Infinite Yes

i thank You God for this most amazing
day:for the leaping greenly spirits of trees
and a blue true dream of sky;and for everything
which is natural which is infinite which is yes

(i who have died am alive again today,
and this is the sun's birthday;this is the birth
day of life and love and wings:and of the gay
great happening illimitably earth)

how should tasting touching hearing seeing
breathing any-lifted from the no
of all nothing-human merely being
doubt unimaginable You?

(now the ears of my ears awake and
now the eyes of my eyes are opened)

-e.e. cummings

I read this poem a few days ago, and started thinking about "that which is yes" and the "no of all nothing" that stems from doubt. When Ross got his job at Derek Porter this January, the possibility of us staying in Kansas City for the long-term became much more real. This set off a bit of a panic reaction in me. We've been here a year and a half, but I'm still biding my time. Waiting to reach out and make friends, avoiding getting involved. This serves no one, least of all myself.

Living in Kansas City is an answer to an infinite number of questions. It can be a "no" and it can be a "yes." It doesn't have to be either/or, black and white. We can live in shades of gray, and the other colors that stem from that multi-faceted prism when we allow the light to shine through.

With all these thoughts in mind, this passage from 2 Corinthians caught my eye the other night, when normally I would have glazed over it:

I planned to visit you on my way to Macedonia and... then to have you send me on my way to Judea. When I planned this, did I do it lightly? Or do I make my plans in a worldly manner so that in the same breath I say, "yes, yes" and "no, no"?

But as surely as God is faithful, our message to you is not "yes" and "no." For the Son of God, Jesus Christ, was not "Yes" and No," but in him it has always been "Yes." For no matter how many promises God has made, they are "Yes" in Christ. And so through him the "Amen" is spoken by us to the glory of God... He put his seal of ownership on us, and put his Spirit in our hearts as a deposit, guaranteeing what is to come.

2 Corinthians 1:16-22

This week, I'm praying for God to make me more open to His infinite yes.