Neue", sans-serif; font-size: 16px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">My favorite homeschool episodes lately are the ones that encourage me that I'm not ruining my older kids' education by throwing a baby in the mix! Read Alout Revival recently hosted an interview with her oldest daughter about <a data-saferedirecturl="https://www.google.com/url?q=https://click.convertkit-mail2.com/75u2lv23w2h8hk63m3gcz/3ohphkhqlplllrar/aHR0cHM6Ly9yZWFkYWxvdWRyZXZpdmFsLmNvbS8yMDkv&source=gmail&ust=1664120697127000&usg=AOvVaw3HbIW_2yE2KChvY-0qVRkT" href="https://click.convertkit-mail2.com/75u2lv23w2h8hk63m3gcz/3ohphkhqlplllrar/aHR0cHM6Ly9yZWFkYWxvdWRyZXZpdmFsLmNvbS8yMDkv" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="color: #936883;" target="_blank">what worked and what didn't</a>, and it was so great to hear. Last spring, The New Mason Jar podcast had an episode titled <a data-saferedirecturl="https://www.google.com/url?q=https://click.convertkit-mail2.com/75u2lv23w2h8hk63m3gcz/n2hohvhnp7ppp5s6/aHR0cHM6Ly9wb2RjYXN0cy5hcHBsZS5jb20vbnovcG9kY2FzdC9ob3dldmVyLWltcGVyZmVjdGx5LXdpdGgtZG9ubmEtamVhbi1icmVja2VucmlkZ2UvaWQxNTc5MTcwMTkyP2k9MTAwMDU0Nzc1MjAyMg%3D%3D&source=gmail&ust=1664120697127000&usg=AOvVaw3VRlsN67hV9QiAaApGcYfB" href="https://click.convertkit-mail2.com/75u2lv23w2h8hk63m3gcz/n2hohvhnp7ppp5s6/aHR0cHM6Ly9wb2RjYXN0cy5hcHBsZS5jb20vbnovcG9kY2FzdC9ob3dldmVyLWltcGVyZmVjdGx5LXdpdGgtZG9ubmEtamVhbi1icmVja2VucmlkZ2UvaWQxNTc5MTcwMTkyP2k9MTAwMDU0Nzc1MjAyMg==" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="color: #936883;" target="_blank">"However Imperfectly,"</a> that I finaly listened to and enjoyed as well.</p><p style="background-color: #f8f8f8; color: #544a51; font-family: -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, "Segoe UI", Roboto, Oxygen-Sans, Ubuntu, Cantarell, "Helvetica Neue", sans-serif; font-size: 16px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">Happy Homebirth podcast recently had 2 episodes I found so helpful in my own journey of recovering from the expereinces I had with my third postpartum: <a data-saferedirecturl="https://www.google.com/url?q=https://click.convertkit-mail2.com/75u2lv23w2h8hk63m3gcz/48hvheh0exeeenix/aHR0cHM6Ly9wb2RjYXN0cy5hcHBsZS5jb20vdXMvcG9kY2FzdC9lcC0xODYtcmVjb2duaXppbmctYmlydGgtdHJhdW1hLXdpdGgtY2hyaXN0aWUtc2hlZmZlci1jcG0vaWQxNDQ2OTM0NTM3P2k9MTAwMDU3MTA1MjQ4MQ%3D%3D&source=gmail&ust=1664120697127000&usg=AOvVaw0gDw3xOhEKt3JApl-ahCfl" href="https://click.convertkit-mail2.com/75u2lv23w2h8hk63m3gcz/48hvheh0exeeenix/aHR0cHM6Ly9wb2RjYXN0cy5hcHBsZS5jb20vdXMvcG9kY2FzdC9lcC0xODYtcmVjb2duaXppbmctYmlydGgtdHJhdW1hLXdpdGgtY2hyaXN0aWUtc2hlZmZlci1jcG0vaWQxNDQ2OTM0NTM3P2k9MTAwMDU3MTA1MjQ4MQ==" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="color: #936883;" target="_blank">Recognizing Brith Trauma with Christie Sheffer</a> and <a data-saferedirecturl="https://www.google.com/url?q=https://click.convertkit-mail2.com/75u2lv23w2h8hk63m3gcz/48hvheh0exeeenix/aHR0cHM6Ly9wb2RjYXN0cy5hcHBsZS5jb20vdXMvcG9kY2FzdC9lcC0xODYtcmVjb2duaXppbmctYmlydGgtdHJhdW1hLXdpdGgtY2hyaXN0aWUtc2hlZmZlci1jcG0vaWQxNDQ2OTM0NTM3P2k9MTAwMDU3MTA1MjQ4MQ%3D%3D&source=gmail&ust=1664120697127000&usg=AOvVaw0gDw3xOhEKt3JApl-ahCfl" href="https://click.convertkit-mail2.com/75u2lv23w2h8hk63m3gcz/48hvheh0exeeenix/aHR0cHM6Ly9wb2RjYXN0cy5hcHBsZS5jb20vdXMvcG9kY2FzdC9lcC0xODYtcmVjb2duaXppbmctYmlydGgtdHJhdW1hLXdpdGgtY2hyaXN0aWUtc2hlZmZlci1jcG0vaWQxNDQ2OTM0NTM3P2k9MTAwMDU3MTA1MjQ4MQ==" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="color: #936883;" target="_blank">Healing the Nervous System with Theresa Piela</a>. </p><p style="background-color: #f8f8f8; color: #544a51; font-family: -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, "Segoe UI", Roboto, Oxygen-Sans, Ubuntu, Cantarell, "Helvetica Neue", sans-serif; font-size: 16px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">Finally, I started listening to <a data-saferedirecturl="https://www.google.com/url?q=https://click.convertkit-mail2.com/75u2lv23w2h8hk63m3gcz/reh8hohqr6rrrqi2/aHR0cHM6Ly9wb2RjYXN0cy5hcHBsZS5jb20vdXMvcG9kY2FzdC9zdHJlc3MtdHJhdW1hLWR1cmluZy1wcmVnbmFuY3ktaW4tcGFyZW50aG9vZC1hbi9pZDE1NDU5ODk5MDE_aT0xMDAwNTM4MjAyNjYz&source=gmail&ust=1664120697127000&usg=AOvVaw1rCBGYKBRosvkfFbkiO1oS" href="https://click.convertkit-mail2.com/75u2lv23w2h8hk63m3gcz/reh8hohqr6rrrqi2/aHR0cHM6Ly9wb2RjYXN0cy5hcHBsZS5jb20vdXMvcG9kY2FzdC9zdHJlc3MtdHJhdW1hLWR1cmluZy1wcmVnbmFuY3ktaW4tcGFyZW50aG9vZC1hbi9pZDE1NDU5ODk5MDE_aT0xMDAwNTM4MjAyNjYz" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="color: #936883;" target="_blank">Stress & Trauma During Pregnancy & in Parenthood</a> on the Let's Sleep on It podcast yesterday, and it was so good I had to pause to finish listening when I wasn't driving and could take notes!</p><h1 style="background-color: #f8f8f8; color: #52324a; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-weight: normal; line-height: 1.5; margin: 0px;">What I'm cooking</h1><p style="background-color: #f8f8f8; color: #544a51; font-family: -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, "Segoe UI", Roboto, Oxygen-Sans, Ubuntu, Cantarell, "Helvetica Neue", sans-serif; font-size: 16px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">I'm in a rut, and dinnertime has been pretty overwhelming to me. When that happens, I get out my Cassy Joy Garcia <a data-saferedirecturl="https://www.google.com/url?q=https://click.convertkit-mail2.com/75u2lv23w2h8hk63m3gcz/08hwh9hm5l555dbl/aHR0cHM6Ly93d3cuYW1hem9uLmNvbS9Db29rLU9uY2UtRWF0LUFsbC1XZWVrL2RwLzE2Mjg2MDM0MzcvcmVmPXNyXzFfMT9rZXl3b3Jkcz1jb29rK29uY2UrZWF0K2FsbCt3ZWVrJnFpZD0xNjYwOTE0NzkzJnM9YW1hem9uLWRldmljZXMmc3I9MS0x&source=gmail&ust=1664120697127000&usg=AOvVaw03l-2hcIrLAxiD8MyYxpth" href="https://click.convertkit-mail2.com/75u2lv23w2h8hk63m3gcz/08hwh9hm5l555dbl/aHR0cHM6Ly93d3cuYW1hem9uLmNvbS9Db29rLU9uY2UtRWF0LUFsbC1XZWVrL2RwLzE2Mjg2MDM0MzcvcmVmPXNyXzFfMT9rZXl3b3Jkcz1jb29rK29uY2UrZWF0K2FsbCt3ZWVrJnFpZD0xNjYwOTE0NzkzJnM9YW1hem9uLWRldmljZXMmc3I9MS0x" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="color: #936883;" target="_blank">Cook Once</a> cookbooks for inspiration! However, I am quite proud of myself for finally making a gluten-free sourdough starter that works. It's been two months now, and I'm making a weekly loaf of bread. <a data-saferedirecturl="https://www.google.com/url?q=https://click.convertkit-mail2.com/75u2lv23w2h8hk63m3gcz/vqh3hrhn7w777efg/aHR0cHM6Ly93d3cuYmFrZXJpdGEuY29tL2dsdXRlbi1mcmVlLXNvdXJkb3VnaC1icmVhZC8%3D&source=gmail&ust=1664120697127000&usg=AOvVaw10CYh3zZAkA7odB1Uwa7hL" href="https://click.convertkit-mail2.com/75u2lv23w2h8hk63m3gcz/vqh3hrhn7w777efg/aHR0cHM6Ly93d3cuYmFrZXJpdGEuY29tL2dsdXRlbi1mcmVlLXNvdXJkb3VnaC1icmVhZC8=" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="color: #936883;" target="_blank">The bread recipe</a> itself isn't my favorite (not as soft as I'd like) but it's a great starting point!</p><h1 style="background-color: #f8f8f8; color: #52324a; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-weight: normal; line-height: 1.5; margin: 0px;">What I'm feeding my kids</h1><p style="background-color: #f8f8f8; color: #544a51; font-family: -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, "Segoe UI", Roboto, Oxygen-Sans, Ubuntu, Cantarell, "Helvetica Neue", sans-serif; font-size: 16px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">The baby has some food allergies that have been challenging, both physically and emotionally. I make most of his food, but Serenity Kids has pouches and puffs with really great ingredients that I love having on hand as well.</p>Theresehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04794387209137253119noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4859205836091447938.post-70901967168240575762022-07-05T10:55:00.001-05:002022-09-24T10:58:31.680-05:00Milk and Motherhood: July 2022<p> For better or for worse, I've been working really hard on an online breastfeeding course with my friend Cortney this summer. Part of building interest has been starting a newsletter, and writing it reminds me of some of my old blog posts, so I thought I'd share them here, too, for the sake of remembering. Here's my first Milk and Motherhood Missive!</p><p><br /></p><div style="background-color: #f8f8f8; caret-color: rgb(34, 34, 34); color: #222222; font-family: "Google Sans", Roboto, RobotoDraft, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif;"><h1 style="color: #52324a; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-weight: normal; line-height: 1.5; margin: 0px;">What I'm learning</h1><p style="color: #544a51; font-family: -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, "Segoe UI", Roboto, Oxygen-Sans, Ubuntu, Cantarell, "Helvetica Neue", sans-serif; font-size: 16px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">Lily Nichols, author of Real Food for Pregnancy, often shares this comment she received from a farmer after she posted a postpartum meal plan from a major conventional dietetics group: <em>"This is insane. Looks like a diet plan to lose weight, not one to support lactation and postpartum recovery. We farm and ranch. My sheep and cows need much greater feed after calving/lambing. Nutritional needs can nearly double for some ewes." </em></p><p style="color: #544a51; font-family: -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, "Segoe UI", Roboto, Oxygen-Sans, Ubuntu, Cantarell, "Helvetica Neue", sans-serif; font-size: 16px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">I've long been a proponent of encouraging postpartum moms, breastfeeding or not, to opt out of the postpartum "bounce-back" culture and fuel for the marathon that is motherhood. However, the third time I stumbled across this quote, I started wondering what we DO know about dairy cows, in particular. Hence the podcast deep dive I'll share below.</p><h1 style="color: #52324a; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-weight: normal; line-height: 1.5; margin: 0px;">What I'm reading</h1><p style="color: #544a51; font-family: -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, "Segoe UI", Roboto, Oxygen-Sans, Ubuntu, Cantarell, "Helvetica Neue", sans-serif; font-size: 16px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">The nights are long around here, and I've been reading novels on my Kindle at a breakneck speed instead of scrolling my phone in the dark. My middle-of-the-night reads need to be trigger-free and uncomplicated for me right now, so favorite novel recently was <a data-saferedirecturl="https://www.google.com/url?q=https://click.convertkit-mail2.com/68u64z63w6a8hkkro5puo/25h2hoh7wwv883i3/aHR0cHM6Ly93d3cuYW1hem9uLmNvbS9Ub2RheS1Ub25pZ2h0LVRvbW9ycm93LVJhY2hlbC1Tb2xvbW9uL2RwLzE1MzQ0NDAyNTkvcmVmPXNyXzFfMT9jcmlkPTJGVU40NTNFVzdBVDEma2V5d29yZHM9dG9kYXkrdG9uaWdodCt0b21vcnJvdyZxaWQ9MTY1NDY0NTQzNyZzcHJlZml4PXRvZGF5K3RvbmlnaHQrdG9tb3Jyb3clMkNhcHMlMkMxNzEmc3I9OC0x&source=gmail&ust=1664120701960000&usg=AOvVaw0P3rJZf6jbqz4be6J5wcQe" href="https://click.convertkit-mail2.com/68u64z63w6a8hkkro5puo/25h2hoh7wwv883i3/aHR0cHM6Ly93d3cuYW1hem9uLmNvbS9Ub2RheS1Ub25pZ2h0LVRvbW9ycm93LVJhY2hlbC1Tb2xvbW9uL2RwLzE1MzQ0NDAyNTkvcmVmPXNyXzFfMT9jcmlkPTJGVU40NTNFVzdBVDEma2V5d29yZHM9dG9kYXkrdG9uaWdodCt0b21vcnJvdyZxaWQ9MTY1NDY0NTQzNyZzcHJlZml4PXRvZGF5K3RvbmlnaHQrdG9tb3Jyb3clMkNhcHMlMkMxNzEmc3I9OC0x" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="color: #936883;" target="_blank">Today Tonight Tomorrow </a>by Rachel Lynn Solomon. It was a sweet story of high school seniors going from frenemies to realizing their strong feelings might actually be of a more tender variety. Simple without being boring, scary, and or heavy. Just what I need these days.</p><p style="color: #544a51; font-family: -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, "Segoe UI", Roboto, Oxygen-Sans, Ubuntu, Cantarell, "Helvetica Neue", sans-serif; font-size: 16px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">In non-fiction, I recently dug out my copy of <a data-saferedirecturl="https://www.google.com/url?q=https://click.convertkit-mail2.com/68u64z63w6a8hkkro5puo/g3hnh5hewwdllpar/aHR0cHM6Ly93d3cuYW1hem9uLmNvbS9Ob3VyaXNoaW5nLVRyYWRpdGlvbnMtQ2hhbGxlbmdlcy1Qb2xpdGljYWxseS1EaWN0b2NyYXRzL2RwLzA5NjcwODk3MzUvcmVmPXNyXzFfMT9jcmlkPTM3RlpDM0U1MFlUQlUma2V5d29yZHM9bm91cmlzaGluZyt0cmFkaXRpb25zK2J5K3NhbGx5K2ZhbGxvbiZxaWQ9MTY1NDY0NTU0MCZzcHJlZml4PW5vdXJpc2hpbmcrdHJhZGl0aW9ucyslMkNhcHMlMkM5OCZzcj04LTE%3D&source=gmail&ust=1664120701960000&usg=AOvVaw1Dm7bsECB4ar2blBb6tmkh" href="https://click.convertkit-mail2.com/68u64z63w6a8hkkro5puo/g3hnh5hewwdllpar/aHR0cHM6Ly93d3cuYW1hem9uLmNvbS9Ob3VyaXNoaW5nLVRyYWRpdGlvbnMtQ2hhbGxlbmdlcy1Qb2xpdGljYWxseS1EaWN0b2NyYXRzL2RwLzA5NjcwODk3MzUvcmVmPXNyXzFfMT9jcmlkPTM3RlpDM0U1MFlUQlUma2V5d29yZHM9bm91cmlzaGluZyt0cmFkaXRpb25zK2J5K3NhbGx5K2ZhbGxvbiZxaWQ9MTY1NDY0NTU0MCZzcHJlZml4PW5vdXJpc2hpbmcrdHJhZGl0aW9ucyslMkNhcHMlMkM5OCZzcj04LTE=" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="color: #936883;" target="_blank">Nourishing Traditions</a> by Sally Fallon. It's a bit more political than I need it to be, but it's a complete treasure trove of wisdom, knowledge, and nutrient-dense recipes.</p><h1 style="color: #52324a; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-weight: normal; line-height: 1.5; margin: 0px;">What I'm listening to</h1><p style="color: #544a51; font-family: -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, "Segoe UI", Roboto, Oxygen-Sans, Ubuntu, Cantarell, "Helvetica Neue", sans-serif; font-size: 16px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">I was out of the podcast loop for a while there, but I feel like I'm finally able to listen again when I'm driving or weeding the garden. As I mentioned above, I've done a deep dive into episodes on dairy cows and raw milk. </p><p style="color: #544a51; font-family: -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, "Segoe UI", Roboto, Oxygen-Sans, Ubuntu, Cantarell, "Helvetica Neue", sans-serif; font-size: 16px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">I loved listening to Mark McAfee talk about milk on the <a data-saferedirecturl="https://www.google.com/url?q=https://click.convertkit-mail2.com/68u64z63w6a8hkkro5puo/9qhzhnhgrrq66nu9/aHR0cHM6Ly9wb2RjYXN0cy5hcHBsZS5jb20vdXMvcG9kY2FzdC93aXNlLXRyYWRpdGlvbnMvaWQxMDcyNjE4MDQyP2k9MTAwMDQxOTQ0Nzc4MQ%3D%3D&source=gmail&ust=1664120701960000&usg=AOvVaw1Xctk4cquzBg2ck2qcc2m1" href="https://click.convertkit-mail2.com/68u64z63w6a8hkkro5puo/9qhzhnhgrrq66nu9/aHR0cHM6Ly9wb2RjYXN0cy5hcHBsZS5jb20vdXMvcG9kY2FzdC93aXNlLXRyYWRpdGlvbnMvaWQxMDcyNjE4MDQyP2k9MTAwMDQxOTQ0Nzc4MQ==" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="color: #936883;" target="_blank">Wise Traditions podcast</a> because he always brought it back to breastmilk: the original raw milk. And then he discussed all the cool things like enzymes and antibodies that are in any milk that hasn't been pasteurized and homogenized. His interview on<a data-saferedirecturl="https://www.google.com/url?q=https://click.convertkit-mail2.com/68u64z63w6a8hkkro5puo/3ohphkhqggo22xur/aHR0cHM6Ly9wb2RjYXN0cy5hcHBsZS5jb20vdXMvcG9kY2FzdC9mZXJ0aWxpdHktZnJpZGF5LXJhZGlvLWZlcnRpbGl0eS1hd2FyZW5lc3MtZm9yLXByZWduYW5jeS9pZDk1MzM3MTA5MT9pPTEwMDA1MDUzOTk1MjQ%3D&source=gmail&ust=1664120701960000&usg=AOvVaw3ly78IdNT8telw-Xk5oWxT" href="https://click.convertkit-mail2.com/68u64z63w6a8hkkro5puo/3ohphkhqggo22xur/aHR0cHM6Ly9wb2RjYXN0cy5hcHBsZS5jb20vdXMvcG9kY2FzdC9mZXJ0aWxpdHktZnJpZGF5LXJhZGlvLWZlcnRpbGl0eS1hd2FyZW5lc3MtZm9yLXByZWduYW5jeS9pZDk1MzM3MTA5MT9pPTEwMDA1MDUzOTk1MjQ=" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="color: #936883;" target="_blank"> Fertility Friday</a>is great, too.</p><p style="color: #544a51; font-family: -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, "Segoe UI", Roboto, Oxygen-Sans, Ubuntu, Cantarell, "Helvetica Neue", sans-serif; font-size: 16px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">Finally, <a data-saferedirecturl="https://www.google.com/url?q=https://click.convertkit-mail2.com/68u64z63w6a8hkkro5puo/n2hohvhn008xxms6/aHR0cHM6Ly9wb2RjYXN0cy5hcHBsZS5jb20vdXMvcG9kY2FzdC9kYWlyeS1jb3ctMTAxLWV2ZXJ5dGhpbmcteW91LW5lZWQtdG8ta25vdy9pZDY3NzU0MjkxMz9pPTEwMDA1NjA5MjY1MTM%3D&source=gmail&ust=1664120701960000&usg=AOvVaw16KmF6gngIgy22p6XkP243" href="https://click.convertkit-mail2.com/68u64z63w6a8hkkro5puo/n2hohvhn008xxms6/aHR0cHM6Ly9wb2RjYXN0cy5hcHBsZS5jb20vdXMvcG9kY2FzdC9kYWlyeS1jb3ctMTAxLWV2ZXJ5dGhpbmcteW91LW5lZWQtdG8ta25vdy9pZDY3NzU0MjkxMz9pPTEwMDA1NjA5MjY1MTM=" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="color: #936883;" target="_blank">this conversation</a> about dairy cows taught me a few things about cream composition. And I learned that cows make more milk when they eat oats, too!</p><h1 style="color: #52324a; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-weight: normal; line-height: 1.5; margin: 0px;">What I'm cooking</h1><p style="color: #544a51; font-family: -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, "Segoe UI", Roboto, Oxygen-Sans, Ubuntu, Cantarell, "Helvetica Neue", sans-serif; font-size: 16px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;"><a data-saferedirecturl="https://www.google.com/url?q=https://click.convertkit-mail2.com/68u64z63w6a8hkkro5puo/reh8hohqzz233rc2/aHR0cHM6Ly93d3cuZm9vZG5ldHdvcmsuY29tL3JlY2lwZXMvaW5hLWdhcnRlbi9wZXJmZWN0LXJvYXN0LWNoaWNrZW4tcmVjaXBlLTE5NDA1OTI%3D&source=gmail&ust=1664120701960000&usg=AOvVaw3RrSLa6dz5mAr6KNJU4_jy" href="https://click.convertkit-mail2.com/68u64z63w6a8hkkro5puo/reh8hohqzz233rc2/aHR0cHM6Ly93d3cuZm9vZG5ldHdvcmsuY29tL3JlY2lwZXMvaW5hLWdhcnRlbi9wZXJmZWN0LXJvYXN0LWNoaWNrZW4tcmVjaXBlLTE5NDA1OTI=" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="color: #936883;" target="_blank">Ina Garten's roast chicken</a> is always a hit around here. Tonight I made it with <a data-saferedirecturl="https://www.google.com/url?q=https://click.convertkit-mail2.com/68u64z63w6a8hkkro5puo/08hwh9hmrro996fl/aHR0cHM6Ly90aHJpdmVtYXJrZXQuY29tL3AvYS1kb3plbi1jb3VzaW5zLWphbWFpY2FuLWplcmstZW50cmVlLXNlYXNvbmluZy1zYXVjZT91dG1fc291cmNlPWdvb2dsZSZ1dG1fbWVkaXVtPXBsYV9zbWFydCZ1dG1fY2FtcGFpZ249U2hvcHBpbmdfRW5nYWdlbWVudF9TbWFydF9NZW1iZXJzJnV0bV9jb250ZW50PTgxMjQ0NjAzMDQ3OSZ1dG1fdGVybT1uYSZnY2xpZD1DandLQ0Fqdzd2dVVCaEJVRWl3QUVkdTJwQlhyU1A0eW1MVjNlTHpnUWxzNWFsV3JBTmNGWkVqLXVhQU1kZ3dXMlpUYkFzcXpfWlhhQnhvQ2hGZ1FBdkRfQndF&source=gmail&ust=1664120701960000&usg=AOvVaw3yEZ6juJIfBDbHGFUQzKXH" href="https://click.convertkit-mail2.com/68u64z63w6a8hkkro5puo/08hwh9hmrro996fl/aHR0cHM6Ly90aHJpdmVtYXJrZXQuY29tL3AvYS1kb3plbi1jb3VzaW5zLWphbWFpY2FuLWplcmstZW50cmVlLXNlYXNvbmluZy1zYXVjZT91dG1fc291cmNlPWdvb2dsZSZ1dG1fbWVkaXVtPXBsYV9zbWFydCZ1dG1fY2FtcGFpZ249U2hvcHBpbmdfRW5nYWdlbWVudF9TbWFydF9NZW1iZXJzJnV0bV9jb250ZW50PTgxMjQ0NjAzMDQ3OSZ1dG1fdGVybT1uYSZnY2xpZD1DandLQ0Fqdzd2dVVCaEJVRWl3QUVkdTJwQlhyU1A0eW1MVjNlTHpnUWxzNWFsV3JBTmNGWkVqLXVhQU1kZ3dXMlpUYkFzcXpfWlhhQnhvQ2hGZ1FBdkRfQndF" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="color: #936883;" target="_blank">A Dozen Cousins Jamaican Jerk Seasoning </a>sauce instead of the usual butter and herbs, and it was a phenomenal change of flavors!</p><h1 style="color: #52324a; font-family: Georgia, Times, "Times New Roman", serif; font-weight: normal; line-height: 1.5; margin: 0px;">What I'm feeding my kids</h1><p style="color: #544a51; font-family: -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, "Segoe UI", Roboto, Oxygen-Sans, Ubuntu, Cantarell, "Helvetica Neue", sans-serif; font-size: 16px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;">My older kids have pretty much been dairy-free their entire lives, aside from breastfeeding for 2+ years. But we've been transitioning them to raw milk and cheese over the past year and they're doing really well. Their very favorite way to get raw milk is via homemade ice cream, so <a data-saferedirecturl="https://www.google.com/url?q=https://click.convertkit-mail2.com/68u64z63w6a8hkkro5puo/8ghqhohgnn022mbk/aHR0cHM6Ly93d3cud2VzdG9uYXByaWNlLm9yZy92YW5pbGxhLWljZS1jcmVhbS8%3D&source=gmail&ust=1664120701960000&usg=AOvVaw3qPFb_eFK-42iOV0RhVhME" href="https://click.convertkit-mail2.com/68u64z63w6a8hkkro5puo/8ghqhohgnn022mbk/aHR0cHM6Ly93d3cud2VzdG9uYXByaWNlLm9yZy92YW5pbGxhLWljZS1jcmVhbS8=" rel="noopener noreferrer" style="color: #936883;" target="_blank">this recipe</a> is on repeat.</p></div><div style="background-color: #f8f8f8; caret-color: rgb(34, 34, 34); color: #222222; font-family: "Google Sans", Roboto, RobotoDraft, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; padding: 20px;"><p style="color: #544a51; font-family: -apple-system, BlinkMacSystemFont, "Segoe UI", Roboto, Oxygen-Sans, Ubuntu, Cantarell, "Helvetica Neue", sans-serif; font-size: 16px; line-height: 1.5; margin: 1em 0px;"><br /></p></div>Theresehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04794387209137253119noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4859205836091447938.post-4619683428363348412022-03-26T20:38:00.001-05:002022-03-26T20:38:15.874-05:00Overnight Baked Steel Cut Oats<p>We don't have a microwave, so I've had to get creative with pre-made HEARTY breakfasts these days. Breastfeeding hunger is real and I'm a bit of a mess on days I don't have pre-prepared food on hands. I'm actually loving baked oats way more than I expected to. I was getting tired of the two recipes I had on rotation, so I modified <a href="https://alexandracooks.com/2013/08/09/baked-steel-cut-oatmeal/" target="_blank">this recipe</a> today for a change of pace!</p><p><span style="font-size: medium;"><b>Baked Steel Cut Oatmeal (</b></span>makes 4 servings)</p><p>1 cup steel cut oats</p><p>1/4 cup pecans (or chopped nuts of choice)</p><p>1 tsp baking powder</p><p>1/2 tsp salt</p><p>1/2 tsp cinnamon</p><p>2 scoops collagen powder</p><p>1/4 cup maple syrup</p><p>2 cups milk of choice</p><p>2 tsp vanilla extract</p><p>2 Tbs butter, melted and cooled slightly</p><p>1 egg</p><p>1 cup frozen blueberries</p><p><br /></p><p>Mix all ingredients together in a medium bowl and stick in fridge overnight. </p><p>In the morning, stir again and pour into an 8x8 baking dish.</p><p>Bake at 375 for 40 minutes.</p><p>Try not to eat the whole pan in one day!</p><p><br /></p>Theresehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04794387209137253119noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4859205836091447938.post-59907358066102781822021-12-10T14:32:00.160-06:002022-04-14T15:50:00.515-05:00Isaac's Birth Story<p>So I went to bed on the December 9 at 41 weeks pregnant, after weeks of false alarms and emotional highs and lows. I was exhausted in all the ways. At my appointment that day, I'd talked about coming in for some sort of induction a few days before hitting 42 weeks, and I was defeatedly sure my body was just going to wait it out.</p><p>Instead, I woke up suddenly at 1:45am with fluid trickling down my leg. I had fallen asleep, as always those last few weeks, on my left side with a pillow propping my top leg way up to give baby as much room as possible to wriggle down into the pelvis when he was ready, and he was finally ready. I laid in the dark for a minute, savoring the quiet relief that this was finally it, and then I was seized with a deep, long, strong, painful contraction and NOTHING has ever hurt so good. I knew it was happening this time, and I got up to go to the bathroom, shower, and put on my labor outfit and a pad. I don't even know what else I did between then and the doula arriving at 3am. I timed contractions from 0147 to 0208 and they were all over a minute long and 2-3 minutes apart. After 7 contractions in 20 minutes, and the bone-deep knowledge that even though prodromal labor was painful, THESE were the deep, real contractions I remembered, I stopped timing. </p><p>Angela arrived at 0300, shortly after mom and dad did, and we walked to the hospital. I had to waddle slowly... really slowly during contractions... and I was just so happy knowing I was finally about to meet this baby! I felt like a warrior queen. I had waited and been patient and trusted, and this was finally happening on its own.</p><p>I got monitored upon arrival at 0330 and no one disputed the fact that I was in labor. I got checked before getting into the tub around 0410, and I was still at 3cm but more like 80-90% effaced although baby's head was still at -2 station. Ross had strung up some Christmas lights in the bathroom, and I soaked in the dark on all fours, listening to "Colorblind" by myself, collecting myself and trying to wrap my mind around what was about to happen. I swayed my hips to the words, "I am ready, I am ready, I am ready I am fine. I am covered in skin. No one gets to come in. Pull me out from inside. I am folding, and unfolding, and unfolding I am..." The words that had carried me thorough many anxious pregnancy walks worked to get me in the zone. It was all happening at last and I was ready for all of it.</p><p>It gets fuzzy after that, as the intensity grew. With Noah and Rosie, I loved Vanessa's detailed doula timeline and pictures. Neither Angela, nor the nurse, nor I had time to make notes or take pictures after this point. I might have tried listening to more of my playlist, but by the time the lab tech came in to draw my blood, it was becoming quickly apparent to me that this was not going to be a "rest between contractions" kind of labor. They were long, strong, intense, and building on top of each other pretty quickly. The buoyancy of the water wasn't providing relief, and counter pressure from Angela quickly became uncomfortable. </p><p>I got out of the tub shortly after 0500 and got in all fours on the bed. That didn't feel right either, so Angela got a peanut ball for me to drape my arms and upper body over, and that was it. That's where I stayed. For some reason, it felt best to hold onto the bed handrail with my right hand and grip for dear life and almost pull my hips to the left during contractions. I squeezed Ross' hand with my left hand, forearm resting on the ball, with my forehead resting on top. </p><p>At first, I was fighting panic. It was all happening so quickly! The nurse's note quotes me saying, "I can't keep up with this intensity" at 0519. Around that point, I asked for an epidural and Angela told me to get through two more contractions. I knew in my head I didn't have time to run a bag of fluids and start an epidural. Nor did I <i>really</i> want to. What I was really saying was that this was wildly overwhelming and I needed help. But then Dr. Sisk arrived at the bedside (at 0548 according to the notes) and I knew I was close to the finish line. I scooted my knees forward and my hips back a bit and sank into it. My mind sank back into my body, my weight sank back into my hips. Instead of tensing up and straightening out, I moaned and opened up my hips and swayed gently in the small breaks between contractions. </p><p>I remember at the very end, I finally found a rhythm in my head. It was something like a low moaning and exhale through a slow count of 4, then the contraction would peak, and I could breathe in again as it eased up, sway my hips in the pause, and then sink into the next wave. That counting helped a lot and eventually I could hear my voice start to catch as I moaned. I knew my body was starting to push. After a few of these contractions, the Fetal Ejection Reflex kicked in in earnest. I think I had 1-2 contractions where I knew THIS WAS IT, although I'm not sure I said anything out loud. I assumed they could all hear it in my voice! The next 1-2 contractions, I wasn't just crowning. I think around that point someone might have asked about switching positions, but I zoned them out and instead shouted, "his head is out!" </p><p>They whisked the sheet off and the doctor was there to catch the baby. When his head was all the way out, I was expecting them to tell me to breathe and wait for the next contraction, but instead they told me to push. I tried once, but it wasn't with a contraction and I was wrapping my mind around the fact that all wasn't entirely well and something must be stuck. Instead of panicking, I took a deep breath and DID push more effectively and after another 2 pushes (I think), he slipped out and all was well. It wasn't the water birth I wanted, but I was on all fours and I asked them to pass him under my the way I'd envisioned meeting him. They passed him under, I rolled to my side, and curled around him on the bed. We did it! The two of us worked as a team and we met face to face at last. 8 days past his due date and just in time for his Birth Day. </p><p>We finally had the first snow of the season that night, and a new season of our livest started that day as well. </p>Theresehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04794387209137253119noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4859205836091447938.post-11483268217049872612021-12-09T11:52:00.200-06:002022-04-14T15:10:30.458-05:0041 Weeks<p><span style="font-family: inherit;">I wrote almost an entire post here and somehow deleted it all. Fitting. I'm writing this 4 months after the fact and post-dating it, because such is life right now. I couldn't being myself to blog in real time by the end of pregnancy, because I really didn't expect to be pregnant on my due date, let alone beyond that. Yes, the physical discomforts were wearing on me, particularly the left round ligament pain, but I was unprepared for the mental aspects of the last few weeks of waiting. </span></p><p><span style="font-family: inherit;">On Friday November 12 I was 37.1 weeks pregnant. We finished our homeschool term, I recorded my podcast interview with Kori and Fallon, Noah lost his first tooth (I cried), and the kids had their last week of preschool and co-op as we started our newborn quarantine. I slept like a rock that night, after months of 3-5am insomnia! </span></p><p><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span>At the end of that weekend, on the early morning hours of November 14 (37.3) I had </span>time-able contractions every 10 minutes for 2 hours, but they petered out. The kids and I made baby's Birth Day cake that day, just in case. My homebirth cart was set up, the bathtub was clean, the newborn supplies were ready and waiting in the bassinet, my parents were on-call for the big kids, our maternity pictures had come back, and excitement was peaking. </span></p><p><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span>Then that Monday, at 37.4, my midwife had to back out of our contract. Not because anything was wrong, but because Nebraska is stupid (my words) and had launched another one of their campaigns to "investigate the credentials" of homebirth providers. I was devastated. I cried on and off for 24 hours straight. I knew I was excited for my homebirth, but I hadn't realized </span><i>just</i><span> how much I was looking forward to the experience until it was no longer an option. I had two </span>counseling<span> appointments and lots of tearful conversations over the next few days. I informed the doctor he was now Plan A and talked about what we could do to make the hospital as home-like as possible. I hired a doula after all. I wrote my first-ever birth plan. With a sinking heart and tears in my eyes, I moved labor and postpartum supplies from the birth cart to a hospital bag. I tried not to attach meaning or a story to the facts. For a few days, I had nary a Braxton-Hicks contraction, and I had a brief reprieve from the </span>hip<span> pain and swelling. I processed the heck out of things, in hopes of creating </span>safety<span> for my body and baby and getting things started again. I felt like I was having to turn all of this around really quickly-- I didn't realize how much I had been counting down to 38 weeks! I was in a hurry to be ready by that day, which felt incredibly rushed.</span></span></p><p><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span>Then 38 weeks came and went. Baby did, of course, re-engage after a week or so. We celebrated "Thanksgiving" the weekend before the real holiday. I'd </span><span>hoped to eat a big meal and walk that baby out. I loved the food, but the long walk just induced a good nap. So I didn't go into labor before my doctor and the doula went out of town for the long holiday weekend. I assumed things would kick in once they both got back. </span>Advent started that Sunday, and when the dinner prayer ended with the words, "come Lord Jesus, come quickly!" We started adding, "come baby brother, come quickly!"</span></p><p><span style="font-family: inherit;">Again, I had to confront just how much I'd been counting on 38 weeks, as we approached 40 weeks and I continued to be shocked I hadn't gone into labor. After passing the due date, shock turned into despondency. I stopped timing my spurts of prodromal labor. I started to understand why women would say, "I thought I was going to be pregnant forever!" I knew in my head that I wouldn't, of course. But going to bed with excitement each night quickly turned into going to bed with despair and dreading </span>another<span style="font-family: inherit;"> sleepless night with no baby in the morning. It was like groundhog day! </span></p><p><span style="font-family: inherit;">I started to fear my body really had forgotten what to do. I started to wrestle with Rosie's birth story and my mind tried to tell me that maybe my labor with Noah was the exception, and my body failing me was the rule. All lies, of course, but it was an actual mental battle to trust that baby would be born "when the days of my pregnancy had been completed" like the Bible says in these instances. I started to fear the cascade of interventions that I'd be pressured into with each additional day I remained pregnant at my "advanced gestational age."</span></p><p><span style="font-family: inherit;">Meanwhile, I tried to really soak in the last days of life with my 2 big kids, the end of my last pregnancy, the kicks and wiggles, the unique relief of submerging an aching belly in the bathtub. I told baby we couldn't wait to meet him and it was safe to come out now. I oscillated wildly between contented anticipation and anxious suspense. I had to repeatedly claim hope when doubt threatened to take over. </span></p><p><span style="font-family: inherit;">The weather helped a lot. We were having one of those magical sunny Novembers, so I would rest in bed during rest time, and then shoo the kids outside for the afternoon while I sat in the sun, propped up my feet, and read Labor with Hope and the latest Outlander book. </span></p><p><span style="font-family: inherit;">On December 1 (39.9), I read this excerpt by Hannah Brencher in light of Advent, and it reassured me:</span></p><p><span style="background-color: white; caret-color: rgb(38, 38, 38); font-family: inherit;"></span></p><blockquote><p><span style="background-color: white; caret-color: rgb(38, 38, 38); font-family: inherit;">“I think it is far too easy to package up the story of Elizabeth and say, "See!? Elizabeth is someone who was waiting for something, and then God showed up." Yes, this is all true. But anyone who has felt the waiting period knows the feelings and longings and pain of another day unfulfilled leaves scars. It isn't something you get over instantly (or sometimes ever). It stays with you.</span></p><p><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="background-color: white; caret-color: rgb(38, 38, 38);">The waiting changes us.</span><br style="caret-color: rgb(38, 38, 38);" /><br style="caret-color: rgb(38, 38, 38);" /><span style="background-color: white; caret-color: rgb(38, 38, 38);">It turns us into different versions of ourselves.</span><br style="caret-color: rgb(38, 38, 38);" /><br style="caret-color: rgb(38, 38, 38);" /><span style="background-color: white; caret-color: rgb(38, 38, 38);">Even though the Bible makes it clear that waiting is an unavoidable part of life, it is still so hard to be able to say, "All of this has a purpose. All of these unfulfilled yearnings are turning me into a steadfast person." That's not something we easily utter or can tell someone else when the waiting has taken a turn for the "too long."</span><br style="caret-color: rgb(38, 38, 38);" /><br style="caret-color: rgb(38, 38, 38);" /><span style="background-color: white; caret-color: rgb(38, 38, 38);">No matter where you are today, God sees you in the waiting. He counts every prayer. He knows what your heart yearns for and the Bible says that if you cannot specifically ask for it, God will still know your desires by the groans of your heart. That is our God.</span><br style="caret-color: rgb(38, 38, 38);" /><br style="caret-color: rgb(38, 38, 38);" /><span style="background-color: white; caret-color: rgb(38, 38, 38);">He is a God who does not dismiss us when the waiting feels endless. He is a God who does not walk out on us or use the waiting to punish us.”</span></span></p></blockquote><p><span><span style="background-color: white; caret-color: rgb(38, 38, 38); font-family: inherit;"></span></span></p><p><span style="background-color: white; font-family: inherit;"><span style="caret-color: rgb(38, 38, 38);">Yet I felt like I'd earned the right to try some home induction tactics by 40 weeks. My due date appointment still showed a healthy baby with good amniotic fluid levels. The day AFTER my due date, I got "induction acupuncture" which did exactly nothing. So I said, "screw it" and after weeks of staying isolated and close to home, we trekked into Omaha for a fancy dinner as a family of four. I was craving a mussels platter from Darios, and I was also trying to reverse psychologize that baby out. "Maybe if I say, </span><i style="caret-color: rgb(38, 38, 38);">you can't come tonight because I have plans</i><span style="caret-color: rgb(38, 38, 38);">, he'll actually come." Alas, labor did not start but we made some really sweet memories. The wait was wearing on all of us, and it was hard for the kids to understand, too, why the baby wasn't here yet when I'd told them he'd be here by Thanksgiving. Rosie was quite offended when baby still wasn't here by his due date, and Noah was needing reassurance that the baby would actually be here no later than 42 weeks (I was needing that reassurance, too).</span></span></p><p><span style="background-color: white;"><span style="caret-color: rgb(38, 38, 38); font-family: inherit;">At 40.4 that Monday, I felt like I was totally within reason to try some more aggressive methods of induction, especially after another round of minute-long contractions every 3-5 minutes for an hour and a half at 1am that morning. I tried pumping over the weekend and had done the Miles Circuit more times than I could count. Chiro, PT, and spinning babies were on repeat. So on December 6, I got my membranes swept. It was totally painless, which told me my body was probably close to being ready and I wasn't interfering unduly. It would either work, or it wouldn't. (I was at 3cm but only 50% effaced with baby's head at -2 station when they checked). I took a nap that afternoon and I SWEAR that when I woke up at 3:30pm, I felt a pop and a small gush of fluid. I called the doula, my doctor, my parents. We got the kids to bed after dinner, Angela came over along with Mom and Dad, and I just kept cramping. Nothing escalated. I finally told the doula to go home after all, and I went to bed really discouraged. Mom and Dad stayed the night, but nothing came of it. I still wasn't in labor by the next morning and the lie that my body had forgotten what to do was playing heavily on my mind. </span></span></p><p><span style="background-color: white;"><span style="caret-color: rgb(38, 38, 38); font-family: inherit;">I finally went in after 24 hours of this, and while my fluid levels were lower on ultrasound, the amniotic fluid test strip was negative, SO then I just felt stupid and like I was a first time mom and not a third time mom in terms of knowing what my body was doing. It was embarrassing even though, in hindsight, it shouldn't have been. I was just SO READY to meet this long-awaited baby!</span></span></p><p><span style="background-color: white;"><span style="caret-color: rgb(38, 38, 38); font-family: inherit;">On December 8, I read this advent devotional by Hannah Brencher:</span></span></p><p><span style="background-color: white;"><span style="caret-color: rgb(38, 38, 38); font-family: inherit;"></span></span></p><p></p><p></p><p></p><blockquote><span style="background-color: white;"><span style="caret-color: rgb(38, 38, 38); font-family: inherit;">“Mary's response is faith, never fear, throughout the entire story. She arguably had every reason to freak out over the story unfolding before her, but she stood firm in her faith and scripted that faith into an anthem.<br /><br />I can think of several instances in my life where I did not sing a Mary song. Instead, I rehearsed back a familiar anthem of fear to myself. Fear that God would not show up. Fear that promises would not unfold. Fear that I would take the next step only to trip and fall.<br /><br />Every day, I can choose to glorify God for what he is doing, or I can script a solo story where everything weighs upon my shoulders. <br /><br />In your own story, you will often be faced with the same choice: faith or fear. Trust that God will do it or fear that it's all up to you.<br /><br />…Today you can soak in the reminder that he is a God who picks you out of the crowd for a divine purpose. He makes no mistakes. He never gets it wrong. He's not playing head games with you. He does not spoil his children only to pull the rug out from underneath them.<br /><br />He walks with you. He covers you. He goes before you and follows behind you. You are precious to him, and he is delighted by your "yes." And even if you live your whole life with a thick film of fear over your eyes, he won't think to love you any less.<br /><br />You have a choice, though. Every single day. Faith or fear. How will you respond?” </span></span></blockquote><p><span style="background-color: white; font-family: inherit;">In spite of these good words, b</span><span style="background-color: white; caret-color: rgb(38, 38, 38); font-family: inherit;">y 41 weeks on the 9th, I was getting really anxious I'd need to induce. The fluid levels looked good, but Dr. Sisk kept me on the monitor for quite a while at my appointment to make sure baby's heart rate was okay and he was really just napping and not stressed. While I sat in the recliner listening to his steady heartbeat, I closed my eyes and visualized going into labor that evening once the kids were asleep. I imagined changing from the outfit I was in, into my labor outfit, bouncing on my exercise ball, calling the doula, relaxing in the tub, walking to the hospital. I saw it all in my mind's eye. </span></p><p><span style="background-color: white; caret-color: rgb(38, 38, 38); font-family: inherit;">So when I had evening contractions that petered out again (1 minute long, 5-7 minutes apart after dinner for an hour), I went to bed pretty annoyed. Well, that's putting it mildly. I had some profanity-laced thoughts for God in my journal entry on "December freaking 9th" in which I insisted I was taking my OWN day of PTO tomorrow because Ross had been off all week, ever since my false alarm Monday, and</span><span style="background-color: white; caret-color: rgb(38, 38, 38); font-family: inherit;"> </span><i style="caret-color: rgb(38, 38, 38); font-family: inherit;">nothing was happening</i><span style="background-color: white; caret-color: rgb(38, 38, 38); font-family: inherit;">. I vented, "I didn't want to re-start homeschool and germ exposure a measly 2-3 weeks postpartum. I wanted and planned for 5 weeks of REST after this baby was born, and this isn't (****) it. The first week was nice, the second was antsy, and this week has been ridiculous. It's been 3 weekends of meal planning and grocery lists thinking, 'surely this is the last pre-baby,' and here we are well into another (effing) month!"</span></p><p><span style="background-color: white;"><span style="caret-color: rgb(38, 38, 38); font-family: inherit;">I ended up falling asleep easily after getting all of that out of my system!</span></span></p>Theresehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04794387209137253119noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4859205836091447938.post-40364630296378416472021-12-06T12:42:00.001-06:002021-12-06T12:42:28.447-06:00The In-Between<p><span style="font-family: inherit;">A friend sent this to me last night and it made me tear up when I read it this morning. I've been feeling this deeply but hadn't really seen it put into words anywhere. Because the internet it fickle, I'm pasting the whole thing right here so I can remember.</span></p><p><span style="font-family: inherit;">The article is from Mothering.com and it was written by a Midwife named Jana Studelska</span></p><p><span style="font-family: inherit;"><br /></span></p><p><span style="font-family: inherit; font-size: large;">The Last Days of Pregnancy</span></p><p><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="box-sizing: border-box; caret-color: rgb(56, 58, 59);"><span style="box-sizing: border-box;">The last days of pregnancy are a distinct time of in-between. It's a tricky time for mothers, as these last few days are biological and psychological events.</span></span><br style="box-sizing: border-box; caret-color: rgb(56, 58, 59);" /><br style="box-sizing: border-box; caret-color: rgb(56, 58, 59);" /><span style="background-color: white; caret-color: rgb(56, 58, 59);">She's curled up on the couch, waiting, a ball of baby and emotions. A scrambled pile of books on pregnancy, labor, baby names, breastfeeding, and not one more word can be absorbed. The birth supplies are loaded in a laundry basket, ready for action. The freezer is filled with meals, the car seat installed, the camera charged. It's time to hurry up and wait. <span style="font-size: medium;">Not a comfortable place to be, but wholly necessary.</span></span><br style="box-sizing: border-box; caret-color: rgb(56, 58, 59);" /><br style="box-sizing: border-box; caret-color: rgb(56, 58, 59);" /><span style="background-color: white; caret-color: rgb(56, 58, 59);">The last days of pregnancy - sometimes stretching to agonizing weeks - are a distinct place, time, event, stage. It is a time of in between. Neither here nor there. <i>Your old self and your new self, balanced on the edge of a pregnancy. One foot in your old world, one foot in a new world.</i></span><i><br style="box-sizing: border-box; caret-color: rgb(56, 58, 59);" /></i></span></p><p><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="background-color: white; caret-color: rgb(56, 58, 59);">Shouldn't there be a word for this state of being, describing the time and place where mothers linger, waiting to be called forward?</span><br style="box-sizing: border-box; caret-color: rgb(56, 58, 59);" /><br style="box-sizing: border-box; caret-color: rgb(56, 58, 59);" /><span style="background-color: white; caret-color: rgb(56, 58, 59);">Germans have a word, zwischen, which means between. I've co-opted that word for my own obstetrical uses. When I sense the discomfort and tension of late pregnancy in my clients, I suggest that they are now in The Time of Zwischen. <i>The time of in between, where the opening begins. Giving it a name gives it dimension, an experience closer to wonder than endurance.</i></span><br style="box-sizing: border-box; caret-color: rgb(56, 58, 59);" /><br style="box-sizing: border-box; caret-color: rgb(56, 58, 59);" /><span style="background-color: white; caret-color: rgb(56, 58, 59);">I tell these beautiful, round, swollen, weepy women to go with it and be okay there. Feel it, think it, don't push it away. Write it down, sing really loudly when no one else is home, go commune with nature, or crawl into your own mama's lap so she can rub your head until you feel better. I tell their men to let go of their worry; this is an early sign of labor. I encourage them to sequester themselves if they need space, to go out if they need distraction, to enjoy the last hours of this life-as-they-now-know-it. I try to give them permission to follow the instinctual gravitational pulls that are at work within them, just as real and necessary as labor.</span><br style="box-sizing: border-box; caret-color: rgb(56, 58, 59);" /><br style="box-sizing: border-box; caret-color: rgb(56, 58, 59);" /><span style="background-color: white; caret-color: rgb(56, 58, 59);">The discomforts of late pregnancy are easy to Google: painful pelvis, squished bladder, swollen ankles, leaky nipples, weight unevenly distributed in a girth that makes scratching an itch at ankle level a feat of flexibility. "You might find yourself teary and exhausted," says one website, "but your baby is coming soon!" <i>Cheer up, sweetie, you're having a baby. More messaging that what is going on is incidental and insignificant</i>.</span></span></p><p><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="background-color: white; caret-color: rgb(56, 58, 59);"><span style="font-size: medium;">What we don't have is reverence or relevance - or even a working understanding of the vulnerability and openness a woman experiences at this time. Our language and culture fails us. This surely explains why many women find this time so complicated and tricky. But whether we recognize it or not, these last days of pregnancy are a distinct biologic and psychological event, essential to the birth of a mother.</span></span><br style="box-sizing: border-box; caret-color: rgb(56, 58, 59);" /><br style="box-sizing: border-box; caret-color: rgb(56, 58, 59);" /><span style="background-color: white; caret-color: rgb(56, 58, 59);">We don't scientifically understand the complex hormones at play that loosen both her hips and her awareness. In fact, this uncomfortable time of aching is an early form of labor in which a woman begins opening her cervix and her soul. Someday, maybe we will be able to quantify this hormonal advance - the prolactin, oxytocin, cortisol, relaxin. But for now, it is still shrouded in mystery, and we know only how to measure thinning and dilation.</span></span></p><p><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="background-color: white; caret-color: rgb(56, 58, 59);"><span style="font-size: medium;">I believe that this is more than biological. It is spiritual. To give birth, whether at home in a birth tub with candles and family or in a surgical suite with machines and a neonatal team, a woman must go to the place between this world and the next, to that thin membrane between here and there. To the place where life comes from, to the mystery, in order to reach over to bring forth the child that is hers. The heroic tales of Odysseus are with us, each ordinary day. This round woman is not going into battle, but she is going to the edge of her being where every resource she has will be called on to assist in this journey.</span></span><br style="box-sizing: border-box; caret-color: rgb(56, 58, 59);" /><br style="box-sizing: border-box; caret-color: rgb(56, 58, 59);" /><span style="background-color: white; caret-color: rgb(56, 58, 59);">We need time and space to prepare for that journey. And somewhere, deep inside us, at a primal level, our cells and hormones and mind and soul know this, and begin the work with or without our awareness.</span><br style="box-sizing: border-box; caret-color: rgb(56, 58, 59);" /><br style="box-sizing: border-box; caret-color: rgb(56, 58, 59);" /><span style="background-color: white; caret-color: rgb(56, 58, 59);">I call out Zwischen in prenatals as a way of offering comfort and, also, as a way of offering protection. I see how simple it is to exploit and abuse this time. <i>A scheduled induction is seductive, promising a sense of control.</i> Fearful and confused family can trigger a crisis of confidence. We are not a culture that waits for anything, nor are we believers in normal birth; waiting for a baby can feel like insanity. Giving this a name points her toward listening and developing her own intuition. That, in turn, is a powerful training ground for motherhood.</span></span></p>Theresehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04794387209137253119noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4859205836091447938.post-36441234433102368472021-12-02T20:26:00.003-06:002021-12-02T20:26:55.423-06:0040. Weeks. <p>Welp, this is what it feels like for all my pregnant cohorts to deliver before me, to feel like the last month of pregnancy lasts forever, to feel like the baby is never going to come. I couldn't bring myself to write a 39 week update because I thought surely he'd be here the next day, then the next...</p><p>I've had a few more nights of prodromal labor that amounted to exactly nothing, though, so if I went through a lot of denial, anger, and bargaining after changing birth plans, I've gone through depression and acceptance in the past two weeks. Just today, I really felt like I was able to accept that he really is just that cozy and safe in there. Likely the warmest, securest, safest place you'll ever be, I guess. Reframing it has helped. I no longer feel like something's "wrong" and he's not going to be able to come out. He's just not in a rush and so far, that's okay. I'm not going to harshly evict him just because I'm uncomfortable. Time to practice what I preach ;-)</p><p>I went to PT yesterday and felt like baby "dropped" a lot by this morning. His AFI was 16+ and HR 143 at today's OB appointment, I measured at 38 weeks which maybe corroborates with the feeling of "dropping" and also reassures me maybe he's not ginormous yet. His head was down and flexed and ready to go! I went to acupuncture for gentle "induction" after lunch, and then to the chiropractor ("you are not STILL pregnant!"). Then we had our first outdoor playdate in ages which certainly kept me distracted, if not self-conscious about how little we've seen other people these days.</p><p>Pregnancy in the time of this stupid virus has brought a lot more stress than I anticipated, given that it seemed to be fading out when we got pregnant back in March, and this isn't my first baby. However, the world as it now presents itself and affects personal relationships has had its tremendously stressful and isolating moments, and even normal cold and flu season after Rosie's RSV scare is enough to keep me in hiding. I've been SO GRATEFUL for the sunshine and unseasonably warm weather, and the kids mostly seem to be getting along and enjoying the change of pace... for now. I'm hoping this lasts!</p><p>They're getting pretty tired of the answer to, "what's the plan for tomorrow?" simply being, "waiting for baby brother." While on the one hand, it's a wonderful illustration of Advent, on the other, it's getting fairly monotonous.</p><p>After he didn't come by Thanksgiving like we initially told the kids, we all placed bets on when he'd be born. Winner gets to pick the next place we get takeout from. Rosie was the first to place her bet, confidently saying he'd be born on his due date (today). I bet that he'd come last Saturday when my doula got back in town. I had 3 hours of contractions that night, but clearly no baby. Noah bet November 30, which came and went. Then tonight at bedtime, Rosie sadly said, "I guess baby brother forgot it was his due date!" Ross voted for Dec. 4 which was offensive at the time ("you're betting on me being uncomfortable for another week?!") but doesn't seem so far-fetched now. </p><p>I can't believe November wasn't baby month, after all the prodromal labor, let alone the significant birthdays and milestones and memories it holds. But maybe this is part of God doing this new thing. It's all new. This baby exists because God wants him to exist, not because he fits some neat and tidy narrative, as much as my brain like that sort of thing.</p><p>Baby brother, I love that you're chill and safe and you know what you like. But also, gosh, we are so ready to snuggle with you on the outside. As fun as your copious wiggles are on the inside, we are just ready to meet you in full after 9 months of experiencing you in part!</p><p><br /></p>Theresehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04794387209137253119noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4859205836091447938.post-31519096855603329352021-11-17T17:36:00.060-06:002021-11-17T18:51:59.470-06:0038 weeks<p><span style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;">Oh my stars. Did I just post on Instagram last week about having an experience of calm at the end of pregnancy for once? Just kidding. Let's see... last Friday I had a huge podcast interview and immediately afterwards I felt like baby wiggled around a bunch and "dropped" and I was having lots of pressure. I slept like a ROCK that night after getting home late from my homeschool book club. The best I've slept all pregnancy, I think. Saturday, I had a massage, got my breast pump (finally), ran some errands, and probably didn't hydrate enough. Saturday night, I was up for 2 hours with regular contractions every 10-12 minutes. All day Sunday I had Braxton-Hicks and tons of discomfort. </span></p><p><span style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;">Monday, my home birth midwife came over to tell me that she was having to cancel the rest of her contracts for the year based on circumstances that are 100% outside of my control. Insert *record scratching* in my brain. What?! </span></p><p><span style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;">I spent the whole afternoon alternating between shock, crying, and staring at my phone trying to talk to people and find ANY way to still make this homebirth happen. I knew I was so excited about it, but I don't think I realized how much I'd invested in it in terms of a corrective emotional experience until it was taken away at what is really the very last minute. No one's going to take a new client at 38 weeks. Even if they were willing to since I've had homebirth prenatal care and could essentially transfer my records from a reputable midwife, they're likely booked AND next week is a holiday. Those are the answers I was getting. Or else people suggesting I drive to another state to deliver in an AirBNB. Sorry, but to me that's not a HOME birth. At least not the kind I was wanting. </span></p><p><span style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;">I wanted to see what it was like to trust my body and be surrounded with a team I've gotten to know for 9 months who ALSO trust my body. I wanted to know what uninterrupted labor felt like in a safe environment that I was in control of. I wanted to birth in the water. I wanted to shower in my own shower and sleep in my own bed. It felt like I went from an entire pregnancy of looking forward to how completely NORMAL it felt to have the midwife come to me and to think about starting and ending labor in the comfort of my own home to being paralyzed at the thought of arriving in the hospital and experiencing the high levels of stress I had last time when the team was questioning my body and therefore I was, too. Just... no. I was devastated and it felt like all doors were closing in my face after free, easy, access to the idea of a homebirth from day one of this pregnancy. What the heck!?</span></p><p><span style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;">It brought up lots of baggage from the last 3 years, too: Why can't anything go the way I planned? Why would something that felt so right go so wrong? Why did I get my hopes up only to be disappointed yet again?! And then, of course, fears: does this mean something bad will happen and I am going to NEED to be in the hospital? After crying all night (seriously, my eyes were swollen the entire next day) I reached out to a new set of people as well as to my counselors because I knew I needed to reframe. I talked with the OB on the phone and asked A LOT of questions about making a hospital birth more like the birth experience I'd been planning on this time. I talked with a doula acquaintance that I'd just seen last week who was actually willing to take me on this late in the game simply because she knows me. </span></p><p><span style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;">I also started challenging myself to reframe because I needed to get ahold of myself after being in shock for 48 hours. I realized I was partly so upset because of the loss of control and all that brings up, but also partly because the hospital has become really stressful to me between Rosie's 2 hospitalizations and working in a hostile environment during COVID with a horrible manager. I wanted to bypass the whole thing. Maybe I'll never know why I don't get to. But maybe this is an opportunity to address ALL of it and REALLY turn the page on an entirely new chapter. Not just to have a corrective emotional experience around birth and marriage, but around parenting and holding my ground and believing in myself and not really caring so much what other people think of me. I'm educated and informed and my no one cares more about my body and my baby than I do, thank you very much. So. Time will tell. </span></p><p><span style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;">My doula does leave town for the holiday next week, so I've been telling baby that it's safe to come any time between now and next Tuesday! What's WILD is that after the midwife came over this Monday, I felt like the baby UN-engaged from my pelvis and weeks of Braxton-Hicks contractions just STOPPED. For a full 24 hours, nothing but occasional baby kicks. Like he KNEW he couldn't come until we had a safe place for him to arrive in. Last night, I started having Braxton-Hicks again and baby has been moving a ton and re-engaging and that's all encouraging. Poor guy. I'm sure the stress hormones were a shock to his system, too.</span></p><p><span style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;">I teared up a little as I moved things from my birth cart to the hospital bag last night. I really was the most prepared, excited homebirth mama-in-waiting you ever did see. Setting up the birth cart and envisioning the magic was SO fun. Filling the hospital bag and trying to write a birth plan that didn't sound defensive wasn't nearly as fun. But today Rosie asked about the coconut water, apple juice, and applesauce on the stairs and I told her I needed to pack it in my hospital bag so I had energy during labor. (The kids are also sad homebirth is no longer happening, especially Noah. He loves a good party.) She took it up stairs for me and said, "so baby brother has energy, too, because what you eat he eats!" We are all so ready to meet him. As fun as feeling the kicks are, seeing them will be even better.</span></p><p><span style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;">So. Here's the little "survey" I planned to write this week before everything hit the fan! But it's still a fun recap of what I think/HOPE will be my last pregnancy update!</span></p><p><span style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;"><br /></span></p><p><b style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;"><br /></b></p><p><b style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;">How far along?</b><span style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;"> I'm technically writing this at 37 weeks and 6 days. Today feels big. We have a new birth plan in place with a provider, a location, and a doula. I sent my birth plan (the first one I've ever written) to the OB and spent an hour on the phone with the doula talking about my birth preferences. Our family maternity pictures arrived in my inbox! My podcast interview for Freely Rooted came out!</span></p><b style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;">Weight gain:</b><span style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;"> I will maybe check tomorrow morning, but as of 37 weeks it was up 26 pounds, which is basically on-par with the first two even though I'm eating way more food. I did start this pregnancy a full 20 pounds heavier, so this is by far the most weight I've ever carried and I feel it in my knees the last few weeks. But I've worked so hard to nourish my body better this time and I'm so hopeful it pays off postpartum!</span><div><br /></div><div><b style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;">Stretch marks? </b><span style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;">Shockingly, no new ones! My sweet belly is just stretching and stretching on baby's behalf.</span><br style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;" /><b style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;"><br /></b></div><div><b style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;">Sleep:</b><span style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;"> Meh. I'm so used to not sleeping. Let's just say I've read A LOT of novels in the middle of the night this pregnancy! At least I'm not panicked about it like I was at the beginning. I'm also pretty sore and generally have to rotate from side to side because my glutes cramp up after about 90 minutes on one side. And the left side, as always, remains the more painful one. Especially where the round ligament attaches to the pubic bone.</span></div><div><span style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;"><br /></span></div><div><b style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;">Best moment of the week:</b><span style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;"> Maternity pics and the podcast are both like little presents today after a hard few days. So was my conversation with the doula who just made me feel a lot more at peace.</span></div><div><span style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;"><br /></span></div><div><b style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;">Miss anything? </b><span style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;">I so badly miss not being out of breath all the time. Being able to bend at the waist and pick stuff up off the floor will be nice again, too. Although the last few months are teaching me these kids are big enough to be expected to do more and more of this themselves.</span></div><div><b style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;"><br /></b></div><div><b style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;">Movement: </b><span style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;">Lots of little kicks and wiggles as well as hiccups once or twice a day most days.</span></div><div><b style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;"><br /></b></div><div><b style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;">Cravings?</b><span style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;"> I've actually been craving sushi (philly roll with smoked salmon) or else a pot of mussels from Dario's. Neither is easily accessible right now.</span><br style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;" /><br style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;" /><b style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;">Aversions? </b><span style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;">Food is so tedious.</span><span style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;"> I've mastered some of the reflux I was having with baking soda in water before bed and being vigilant with digestive enzymes with meals, but I still just have a sour stomach most of the time. Noah's fighting off a stomach bug so I'm sure that's not helping me either.</span></div><div><b style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;"><br /></b></div><div><b style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;">Symptoms: </b><span style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;">Of pregnancy? LOL all of them. Low-key nausea, low-key heartburn, shortness of breath, nasal congestion, fatigue, insomnia, back pain, hip pain... But also mystery, delight, anticipation, awe... it really is the best of times and the worst of times.</span></div><div><b style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;"><br /></b></div><div><b style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;">Signs of labor?</b><span style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;"> Lots of Braxton-Hicks, occasionally some painful contractions. Definitely a sense of baby being lower. But aside from those two hours Saturday night, nothing that could actually be considered pre-labor. But... so weird... my boobs have been more sore again in the last week and I swear I smell like milk all the time now!</span><br style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;" /><br style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;" /><b style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;">Belly button in or out? </b><span style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;">Oh it's been basically an outie since the end of the first trimester, if not sooner. It's allllmost in umbilical hernia territory but it's barely hanging on. Hopefully I can rehab the separation there without surgery over the course of the next year.</span></div><div><b style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;"><br /></b></div><div><b style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;">Happy or moody?</b><span style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;"> Less anxious than I have been, which is good. Mostly just tired. It's been a wild ride. Really wanting to soak up the last few days with baby on the inside AND with Noah and Rosie. I feel like I "lost" a few days in the scramble of the changes this week.</span><br style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;" /><br style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;" /><b style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;">Looking forward to: </b><span style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;">Being in labor and not constantly wondering if today is the day! MEETING THIS BABY.</span></div><div><span style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;"><br /></span></div><div><span style="caret-color: rgb(102, 102, 102); color: #666666; font-family: Georgia, Utopia, "Palatino Linotype", Palatino, serif; font-size: 15.399999618530273px;"><br /></span></div>Theresehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/04794387209137253119noreply@blogger.com0